How hard?

Life is changing like Fall is changing to Winter.

Life never stays the same. You're faced with challenges, and heartbreaks. You're faced with the un-known.

But, what do you do when someone you love is making a choice you feel in your heart is wrong? Do you stand back, and love them anyways? Do you remember the good times, and keep every memory safe inside your heart?

Being challenged I believe is something God does every once in awhile. He sees if you're truly listening, or willing to listen. What if you're ready to give up though? What if you feel you can't go anymore, and it would just be easier to give up?

Life never goes the way you think it will. It never goes like a perfect fairytale, that you thought about when you were younger. Things change. People change.

You can't live in fear of the un-known though. You can't be scared to live your life, because you're scared of what the outcome will be of that choice. My advice, and what I try to live by, is, what if you never get the chance? Will you regret it? If so, don't. I want to tell the people I love what I truly think. I don't want to live in the fear that I'll never get the chance. I'll live my whole life and never get the chance to voice everything I wanted to say.

Anyways, back to what I was saying. What do you do? For the person you care about, and love. Do you sit back, and watch them learn from their mistakes? What do you do?

I can pray. I know I can do that. And believe me, me and my Heavenly Daddy have many prayer times.

I can hope they'll come around. But I know one thing, you can't make someone change. They have to WANT it on their own. If they don't want it, nothing will happen. So the day they come around and say, "I want a change. I want a change in my heart." That's the day you'll SEE change. And real CHANGE.

But this person, is not someone I believe in giving up on. I believe in the power of PRAYER. And I'll always hold to that.

I don't believe in EVER giving up on someone in my life. I've seen it happen a couple times in my life, and I've made myself a promise, that I won't give up on someone. I won't back down, or tell them they are too much to handle. I don't feel like giving up on someone does anything for anyone. I want to be here for you. I want to challenge you, and see you build in Christ. I want to pray for you. I want to see you walk in TRUTH. I want to see the amazing outcome of it all. I want to see you push through the trials, and conquer the hard obstacles that you face.

I believe in you. I believe in my Heavenly Daddy, and I believe that God can make ALL things new!
=)

How hard would it be to just say to them that you're praying for them? Not hard. It'll be harder to see them fail, and not have any support in this hard time. Tell them you'll be there. Tell them you'll walk with them, and see them on the other side of this obstacle. Tell them you care.
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My dreams I feel are sometimes so off pace, but if I never get the chance to accomplish my dreams...I'll just have to make new ones.
(A quote I found the other day.)

.Princess in Waiting.

Love.

Love is--

1. Waiting instead of hurrying.

2. Showing up when there is no time.

3. Listening rather than talking.

4. forgiving instead of holding a grudge.

5. Assuming the best.

6. Choosing kindness rather than anger.

7. Celebrating instead of envying.

8. Anticipating needs.

9. Choosing to be humble.

10. Never giving up -continuing to the end.

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I saw this quote today, and thought it was great. Sadly I didn't write this myself, but I thought I'd share it. =) Love is many different things.

.Princess in Waiting.

James.

"Be patient, then, brothers and sisters, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield it's valuable crop, patiently waiting for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near. Don't grumble against one another, brothers and sisters, or you will be judged. The judge is standing at the door!
Brothers and sisters, as an example of the patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.
Above all, my brothers and sisters, do not swear--not by heaven or by earth or by anything else. All you need to say is a simple "Yes" or "No." Otherwise you will be condemned."

James 5:7-12

These are the verses God brought to my heart tonight, and I wanted to share it because you never know how they can speak to you also. These verses are helping in the season I'm in at the moment. But I know that God is with my forever. Whom shall I fear when He is beside me? No one.

Enjoy, and have a lovely night.

.Princess in Waiting.

p.s. Go read these verses in your Bible because it may be worded differently, and God may speak to you that way. Take the time to spend it with God.

1st of December.

Never posted this for some reason I'm not sure about....but here you are =)

Hello December!

Well, today was a first in many ways. It was the first snow fall I saw this year (2nd for my town.) Also, it didn't stay very long. Sun came out, and it all melted, but it was a wonderful way to wake up this morning.

I've told myself (and the month of December) that this month is going to be a great month for me. It'll hold a lot of happiness, and things are gonna change for me. Things are gonna start looking up for me. I'm going to become myself again. This is the last month to 2010, and then we'll be venturing out on 2011. Wow, what all will 2011 hold for me? Crazy to think about. Maybe I'll even learn how to FINALLY drive in 2011. I said maybe.

I'm going to fill my room with things that make me dream, and look for the better in everything. My room is my safe haven. It's my hiding place. And this will be the place where I find myself again.

December for me is going to be a good month, because no matter what happens I'm going to make it a good month. When I think of December, I honestly think of sadness. Ask me why, and...I won't tell you. ;) ha. But anyways, it's sadness to me, so I'm going to change that. Myself with God on my side. Because honestly not everything is going to go good for me, not everything is going to go the way I want it to go. although with no matter what obstacles I face, I can make it a good month..and with that I can make this next year a good year! I just have to find the good in everything.

December 1st 2010, wasn't that amazing of a day, but let's see the good in it. I got to spend time with my Heavenly Daddy tonight at church. I got to be with friends. I got to spend time with my Momma earlier today. All good things :) I'm trying to see the brighter side to my life lately. I'm tired of seeing the cup half empty instead of full.

I've realized that at different times I will get on little hypes of wanting to write, and getting inspired, and then I'll have a long time of having nothing to write. Right now I want to write all the time, even if it doesn't make sense. =) So, expect me to take a break here soon because I've lost my inspiration.

This is my month to shine. My month to accomplish the rest of the stuff I wanted to do in 2010. Like get my ears pierced. Or learn how to drive. This is my month. I will conquer the challenges, and obstacles. I will face my fears, and I will live this life with a smile on my face.

I'm a big girl, I can handle it.

.Princess in Waiting.

P.S. December was a good month for me. I didn't learn how to drive but I did get my ears pierced!!!!!!!! =)

Just a small town girl.

Hello Bloggers everywhere in the world tonight,

I realized tonight how I'm a small town girl. I may not be meant for a big city. I'm okay with that, because being able to drive through my downtown every day to get home is heaven to me. All the Christmas lights throughout mainstreet...pure happiness.

I've always wanted to be stuck in the middle of craziness, because I'm really good at handling craziness, but my small town is my hometown in a way. I love it.

I'm quirky, and silly. I'm also at times very moody, and cranky, but this is who I am. I love the words "Beautiful" and "Lovely" and I love to see beauty in the small things. I love little children's laughter. And I love to see people smile. I try not to go a day without telling someone I love them, and I'm very proud of myself for the things I've accomplished in my life.

I try not to regret things in my life. I say that if they happened, than someday I'll know that it happened for a reason. I love spur of the moment kind of trips. And late night runs into town for absolutely crazy stuff makes me happy.

I make things to remember special times in my life. And I live this crazy life of mine thankful for everyday. I believe in the broken, and I believe that there isn't such a thing as too many 2nd chances. Love at first sight is a lovely thing. I believe you can absolutely love someone from the fight glance...You just might not know it till ages later, that you actually loved them from the fight meeting.

I'm the kind of girl that the little things are what matter. I don't want diamonds, or jewels. I want smiles, and hugs. I want a text in the middle of the day simply saying, "I was thinking about you today." I would rather have 1 single rose than a dozen red roses. They all hold the same beauty.

I get very antsy when I'm at home with nothing to do. I'd rather take a walk, or enjoy the beauty of the outdoors. I can get irritated very easily...I can also hide that I'm irritated pretty good. I love being around people more than I like being alone. Being alone scares me.

I dream of the perfect fairytale, a man telling me he loves me, and believes that someday he could see himself having a family with me, and trying anything and everything he can do to make that dream become real life. This boy loves me and adores me. He'd rather be with me than anywhere else. This is my dream, being pursued for my heart. lovely dream eh?

Every time I watch "The Perfect Man" and "Julie and Julia" I get inspired to write..watch those movies and you'll know what I mean. =)

I have a box in my closet filled with memories...it's my box of happiness I guess you'd say. I've never been too fond of my first name. I wish my middle name was my first. "Grace" it describes me better I believe.

I'm this girl. I'm simple. I'm beautiful in my own skin, and I'm confidant in that. I don't believe everyone has to love me, because I am different, but I change who I am at my own pace, and in God's timing. I follow more than I should. I believe in miracles. And this is who I am. I'm tall..sometimes too tall for myself I believe. But this is me, you don't have to approve but I don't want to change for anyone because I know that the right boy will love all my flaws. That's who I'm holding out for.
=)

Well lovely world, this is my goodnight to you. You're beautiful in your own skin, believe it. And will you make me a promise? Don't change for anyone. The right person will love you.

Sweet Dreams.

.Princess in Waiting.

My lists on life.

I'm here to write whatever comes to mind in the time I'm writing this blog. Be prepared.

1. I don't see a point in Vanilla Ice Cream. It's just...blah.

2. Whenever I want to get inspired I listen to Taylor Swift...hate me if you want, but I'm not changing.

3. I believe that there are different kinds of love. You can love different people, but the one love that will absolutely take your breath away, will be the love you remember for the rest of your life.

4. Everyone has a first love. Admit it.

5. I like to open up my heart...sometimes too much.

6. I still believe in fairytales.

7. White Chocolate Mocha's are my guilty pleasure. =)

8. I want to dance in the middle of main street someday. late at night with all of main street lit up.

9. Ramona and Beezus the movie is my new happiness.

10. I believe that even in your darkest hour God is there protecting you, and loving you.

11. There is nothing too big for God.

12. City lights at night are just beautiful, and lovely.

13. My nails are painted red right now. Christmas is coming.

14. Facebook is getting old.

15. I write my life in these blogs.

16. People may say I'm shy and not that talkative, but I like to listen to conversations more than give my input.

17. I've learned that if you don't love someone the way they are when you first meet them...don't expect them to change. Love them the way they are.

18. Taylor Swift's song..."Back to December" is my song at the moment. It relates to my life a bit.

19. Things are changing in this season of my life...maybe for the better though.

20. I will be going on a Mission's trip once I graduate high school.

21. I don't regret things in my life. Everything happens for a reason, and I want to love everything in my life.

22. I believe in 2nd chances.

23. I love my small town.

24. I like the truth a lot more than someone holding out on me because their scared to hurt me. I'm stronger than I look to most people.

25. I believe in miracles.

26. I think I'm done for the day. I've lost my inspiration.

I hope you've enjoyed. This is probably one of my more boring "lists" ;)

.Princess in Waiting.

In the Meadow.

In the Meadow is where I choose to be. Someday I'll sit there with you and cherish our time together. I'll look back on our time together as a journey of fun and laughter. I'll remember the hard times as a learning point, and I'll always believe in you. I choose the meadow. It's beautiful and lovely. I want to spend my days with you there in the meadow.

I love you.

This meadow will be ours. It'll be a place to run away to, and hide away from the world. It'll be ours. I haven't found this meadow yet, but I long to. I dream of it, and I believe that the day I find you, we'll find our perfect meadow. We'll leave our fears, and heartaches behind, and dream, and love. When marriage gets too tough, we'll always come back to this place and find comfort. We'll remember this place as the place we fell in-love, and it'll always be ours.

This is a place I've dreamt about for years, and longed to find. A place I always had in the back of my mind...lingering and longing to find. Never have I found it though. Walking through many woods, and trails, hoping this would be the time. And every time I had to wait a little longer. I'm still waiting, but I feel it closer, with every day passing. I believe that someday I'll have a place where I can just run away to with you. A place we can call our own, where it's away from the world, and it's just you and me.

Love, do I know who you are right now...maybe not. I long to know you though. I dream about you lovely. I pray for our relationship, and I know that the day our worlds collide into one, we'll make everything work. It's not going to be easy, and we'll be hit with challenges, but where's the adventure in the easy stuff?

Our whole life will be a adventurous journey.

But love, if we ever get off pace, and lose our way, and forget what's really important in life, promise me we'll find each other in the meadow. We'll always return there. I love you lovely.

.Princess in Waiting.

*this is written for the boy that will someday have my heart. Someday I'll know you.

(I wrote this on my phone sitting in "Home Goods" a couple weeks back, and just came across it again today...Yes, I get inspiration in the weirdest ways.)

I believe....

I believe in the strong power of God.

I believe in miracles.

I believe in the power of words.

I believe in the love families bring.

I believe in never giving up on fighting a battle.

I believe in the power of PRAYER.

I believe in this.

I believe in YOU!

.Princess in Waiting.

Alone in a world that's so big.

I feel alone, like there is no one to turn to, so I turn to the one person I know will always listen. God. He’s here, and willing to love me.

This world is so big, so where do I fit into it all? Where is there a home for me? Life is changing just like the colors on the trees are changing. It’s becoming a new season for me, and this season is going to be a deep season of changes. A time for me to move on, and love a little more. A time for me to believe in the broken, and live in the present.

I feel broken, and lost at times, I feel alone, and I feel like the root of the problem at times. God’s love is all forgiving, but not everyone’s is.

This is a girl I know…or use to know. Someone that searched for her dreams, and fought for what she believed in. She cherished life, and held onto memories. She believed in the broken, and never let things get her down.

This is a girl that believes she’s beautiful in her own skin, and knows she’s loved in different areas of her life. She’s adored. Though this girl, she has a lot of doubts, and is not always on the same page as everyone. When she sets her mind to something it takes a lot for someone to change her opinion.

This girl wants to love. She wants to feel loved. And she wants to have a future filled with babies. She knows life doesn’t always work out as planned, or go the way she wants it to go, but it’s all in God’s plan. He knows the way to her heart, and He longs to love her. She’s searching deeply for Him.

This girl is ready to love, and believe again, she is ready to experience love first hand, and dream with all her heart. She sees the lovely world right in front of her eyes and she wants to explore it. She wants to be everything to one man someday.

This is a girl still searching for her heart, but she’s found that it’s hidden in her Heavenly Daddy. She may be alone in this world, but she will always have her one true love by her side.

.Princess in Waiting.

The book of Ecclesiastes.

I want to start off that my day started out...not so good. But, it's amazing how one little thing can change your entire day, for the better. I'm now on cloud nine, with my Heavenly Daddy. I'm happy and I literally can't contain it. So, I'm going to share my happiness and joy with all of you reading this tonight.

A friend of mine told me 2 days ago to read the book of Ecclesiastes, and well 2 days later I just got around to it. I've had a very busy weekend with working and baking cookies. I'm very glad though that I set aside time tonight to read and spend time with Daddy (God.) It's been an incredible night.

...and yes I know it's Halloween, but I don't celebrate Halloween so I decided I'd spend my evening with God. Sounds like a better deal to me anyways. :)

I want to share some of my favorite verses with you all from the book of Ecclesiastes. So, grab your Bible, because there's a lot of them :)

First one, chapter 3 verses 1-8. INCREDIBLE. God is just flowing out of these verses. Please, if you don't read any of the verses I share, just take a couple seconds to read chapter 3 verses 1-8. I hope you get something amazing out of it also!

I'd say that what really stuck out to me in those 8 verses, would be verse 8.
"A time for war, and a time for peace."

There is a time for everything, and in God's timing, everything works out in His good. You just have to be willing to wait. If I wasn't willing to wait, I wouldn't be where I am today. My friend wouldn't have told me to read Ecclesiastes, because our relationship wouldn't be as good as it is, if we weren't willing to wait on God. God worked, and is still working everything out in His timing. It'll never be our timing.

Another verse would be. Chapter 7 verse 8.
"The end of the matter is better than it's beginning, and patience is better than pride."

The outcome of something will ALWAYS be better than it's beginning or even the middle of it. You just have to let God do His work, and you have to fully trust in God. He will direct your paths. You may not like what the beginning or middle holds, but I can bet you that you'll LOVE the ending. If it's God written, than it's going to be incredible!

I just want to say that, that is a verse I've looked back on for a couple months now. Literally, any time I'm having a bad day, I go back to that verse, or when my friends are having a bad day, I remind them of that verse, and so when I came across it again tonight, I had tears in my eyes. literally. God works in mysterious ways.

...okay, another verse. Would be, Chapter 7 verse 10.
"Do not say, "why were the old days better than these?" For it is not wise to ask such questions."

Today has been a really hard day for me. A year ago today a lot was happening. A lot of good things, but also a lot of things I saw God start to change. I was just beginning to grow up a year ago. Now there are days I feel like I'm already a adult, when I'm still really just a teenager.

Today though I was looking back on memories a lot. Not a bad thing, but today I just didn't make myself think of anything else. God changes things for a reason though. And I know that my ending is better than it's beginning. :) I have no doubt in my mind. He is planning my ending, and He is planning my Love Story as I write this. I'm excited to see what all that includes, but I just have to be willing to wait for it. I can't jump to far ahead, because that's not God's plan. It just wouldn't be right.

...I hope I'm making sense right now, because it was all making sense in my head. I hope I'm explaining it well enough. :)

Last verse that really stuck out to me was, Chapter 8 verse 7.
"Since no one knows the future, who can say what is to come?"

Now, before I explain this verse...I actually got this verse from God a couple weeks ago, and came across it marked in my Bible again tonight. Weird that I have so much marked in Ecclesiastes, right? :) It makes me happy!

Now, this verse means a lot to me because people may say, "oh I know that'll happen, or I'm going to do this tomorrow." But really, you don't even know what tomorrow will hold. Only God does. He holds the future in His hands. No one else does, and no one else ever will. God holds my future. I want Him to hold my future.

God knows who I'm going to marry, or if I'll get married. Something else that seems pretty cool to me is, I don't know what I want to go to college for, or if I even want to go to college, but God already knows what my future holds. He knows what I'll be doing in 2 years. Only He does though. How cool is that?

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This is my night. Completely filled with God. I want to share something with you all. I'm looking at a piece of art I made last night, and it says, "You are special." Honestly, when I made it I thought I knew who I was making it for, but God was telling me to keep it for a bit. Well while I'm looking at it tonight, I'm reminded how special I am to my Heavenly Daddy. Me personally, God knows by name. He formed me. He created me, and put me into this amazing family. I believe that piece of art is going to go up on my wall, reminding me that even if there comes a day that I'm not special to anyone, I'm special to my Heavenly Daddy. I always will be.

=) That simply makes me happy! More than happy, that makes me joyful.
Joyful...I haven't been that way in a while. It feels good to have God so close.

Well, I believe this is my writing for the night. Now, I challenge you all to do something. Read ALL of Ecclesiastes...chapter 1 through 12. You won't regret it.

Now, as I'm saying goodnight, I'm going to go spend some time with my Momma. Sometimes you just need that time with your loved ones. Tonight is one of those nights. :)

G'night world. Sleep beautifully.

.Princess in Waiting.

Cookies coming out the wazoo!

Hello to all you lovely people out in the world tonight.

You know, one of the questions I ask myself almost every time I log onto my blogspot is....How many people read my blog? And where do you live? Do I have people from all over the world reading about my crazy/funny/quirky/and boring at times kind of life? That would be stinkin' amazing!

Just a thought. I always wonder who all is reading about simple old me, Grace. I find it pretty interesting.

Anyways, the point of this writing...oh yeah! I've been baking cookies for the past almost 6 hours. Crazy right? ...get this, I did most of it by myself also. Hard work I tell ya! It'll be worth it though. =) But tomorrow night I'm back to the old kitchen, because I didn't finish all my cookies tonight. It's 11pm, and this girl is TIRED! It's been a very long day, and tomorrow calls for a very long day also.

I skipped dinner tonight also...not on purpose. I'm just now eating a smoothie...at 11pm. wow.

So, tonight was my FIRST attempt at baking cookies from SCRATCH! It was a first and it was successful. I only burnt one tray of cookies....out of about 10 trays, well that's pretty good, I'd say. =)

I do believe I'm going to make this a yearly thing, with baking cookies for friends and family. It's fun...well kinda. And I get to bless people with my own bakings.

I made, Double chocolate chip cookies, Peanut butter cookies, and my Momma's homemade chocolate chip cookies. Sounds good right? Well be friends with me, and you'll get some =) it's just that easy.

Well I believe I'm turning in for the night...Gotta be at work in 9 hours. ugh.

Everyone out there reading about me. Thanks for taking the time to read about my night of baking cookies. It's pretty special to me.

Sweet dreams to everyone in the world.

.Princess in Waiting.

fears and inabilities.

I have fears just like everyone reading about my crazy life. There are days I don't feel like I mean all that much to anyone. I have trust issues. I wish I didn't, but I'm slowly learning how to trust again. I've met some amazing people that have taught me that trust can be gained again once it's lost. It's not going to be easy, but if you fight and never give up, it'll come around at some point.

I remember about 1 year and almost 4 months ago, I didn't want to trust anyone. I was scared to, because I've been hurt by many people in my life. I gave it another shot, because there were a couple people that were trying to come into my life, and I was scared to let them in. I did though. I'm grateful I did.

Trust is hard to build a first time, but once it's built and then lost, it's even harder, but I believe that, that is where the challenge comes in. If it's something worth fighting for, then trust will come along with you fighting. Never give up on something you believe in.

If I had given up on trusting people except for my family, I wouldn't have the amazing people in my life right now. I wouldn't have a best friend. :)

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Want to know another one of my fear? Love.

I'm scared to fall in-love. I guess over the past couple days I've been thinking about it more, and I want to stay young I guess. I'm scared to say the words, "I love you." I don't know why though. They're beautiful, and lovely. They have so much meaning behind them, and why wouldn't I want to say them to one man someday? I don't know. I guess it's fear.

I know you're not suppose to live in fear, but I guess the reason I'm scared is because I only want to say those 3 words to one man in my life. What if I say them to the wrong man? I don't know.

For once, I'm writing but I'm not the one with the answers. And if you all know me at all, I like to figure things out on my own. I like to have an answer. Maybe it's just my time to wait.

I need to rely on God for this, because I don't want to be scared to say, "I love you." I want to declare it to the world, when the time comes. I want to be crazy in-love and not have a care in the world.

Is anyone else scared to love? Maybe I'm so scared because I've never been in-love. I've never experienced the kind of love most people long for. I want to though. I've never said those 3 words to a man...But I'm excited about when the time comes. I know that when the time is right, God will open up this part of me that I've never seen before. That's how I'll know it's right.

I'm excited.

=)

.Princess in Waiting.

I'm here to write. everything.

I've realized that my life is pretty boring, but when I start writing it becomes a new life for me momentarily. I like it. I like the person that I become when I write.

So, I'm here to ask some questions for the night. I've also realized that even though people may be reading about my life, I'm pretty much talking to myself, but I'm okay with that. I don't mind talking to myself.

What truly is forgiveness? Is it just saying, "I'm sorry" and moving on or, it is first deep down inside, you asking for forgiveness from God, and then finding it in you to carry out that forgiveness to other people, even if they don't forgive you.

I don't feel like I'm making any sense, so moving on. =)

What is love? Is it a feeling? or is it more than that? Because you can't live on feelings. (in my opinion at least.) I believe you can fall deeply, and madly in-love with someone, but if there's not trust, what is love? Will love carry you through the hard times in your marriage, and life? Will love carry you through the times you don't have a job and you need "trust" from your husband or wife that God will provide?

I do believe that love could carry you through many things in life. I believe you have to be madly in-love with someone to ever see a future with them, but my point is that I believe trust needs to be key. Make sense? Believe me I want to someday fall madly and deeply, and crazy in-love with one man and not have a care in the world what other people think. Love is indescribable.

Don't get me wrong. I'm a strong believer in love.

I guess what I'm saying is there always has to be trust. Trust is huge to me. I'm NOT saying that love is stupid, or not worth anything.

Love is powerful, and romantic. Love is a feeling that never leaves once you find that true, final love. Love is incredible.

Now, I don't believe I've experienced this kind of love yet in my life...I'm still young, and I'm scared about this love also. I'm scared about falling head over heels for one man. Ask me why, and I'll tell you that I have no clue. I am though.

I guess I'm scared that I'll love someone and they won't love back. I don't know why though because it's not like I've been hurt before that would make me timid, and scared. Does anyone out there feel the same way I do? Or am I a loner on this one?

=)

I'm young, and somewhat carefree still, but I realized today how much I've grow up. I've made myself grow up. I don't know why, but I'm scared to become an adult. I'm scared of the responsibilities that come with growing up. It's a scary thought isn't it? To be your own person, and no longer crawl up into your parents bed for a goodnight story. I'll be honest, when I have problems that I feel I can't concur through on my own, I still go to my Momma, and just spill it all out on her.

Just some food for thought.
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Do not take life for granted. Don't take the moments you have with someone for granted. If you love them, cherish the time you have with them.

.Princess in Waiting.

Hello bloggers, I'm back.

Well it's been a successful 10 days since I've written anything, and you don't know how much I've missed it...Let me express a bit how much I've missed it.

I've missed writing like Peanut Butter would miss Jelly.

I've missed writing like Salt would miss Pepper.

I've missed writing like Winter would miss the Snow. (if that made sense.)

Anyways, I've missed you all a bunch.

I've realized that writing is my way of expressing myself. I don't always get everything right, but when I put it on paper I seem to say the right thing.

=)

Well as you all can see, I've changed my background to WINTER!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't wait any longer. I've had a winter background on my computer for weeks now, and I thought it was FINALLY time to put it up on my blog.

Oh Winter, such a beautiful time of the year. Such a happy time also. Time to do some Christmas shopping, and burn the lovely Christmas scented candles in your room. It's time to start thinking about what you want to accomplish in the rest of 2010, and what will come in 2011. Oh boy! Can you believe it's almost already 2011?

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I feel like I'm rambling, but you know what? I bet you all have missed my rambling....riiiight? =)

I spent this lovely Friday night with my sister. Just the 2 of us, and it was happiness. I adore my sisters, and I'm grateful God gave me many sisters, because you know the saying, "friends come and go, but sisters are forever."? Very true. They're here for everything, and they're not going anywhere. They're my true best friends.

My life....Hmm, it's going good at the moment. I've brought out my Winter coats, and scarfs, and I'm ready to tackle this VERY cold Winter that's to come.

You all know me well enough to know that I'm not very good at keeping much in. It stinks that I can be such an open book....but, I know that everything that's happening or that's going to happen in the future, God has a plan for it all. I just have to follow His plan. I have to listen to Him, and He will direct my path. Through Him anything is possible. Remember that God is your forever friend, and He'll never leave you nor forsake you.

I can see that in just the past couple months I've changed a lot, and I can see that God is changing me. He'll work everything out in His timing, and I have to trust in Him. It's scary to not be in control, and I catch myself wanting to take control often, but God knows what's best for me. After all He is the creator of the world.

Well, sleep is calling my name. I don't think any of you can actually know how amazing it is to be writing again. Even though it wasn't long, it was missed...very much.

Guess what?!?? WINTER is coming. I know I'm excited now, but just wait I'll be writing a "i hate winter" blog before you know it...I have very quick mood changes, if you haven't noticed that. ;)

Good night world. I do so love you.

.Princess in Waiting.

Goodbye for now.

To everyone reading about my life.

I will be saying goodbye for awhile, because my personal life doesn't need to be shared with the world. I'm not saying goodbye forever, because well that just wouldn't be fun. But for a little while at least.

A lot is going on in my life right now, and I'd like to keep it personal. Pray for me if you want to. But my life is my life. :)

I love you all, and am grateful you take the time to read about what's going on with me, but for right now I don't feel like writing. Shocker right? Yep.

I hope you all have a wonderful Fall season, and go out to the Corn Maze, or have a bonfire. Cherish the times you have with your friends and family because these moments aren't here forever.

Loves to all.

.Princess in Waiting.

My quaint little town.

To everyone out there that's loved, and lost.

It's been awhile since I've written, and I know I promised another blog days ago, but life gets busy, and I've had a lot on my mind lately...haven't really known how to get it to form into words for once. If anyone knows me, I'm not one to keep things in. I voice my opinion, and speak my mind...often. Not this time around though, I've been hiding myself in my Daddy (God) and relying on Him for this chapter of my life.

He's not leaving me this time. He's letting me cling to Him, and cry out to Him. My God is one awesome God.

--(side note) Is there ever a time you just CLING to your family? I believe I'm in that stage right now, where all I truly want is a night at home with my family. I adore them. These times won't be here forever, and I cherish them.

--Onto what the title of this blog means. Well, my little town is beautiful tonight. It's breath taking. It's feeling like Fall, and I finally got to bring out my winter coat the other night. Oh, Fall! I do so love you. I've started thinking about Christmas lately, and the Christmas music has been playing a couple times in my room. :)

I'm remembering back to a year ago...again. A lot can happen in a year's time. You find love, and you have loss. You make memories, and you close a chapter of your life book, while opening another. You take chances, and you follow your heart. You gain a relationship with God, and you lose friendships. You reconnect with people you never thought you'd see again, and you learn many things about yourself.

Life is going crazy for me at the moment. But I'm learning a lot about myself, and I'm growing up. I didn't ever picture my life to turn out this way, but I honestly wouldn't change a thing. I have friends that I adore, and my family is wonderful.

I'm off to worship my Jesus tonight, and enjoy this marvelous weather my Heavenly Daddy has given us, so everyone enjoy every moment you have. Enjoy the people that surround your life, and cherish it all.

--this is a short writing for the night, but my thoughts are still very much mixed up in my head. God's still working His magic, so I'll wait patiently.

=)

Loves to all.

.Princess in Waiting.

It's God's world.

---I wrote this last week, but never got around to finishing it. Here you go =)

This is for all you world travelers out there.

Tonight I was seeing God's beauty first hand. I saw the sky break free, and God gave us "small towners" a beautiful sunset. I couldn't have asked for anything better. I was happy to say the least.

I've missed seeing God work in marvelous ways. I felt like tonight He's just assured me that everything works out in His timing. After all, His timing is the best timing.

I've realized something lately...I want to travel this world...Someday! I want to see God's beautiful work, first hand. I want to see the exquisite sunsets everywhere in this world. I want to become a world traveler. I know I want to go to college, but for what? Still undecided. Do I want to go into journalism? And be a professional Writer for the rest of my life? I don't know. I know I like to do this for the fun of it, but I know that once babies enter my life, I will have my hands full, because me, well I'm gonna be a full time stay at home Momma.

Children will someday be my life. Nothing's going to change that. Sooo, as you all can see, that in these next 2 year of finishing up high school, I have a lot of choices to make, but I have a whole life of choices. Right now, I'm gonna sit here and enjoy God's beauty of this world.

What is it that you dream of when you think of your life? When you think of college? Do you want to go to college? --These choices are up to you, no one else can choose your life for you. Live your life to it's fullest, don't let anyone stop you from following your heart.

--Well this is not what I expected to be talking about tonight. But I do remember that I promised a blog last night and never got around to it...Sorry about that. I got busy with spending time with my amazing family. So here's a blog for tonight. Hope that helps. =)

Everyone reading about my life. Thank you. I adore you.

.Princess in Waiting.

missin' you.

To everyone out there that's experienced love.

Tonight is a night I'm longing for the one I'll love someday to come. I know I'm trying not to share my heart so much, but tonight I need to let something out there into this crazy world. I need to share my feelings, since I feel like you all are the only one's listening.

I miss him. I miss the man that will someday win my heart. The man that I'll look into his eyes and see love, and happiness, and babies, and romance.

Are there ever nights you just need to write out your thoughts? Where you feel better afterwords? I'm feeling that right about now. I don't know if anyone is reading this, but I'm writing, and I believe I'll always be writing.

I write because it's the best way I can express my feelings. I don't always say the right thing, or do the right thing, but it seems like every time I start writing I say the right thing. I express myself in these words. I become myself in these words.

God's been working like crazy in my life, He's been taking things out, and bringing things in. He's been working His butt off. The thing is, I haven't been the child I should be for Him. I haven't been listening like I should be. I haven't been following like I should be. I'm trying to though. I'm trying to simply follow for once, but if anyone knows me, it's not easy for me to just "follow" I want to fix the problem. I guess I've heard the saying one too many times in my life, "Don't let the sun go down on your anger." Well I took that to heart, so I try not to go to bed knowing things aren't right with someone, but God doesn't always give you your answers right away. You have to wait for them often.

I'm having to wait for a bunch of stuff right now. Waiting isn't all that much fun, especially when it's a long wait. Anyone out there waiting for something? Then hopefully you know how I feel. God's got it though. That's something I have to keep reminding myself.
=)

So, wanna hear a story? ...Okay it may not be a "story" but yeah, here it goes. There once was a boy, he became my best friend. He challenged me, he pushed me, and made me come out of my "shell" a. l. o. t. ;) The thing is, I never realized how hard it is to be a guy's "friend." Anyone know what I mean? yeeeeeah. It's not like you can ask them their "deepest darkest secret" and they'll be happy to share it with you like a girl would be. ha. But I believe God has amazing things in store for this guy. He's gonna change this world. He's gonna experience love first hand someday. He's gonna hike the appalachian trail someday, and he's gonna explore the beauty of this world.

-To this guy, I'm kinda sorry I just wrote about you in my blog. But I write about people that change my world when they come into it. And well, you've changed my world. Thank you for that.

Onto another note...
I got pink roses the other day!! =)

---From my sister, but that still counts riiiiiight? ha.
They're beautiful, and I just remembered that if I don't water them tonight they might just die. Can't have that happening.

Well, I do believe I'm signing out for the night. I've missed writing. Truly I have. Glad to be back. I think I'll write again tomorrow night, so be expecting it.
=)

Loves to all.

.Princess in Waiting.

Long summer nights.

Time to make a new list...Do you love them as much as I do? Well if not, tough for you, because I'm not stoppin' ;)

1. The smell of freshly cut grass and sprinklers running reminds me of Summers in Florida. I miss it.

2. I have a promise ring. I'm looking at it at the moment, and I'm very proud of this ring. It's a promise to my husband and My Jesus to stay pure. It's pure happiness on my left hand.

3. Whenever I listen to Michael Card, "Sleep Sound in Jesus" it brings me right back to my childhood. immediately.

4. The movie "letter's to Juliet" is my favorite movie. ever. It's my love story at the moment, since I don't have one of my own for the time being. I will someday though. I just know it.

5. There are days I want to be a little Five year old girl again. I miss being young and carefree. I miss Summers in Florida, and Winters of making snowmen, and going sledding.

6. I have a pair of dark red glasses. They help me see.

7. I have a phone that finally receives text messages about 3 hours after it was originally sent. it sucks.

8. I love the name River for my someday daughter. middle name, first name, whatever. I just want it used in some way. It's a exquisite name.

9. I love sitting out under the stars. Did you know that?

10. When I have a really awesome encounter with my Heavenly Daddy...I get oober excited. You'll know when I just had a long chat with my Daddy. It's incredible.

11. I write a lot.

--Not that any of you knew that.

12. I want to go to college, but for what? I don't know.

13. I'm not a fan of storms. They scare me, like deeply scare me. When the thunder hits you can find me under the covers scared.

14. I ran a red light a couple weeks ago, and I only have my permit.

15. I'm in the process of writing a song. But no, you can't know what it's about. I just felt like teasing you.

16. Books inspire me.

17. I blush a lot. and I mean a. lot. --I believe it's even considered a disorder now.

18. I love wearing dresses.

19. I'm trusting God with something really important in my life. And it was a lot easier to give this to Him than I thought it would be. I trust my Daddy (God) though.

20. I named my Guitar Shi. Meaning you ask? -I'm very 'shy' when you first meet me sooooo, I named it 'Shi' kinda like Shiloh, but not at all. =)

21. I like it when people comment on my writings. it makes me happy. Just sayin' ;)

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Some things I remember from my childhood would be..
-Always seeing my parents in-love.
-When I lived in Florida it was the pool everyday. and I mean everyday.
-Orange Blossom ice cream.
-Butterfly kisses.
-Airplane rides from Daddy. (where he would put us on his feet and 'fly' us around.)
-playing outside all day til it was dinner time, and then bed.
-playing baby dolls with my sister. We even dressed up our kittens one time in our baby clothes..they loved it, I just know it.
-Having my sisters as my best friends. They were always there. We would fight and five minutes later we were friends again. Love them.
-My parents always letting our imaginations go WILD. They never stopped us from dreaming, or having fun.
-Believing in Santa, Todd the Easter Bunny, Tooth Fairy.
-having dreams of vegetables when I was younger and waking up in sweats because I was dreaming they were chasing me. It's still a very vivid dream.
-Sunday mornings starting out with Worship music blasting throughout the house. Loved that!

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Why is it that we long for Summer? Why is it that Summer is such a happy time? I'm remembering the Summers as a kid at the moment, and they're such happy times. Even this past Summer. I loved it. I didn't get airplane rides from Daddy, or Orange Blossom ice cream, or go to Florida, but I did make new memories. I loved. I cherished. I dreamed. I had fun.

Summer is leaving, and Fall is coming. Exciting time. Time to get the smores' out and start the bonfire. Time to cuddle up in your blanket, and cherish the times you have with the people you love.

Well this is my blog for the night. I believe I'm very content with this one.

oooooooooo, there went the THUNDER. :/ Not a huge fan. Time for bed. Sleep tight world, and I'll be seeing you around.

Here's my goodbye note.
--Being a child doesn't stay for long. You grow up, and get responsibilities. So enjoy being a kid, and cherish the times you have with your little ones at the moment. Enjoy the little Popsicle mustache, and the night they crawl up into your bed for a goodnight story. Enjoy it all. Wow, I must REALLY have babies on the brain. Well be blessed with the life you have, and remember this season of your life is only here for a bit. God always has something else juuuuust around the corner.

loves to all.

.Princess in Waiting.

The little red house.

I'm a girl that loves the color red.

Hello to everyone taking the time to read about my lovely but boring at times life.

=)

I was looking at another blog tonight and it's titled "the little red house" well that's how the title of this blog came about. I got inspired. Annnnnd everyone knows what happens when I get inspired riiiight? I write. I also sometimes write a lot, so be prepared.

Tonight I was reminded about how much I long for a family of my own. I want to be a Momma so bad. Yes, I'm sixteen, but it's never too young to start thinking about your own family. I believe I started at the age I could carry a baby doll...so, that would be about forever in my book. ;) I adore babies, and I can't wait to hold my own child in my arms someday and know he's mine. forever.

I also want a quaint little Log Cabin, with children and love overflowing inside it. I don't know why but Log Cabins have always caught my eye, and when I see them in person, I fall in-love. They're simply beautiful.

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Love is powerful. I believe that. My brother and sister in-law came over tonight, and I see the simple love in their eyes for each other. It's incredible. It's lovely. It's powerful. -Just a little side note. I adore them, so I thought I'd write about them.

..I just lost all my inspiration for this blog. bummer.

G'night world.

.Princess in Waiting.

Finding her way.

She’s searching to find that place she can call home. Where she can strive to be herself in this absolutely crazy life of hers. She wants to find someone that will take her as she is, who will love her even with her flaws. She wants to be accepted. She wants to find love in the deepest parts of her heart. She desires to travel this beautiful world.

She’s venturing out on a path that she’s not taking with anyone, and the people that will be there at the finish line, they’ll be her forever loves. She’s experienced her many heartaches, and found out what trusting someone feels like. She’s been challenged, and she’s found her first love again in God.

This is a crazy, authentic, beautiful, lovely, adventurous, witty, sometimes moody, and always trying to find her way kind of girl. She’s not content in being in a place for very long, she likes adventure, and road trips. She believes in love at first sight, and sees beauty in people’s love stories. This is a girl that doesn’t say, “no” to a life that’s full of adventure, and has some of the craziest dreams.

She’s fallen many times in her life, and made the wrong choices, but she knows it’s all leading up to the grand finale God has for her. She longs for a winter romance.

This girl, she’s keeping her heart guarded. She’s not letting it go so easily anymore, but she knows there will come a time when it’ll be hard to keep it hidden, because this girl…Well, she’s going to be in love someday. It’s going to be crazy, and fun, and lovely, and blissful. It’s going to be an adventure in itself.

…I’m going to find my place in this world. I’m not letting anyone stop me, because this is the journey where I’ll find myself.

There will be nights of going to my Heavenly Daddy, and asking for advice. It’s just going to be me and Him for a while. This is going to be an overwhelming, but always beautiful tale God is leading me on.

I’m ready.

.Princess in Waiting.

--I got a late night inspiration tonight..this is the kind of writings I use to do, and I miss it, so I got in the mood tonight to bring that joy back to myself. Hope you all loved it :o)

Her journey to her dreams.

=) This was simply written by me. Hope you like it.



"Where's the battle to fight if the girl has run away? Where's the adventure to travel if the dreams have been so far off pace all these years? Where's this girl heading? Where's her heart? ...She's going to find it."

.Princess in Waiting.

Lovely. Lovely flowers.

Hello all you bloggers out there, or readers.

I'm going to try to keep it short tonight..if that can actually happen. I also feel like I've been sharing too much of my heart lately, so I'm going to be cutting down on all that. I'm still an open book, but not to the blog world. :o)

--I'll fill you all in on my title of this blog. I was taking a walk today around my block, and every time I take a walk, I see these 2 beautiful flowers. I badly want to pick them, and take them home, but then there's this part of me that wants them to stay there because they give me this little reminder every day I see them, that God puts beauty into even the littlest things.

..So to conclude my story, they're staying. But they are just lovely in my opinion.

--Now since that was a sidetrack kind of thought, here are my thoughts on tonight's blog. Enjoy!

I've realized that when you tumble and fall it's just a chance for God to willingly catch you. When you cry it's a time for Him to wipe away your tears. When you smile it's a chance for Him to see the beautiful smile He created. When you get lost it's a chance for Him to grab your hand and say, "Follow me child of mine."

Life doesn't always go as planned, but if this road and journey was a straight path, and there weren't any times you needed to call out to our Heavenly Daddy, then where would the adventure be? -The hardest things are the best things.

God has the best for us in His hands. He know our ending, and I know my ending is with an amazing man. Do I know that man right now? Maybe not. But God does! He knows who's going to take my breath away. He knows who is going to catch my eye, and who I'm going to love for the rest of my life.

I'm venturing out on a scary road at the moment. But it's also going to be the place where I find myself. Everyone makes mistakes right? I know I do. Often. But in those mistakes I've learned from them. I've made memories, and I've trusted. I don't regret anything in my life, because at a young age I told myself that I don't want to look back on my life and regret anything I've done. So I don't.

-I've never loved anyone in the way most people view love. I've fallen very close to it, but I've never been in that spot with someone. Which is something I'm glad I've never experienced because that's something I hold very close to my heart. The time I give away true love to a man, I know he'll be the one, because that love is hidden deep in my heart, and the right man will fight for that love. He'll win that battle, but it's only for him to win.

Love is not stupid.
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Love is powerful.
Love is a battle in itself.
Love is worth everything.

Daddy (God),
My prayer for tonight, is that you'll hide my heart. You'll guide me, and protect me. I pray that my heart will be hidden deep in you, and that when the right man comes along he'll fight for it. Daddy, I want to follow you. I want to take an adventure with you, and you alone. At this point in my life there's nothing stopping me. I want to take this time to learn about you, and to cling to you. I want you to be the love of my life, because I have to fall in-love with you before I get the chance to fall in-love with the man you've desired me to be with. I'll wait, because I know you're going to make this journey fun. There will be hardships, and struggles, but there will also be adventures and tears of joy. There will be happiness, and smiles. There will be nights it's just you and me. There will be Valentines day's spent with you.

Please get me prepared to have a man's heart and to be able to treat it with respect. Teach me how to love you, so I can love a man someday. Teach me the ropes to becoming the woman you want me to become.

Daddy, love me. Be my first love. It'll be the best love I can ever experience. Capture my heart, and make it pure. Guard my heart.

--Well, this is my blog for the night.
I think I have a problem with sharing too much. But I'm a girl that loves to write my thoughts out. When I keep everything in, then it becomes a problem, because I like to share my feelings...Can you tell? :o)

Remember, love the right people, and don't regret your life. Everything that happens in life, God planned. He is molding your story right now. Let Him write it!

.Princess in Waiting.

Sitting in my comfy bed.

I'm a girl that has a cup of Clearwater Beach sand sitting on my bedside table because I miss Florida so much.

I just had an amazing night out in my small town with my family, and now we're home and everyone is going their separate ways, with studying, and sleeping, and I'm here to write. I love to make lists..lists of everything. I make a food list with my Mom before we go to the store. And I make lists for myself, of everything and it's fun. So, I'm here to share tonight some of my favorite things. Things that simply make me happy, and just bring pure bliss to my life. Welcome to my world...To whoever that is reading this.

1. I love Wal-Mart runs with my sisters...even if it was a pointless trip.

2. I want to paint my nails black..only because I think it's a pretty color.

3. I bought a 24 pack of water in Wal-Mart tonight. I love the taste of it.

4. I realized tonight that carrying a 24 pack of water all over Wal-Mart can get realllly heavy. I need a guy in my life. ha.

5. There are very few people that call me Grace in my life, and they are very important to me. :)

6. I have a Guitar, but have no clue how to play it. My friend told me to tune it, and I had no clue what he was talking about.

7. I've become very confidant with my beauty in the past year.

8. My first name means, "Grace" so my parents really named me, "Grace, Grace." How creative.

9. Songs inspire me.

10. The first smells of Summer is pure bliss.

11. I have art filling my walls in my room.

12. Dave Barnes has a beautiful voice.

13. I know a guy...I believe God has great plans for him. He's gonna change this generation, I believe it.

14. I want to have at least 5 children. Maybe 10...or, maybe, you know however many God will give me :) I'm good with that.

15. My parents are my role models.

16. I believe in love, and know that someday it will be my turn.

17. The dark freaks me out.

18. I don't like to be chased.

19. I over-analyze too much.

20. I believe smiles are God's gift to me personally. =)

21. It takes a lot for me to open up to people. I like to keep things in..often.

22. It takes a lot to hurt me (as in my feelings.), but when you do you'll know it.

23. 23 will be my lucky number of the night, because I'm stopping with 23. Hmm, what do I have that equals 23? I have over 23 DVD's. I have over 23 friends on Facebook. I have 23 photos hanging on my wall. There's one! Oh well...here's another one, I need about 23 hours of sleep to not be tired anymore...Will it happen? No.

--World, you're sweet for reading this, but my eyes are saying they need sleep. But I'm about to watch "Elf" with my sister. So I hope you enjoyed my list and go create one of your own...they are fun to make, it may not be fun to read but it's fun for me :o)

As my Momma, and Daddy would always say...Butterfly kisses. G'night.

.Sweet Dreams!

.Princess in Waiting.

God gave me you.

"God gave me you for the ups and downs. God gave me you for the days of doubt. For when I think I've lost my way, there are no words here left to say, it's true. God gave me you."
-Dave Barnes

Who out of everyone reading this, is waiting for the love story God has for you? I am.

This song speaks a lot to me. Songs tend to do that for me. It's this inspiring feeling I get when I listen to a new song...I play it over and over again, mainly to actually see what the lyrics mean to me. This song shows me true love. Love that's worth waiting for, but it's also hard to wait...Who knew?! ;) Who knew it would be so hard to wait for God to say, "it's your time..finally." I didn't know it would be this hard, but it is.

By the way...It's not my time yet. I know that.

I do know one thing though. With God writing this story for me, it will be perfect. It will be pure bliss. It will be lovely. It will be charming. It will be exquisite. It will be MY story. No one else can take this story from me, because God wrote this for me. Not for someone else, because if I don't choose to live this out, then it won't be lived. But I am going to live out this story. I am going to strive to be my best in this life. I'm going to wait.

Is there ever a time in someone's life that seems like it's the hardest season of your life? Where nothing is going right, or it seems that way, but actually this is the time God is working the most...Yeah, I'm in that season right now. It's scary, and a lot of the times hard, but I know God is molding my story, and He's having every event in my life add up to my "Grand Finale."

There are also moments that will take my breath away, ones that will be so beautiful in my eyes, and there will also be people that come into my life that are just pure lovely.

-This journey is once in a lifetime.

..Am I making any sense? I hope so.

I may say waiting is hard, because it is. I'm not gonna lie, but I know God has everything in His hands, and He wouldn't have called me to take this journey if He didn't believe and know I would make it out better in the end. I will strive til the end. I will be the best I can be in this life. I may fail, and feel like giving up, but if anyone of you know me...I can never actually give up on something I believe in..It's just a moment of weakness. But I will NOT give up.

Okay, so I think I was successful in this blog. But I feel like it's too serious. So, I believe I'm gonna write another blog...yes, 2 in one day. Woot!

To all the lovely people in my life...You're beautiful.

.Princess in Waiting.

Hello world.

I'm a girl that at the moment doesn't know what to do.
(this is not normal for me.)

I don't know how much I'm going to be sharing about my heart tonight, because at the moment, I don't know what all I can say. I'm confused, I'm hurt, and I'm trying to find comfort in my Daddy (God) when I feel like this is a time there isn't anything I can do. I don't know how to voice my feelings anymore.

-I'm an open book.

You know when you feel like everything is going great, and then a couple days later everything changes? Yeah that's where I'm at, at the moment. I was looking up at the sky the other night and it was FILLED with stars...and I mean FILLED. I guess that's when I feel most at home. That's when I feel God is closest. When I'm seeing His beauty all around me.

I've had a fear of trusting people for many years now, because I've been hurt by many people in my life, and when I put myself out there, and I trust them, it all seems to fail. I'm telling myself this time that there's a good reason I trusted. There's a good outcome out of this, but it may not be seen for a long time. I may tumble and fall, and "scrap my knees up" before I see this so called "amazing" outcome, but I guess I'm willing to wait. I don't know, there are days I feel like giving up. There are days I feel like fighting even if I'm the only one giving anything in the so called "two way street."

--If you all are confused, I'm sorry. I'm just writing my thoughts at the moment, and if you're reading them, than great. This is nothing serious, but it's hard. It's challenging, and most likely will be for awhile, but I know God has an amazing outcome out of all of this. At least I think He does.

God is my Hero. He's my strength when I'm weak. He's my healer of broken hearts, and He's my Heavenly Daddy.

;)

I feel like I'm rambling and not making any sense. So, I guess that's my cue to say Good night then.

So...G'night world. Sweet Dreams.

.Princess in Waiting.

Beautiful Smiles.

Fall inspires me to write like crazy. I've realized that.

Hello to everyone out there reading about my crazy life. Hope you're enjoying this BEAUTIFUL day from our Heavenly Daddy. It really is a beautiful day in my small town. I woke up this morning and I had to put on my winter slippers it was chilly, and I loved it!

Oh I'm a happy girl. I just had the most beautiful walk with my Heavenly Daddy. I heard His voice, and it's been awhile since I've actually heard Him talk to me. Oh how I've missed that voice. We talked, and I cried, but they weren't tears of sadness, they we're tears of joy, and I'm very excited to see what God does with me in my Season of Singleness. It's gonna be a fun journey, and you know what? I've never been excited about a journey more than this one. I'm pretty stoked.

God is going to open up some doors for me, but He is also going to close doors. He's going to bring people into my life, and take people out. But I know one thing, these walks...I'm excited to take them with Him, because it gives us a time to catch up, and just talk...Father to Daughter.

I believe everyone should take a season where it's just you and Daddy (God.) It'll be a time where you ask God the hard questions, and He'll answer you, you're learn how to really hear His voice, and it'll be incredible.

It'll also be a time where He gets you ready to share your life with another man for the rest of you life. He'll get you prepared for married life, and have you become the Woman you're suppose to be. He'll show you the ropes to life, but He wants you alone. He doesn't want to share you, He wants you fully to himself, so when the day does come where He has to give up the walks you and Him use to take alone, you'll be ready to take a man's hand in marriage. And He'll be ready to share you, but right now it's just a time for you and Him. :)

My favorite part about having a close relationship with God is the night I go to bed crying because this journey is just getting way too hard, and God just simply says, "Crawl up into my arms daughter, and everything will be alright." That's my favorite part...Knowing God is holding me as I go to sleep. He's good at wiping my tears, and loving me.

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Okay, so now that I've shared that part. I want to say that Fall is my MOST favorite time of the year...Yep! I just decided that. I love going outside and smelling fire burning, or having Bonfires, or roasting Marshmallows. It's the time of year where I get excited about Christmas, and I start playing Christmas music.

I get inspired to write, and I get to pull out my winter coats. :o)

I went to visit a friend at her college today, and it was the MOST beautiful day, we sat outside for a couple hours, and it was amazing weather. I loved it. I love the beauty of this world, and what all God has given to us. I don't enjoy it as much as I should, but I'm gonna change that!

Well I'm signing off for the night. Going to spend some more time with Daddy (God) and then some time with the Family.

G'night world.

.Princess in Waiting.

Pink Roses inspire me.

I'm a dreamer. I've realized that.

Hello! I said I would be writing more often lately, and guess what?! I've kept that promise....hope that's okay :) It's late, and I'm awake while the rest of my family is sleeping. Do you ever just take time to realize how amazing your family really is? I have THE MOST incredible family I could ask for. --Just a side note. ;)

--Another side note, if you've ever noticed I love to title my blogs really cool names. Even if they don't have to do with the blog, the names just inspire me. Thought I'd let you know for future times when you see a title and don't understand it. :o)

So, what's on my mind..hmm, I've realized that I think too much into the future. I dream way too often, and I wish upon stars and hope they'll actually come true. :) I believe in those kind of things, because they're fun, and it's part of my childhood I just kinda don't want to give up.

Okay so here's a look into the life of me for a bit. I'm letting go of something really important in my life right now. Something I never wanted to imagine letting go of, but God is telling me to trust Him with this, because I "believe" there's gonna be a great ending to this if I let Daddy (God.) handle it all, but there's a part of me that's scared to let go fully. I've always held the important things in my life VERY close to me, and this time God is saying, "let go, let go for me, and I'll show you just how amazing I really am." It's hard, but I know it's best in the end.

I say I "believe" I know the ending, but do I really? No, I have no clue, because God is FULL of surprises. He's can give you something amazing, and then a week later say, "okay, it's time to give it up, and see what I'll do if you trust me fully. "God's amazing, but at times you don't understand what all God is thinking.

I don't want to let go. I want to hold on, but it's like God is standing next to me, and I have my hands rapped tightly around this person, and He is pulling me farther and farther away from this person, just asking and pleading with me to let Him take control.

--I guess what I'm trying to get at is, I'm letting God take control. I'm gonna sit here and do nothing for once. He wants me to simply watch for the time being. There will come a time where I'm back in the "game" but right now, I'm listening and watching. I'm extremely happy with what all God has in store for me, and I'm hoping the ending is great....oh, who and I kidding, God is the MAKER of romance. He is the CREATOR of Love Stories. Nicholas Sparks has nothing on Him. ;)

My ending will be incredible. No matter who it's with, no matter when it is, or how long I have to wait. God is in CONTROL!

I want to say one last thing. --

--Sweetheart, you're loved.

.Princess in Waiting.

Fall is on it's way!

I'm oober excited at the moment.

Fall is COMING! Oh Fall, you are my most favorite time of the year. And I've been waiting for you for a long time. I love when all the leaves are changing, and falling to the ground. It's the time when the Winter coats are brought about. And I start thinking about Christmas... =)

Fall I believe is God's time where He just reminds everyone just how beautiful His world really is. Because in my opinion Fall is not a time to stay indoors. It's a time to explore the beauty of this world. I love to be outside, and take walks, or go hiking, really anything that involves the outdoors. It's just plain beautiful.

Am I weird, or are there some of you that can just smell Fall coming? I sure can, and that's what makes me very, very excited.

Question-What is it that you want to accomplish with the last couple months of 2010? What do you want to explore, or where do you want to go? How do you want to remember September, October, November, and December of 2010?

These are a few of the things I want to do...

1. Finish writing my 2nd book.

2. Go on a real hike.

3. Sleep in a tent...(maybe) ;)

4. Learn to play Guitar.

5. Finish reading, "Divine Matchmaker," "Wild At Heart," and "Hero."

6. Make lots of memories with friends.

7. Grow closer to my Heavenly Daddy.

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Okay so these are just a few things I would like to do with the rest of MY year but, what do you want to do? Make the rest of this year a year to remember. Enjoy it, and live out your dreams.

=)

...Now onto another subject. Sorry if I seem like I'm all over the place in this blog, because that's how my mind is today...everywhere! So bare with me.

Take a moment and look back a year ago...What was happening in your life? Were you happy? I remember what was happening a year ago, and there are days I wish I could go back to that time a year ago. Today is one of those days. It seemed so much easier a year ago. Then again, if I went back to a year ago, I'd have to live through these past couple months again, and that's hard to think about.

So, yes I'm glad I'm here in the spot I'm in now, but a year ago, I was just getting settled into a new church, and meeting some amazing people, I was finding out what trusting someone felt like. I was learning to be confidant in myself again, and I was learning to love again.

Yes that was me a year ago, but this is me now! I've become VERY confidant in myself, and I'm comfortable in my own skin. I've learned to trust some amazing people in my life, and I've learned that people make mistakes...a lot! They say the wrong thing, or I say the wrong thing, They mess up, and forgiveness is given. I didn't realize that forgiveness would feel so amazing. I've also realized that I adore smiles.

I've learned to not be so scared of bugs...but I'm still VERY fearful of snakes. I've yet to meet one, but if I ever do...I'll scream!

This is me. This is the girl behind the glasses.

I'm not scared to speak my mind, and I've learned that not everyone in life is going to like me, and I'm okay with that. I'm beautiful in my own skin, I don't need to look like a supermodel to be beautiful. I'm me.

--I'm stubborn. I've learned that this past year also. I've also been told it many times. And I'm okay with that. ;) I stick to what I believe is right, and I don't let people trample over me.

Well, I didn't know I would be writing about all this is this one blog, when all I had on my mind was Fall. But now, once again my mind is everywhere. Hope you all enjoyed this blog by me, Grace. :)

Go outside, enjoy this beautiful weather Our Heavenly Daddy has given us. Spend the evening with Him.

Happy Fall!

.Princess in Waiting.

I'll be there waiting.

This is a girl that has a strong belief in love.

So tonight in my small town, it's a Star-less night, along with no Moon to be seen. Yeah, I'm kinda bummed. But tonight while sitting outside, I realized just how beautiful God's world is even without the Stars or Moon. It was still incredible. I was still overwhelmed that I get the privilege to be able to live in this world. He created this world for me, so I could enjoy it all day, every day.

--Now, I do wish that tonight I had the man I love standing by my side. But at the moment he's no where to be found...as far as I know. Do you ever get excited to think about the day God brings "the one" into your life? Of what he (or she) will look like? Of how you'll meet them? or if you've already seen them before but never knew you'd meet again years later and they would be the one you love for the rest of your life? Isn't it crazy how God works? It's crazy but amazing!

I know that the day God reveals My Love to me, will be an amazing day. I long for that day. I dream of that day. I'm waiting for that day.

...Never give up believing that there is such a thing as a "Prince." He may not come up on a white horse, or live in a Castle, but in your eyes he'll be better than a Prince. He'll be everything and more. Remember, there will be days that are harder than others, but in the end God knows your ending. He knows when that perfect man will walk into your life and sweep you off you feet. He knows it all. Let Him have the privilege of writing the best story of your life for you. He wants to have the honors.

Well this is a short blog for the night, but Sweetheart, I'll be waiting at the end of this crazy journey for you.

Sometimes you don't have to have a lot on your mind to write, sometimes it's the littlest things that speak the biggest words.

.Princess in Waiting.

Things that inspire me.

Hello, I'm the girl that believes in the broken.

-Yes, I'm writing twice in one day...shocker right?!

I want to share some things that have inspired me, made me cry, and made me laugh. I just want to share my loves with you for a bit.

1. I'm a big fan of spur of the moment road trips or anything of that sort.

2. I believe that love can inspire you.

3. I want to be given Pink Roses someday. They are the prettiest flower in my opinion.

4. I want to write my own wedding vows for the day I get married.

5. I'm a sucker for romance movies.

6. I believe in love at first sight.

7. I'm not a huge fan of motorcycles but I'm learning to love them.

8. I've become addicted to White Chocolate Mocha's.

9. My favorite song has become, "God Gave Me You." By Dave Barnes.

10. I know that God writes the best Love Stories.

11. I de-clutter and rearrange my room way too much.

12. I want to travel the world with My Love someday.

13. I have pink converse.

14. I have very messy hair, and I'm a huge fan of it.

--these are just a few of my favorite things.

I believe that there are things that just simply make you happy in life. And that there are times you need to sit down and look at the little details of your life. After all, the littlest things are the best things. :)

What are you living for? Are you living for the day the cute guy next to you finally notices you? Or when you finally find your purpose in life? Are you waiting for the day you are finally excepted by your friends?

...Or are you living this crazy life of yours for God? I hope so.

I want you to know that NO ONE is perfect, and everyone is prone to make mistakes, so don't feel like you've failed God when you make a mistake, because honestly that's what God expects from us. He expects us to fail, and mess up. That's why He's always waiting in the wings for us to begin to cry out to Him in fear, or sadness. He's ready to catch you. He's ready to love you like never before. Just some food for thought.

He's the light at the end of a dark tunnel.

.Princess in Waiting.

Dreary and Wet Day.

Hi, I'm the girl that writes her heart in a blog.

Why is it that when it's a cloudy day, and it's wet and misty outside, I normally get inspired to write? I don't know, but I'm not complaining.

It's a beautiful day here in my small town, even with it being overcast. I love it! I love the beauty of my small town. I guess the reason why I love it so much is because I just went to Washington DC this past weekend, and it was SO busy and crowded that it made me love my small town so much more.

When you're writing in a blog are there ever times when you feel like you're talking to yourself? Like that there is no one listening? Well if there is anyone out there reading this...thank you first off! You're the people that inspire me to write.

Now off to sharing my heart. -God's changing me at the moment, He's changing me into the woman I need to be so I can be worthy of a man of my own someday. It's a hard journey, but something a friend of mine has said to me for a while is, "if the journey was easy, then were would the adventure be?" I believe that to be true. I know that I'm glad it's not a easy road I'm taking because then I wouldn't learn anything on this journey and I'd be the same girl in the end that doesn't know squat right now.

I'm learning. I'm loving. I'm forgiving. And I'm trusting.

Question--Is there ever a time where you feel lost? Where you try to lean on some people, but they're no longer there for you? ...If so, I know how you feel. But I know one thing, God is always on my side. He's holding me up, when all I feel like doing is giving up. He's telling me to push a little longer, and strive to be the best in this crazy life of mine.

Well these are my thoughts for the day. My mind is tired, and everywhere today.

--Hope everyone is enjoying this beautiful day God has given us! :)

.Princess in Waiting.

Season of letting my Heavenly Daddy work.

Hello to all you bloggers out there,

Life's pretty grand for me at the moment. I'm happy, and ready to see what God has planned for me in the near future.

---God's asked me to take a time where it's just me and Him. Where I follow after Him and He leads me and guides me. Where it's just me and Him. This journey isn't for me and my future spouse to take together, because as of right now, I haven't found him, so God is asking me to take this journey alone. At least for a little while, because you never actually stop learning from God, so there will come a time when I meet the Man I will forever love, and him and I will start out on a new journey...together as one.

-This journey though, is just for me and my Heavenly Daddy.

I'm ready to take this adventure, and to let God take control of my life. I'm not saying that this "season" is going to be easy, because in this season, I'm letting God take total control of my life. I'm letting Him do as he pleases, and I believe He's going to show me some amazing things. It'll be a time where it's just Him and I sitting outside under the stars, and we're taking in His beauty of this world.

This is a journey for just me and Him. He's asked me to come and follow Him, and I've turned Him down many times, but this time I'm taking hold of His hand and telling Him to take the lead. I don't know what will be waiting for me at the end of this journey but I know that God has it in the palm of His hand, and he's taking hold of my life. I'm precious to Him, and He's my Daddy.

I'm scared of this journey. I think there comes a time in everyone's life that they're scared, and it's my time to be scared. But guess what? My Heavenly Daddy is holding me again. I've missed that feeling. But that's how I know it's something that He wants, because He is guiding me. But I'm scared of the people I have to leave behind in this time of being "alone." I'm scared of what WILL be waiting for me at the end of this journey, and chapter of my life.

I know that if we delight ourselves in the Lord, He will give us the desires of our hearts, but for me to not have control over any of this, well that's hard for me. Because guess what? I normally take matters into my own hands, I'm not like a total control freak, but I don't like to feel helpless, and at the moment I feel that way, but for once God is telling me to just LET GO, and give Him the pen to my Love Story.

That's what I'm doing. It's gonna be hard, and there will be nights that I feel like giving up, but God has me and my future in the palm of His hand, and I have to just TRUST in Him.

--I wanna say something though, it's alright to be scared, and it's alright to feel like giving up at some points, because when that time comes, it's a time for God to show just how AMAZING He really is. And it's the best outcome you could ever ask for. :)

...Well this is my blog entry for the night. Hope you all enjoyed!

It's my heart, you all are just deciding to let me share about it. =)

.Princess in Waiting.

What is love?

I feel like I'm trying to beat a record with how long of a gap I can have between every blog entry..But I'm trying to write more often right now because a lot is going on inside my crazy head, and I want to share it with all of you. :) Hope that's okay?

First off, my Brother just got married on August 14th, and now I have a new sister..woot!

Anyways, I'm sure you all are wondering what I'll write about, when the title is named that... ;) So I've been wondering lately, what love really is. There are many different kinds to it, and it's given to many people in many ways.

Love is romantic.
Love is captivating.
Love is happiness.
Love is irritating.
Love is priceless.
Love is endearing.
Love is everlasting.
Love is holding hands in the middle of a rain storm.
Love is getting mad.
Love is worth waiting for.
Love is friendship.
Love is kind.
Love is incredible.
Love is always saying sorry.
Love is smiles.
Love is encouraging.
Love is being yourself.
Love is worth fighting for.

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Love is many different things, you can be mad at someone and then 5 minutes later you're looking at them and realizing how special they are to you.

In my eyes, love is being able to be just who you are with that person. Not having to change, and loving who you are.

Then there is the thought that runs through my head often...Love is worth waiting for. Love is not always found so easily, it's in the deepest parts of your heart. It's hidden, and if you think it through enough, it's hidden deep in Our Heavenly Daddy! It's not always easy to hide yourself, and cling to Daddy (God) instead of someone that is standing right in front of you, and there to comfort you. But letting Daddy (God) in is the greatest thing you could ever do, because with that comes the greatest reward!

Love is priceless. It truly is. It's not easily found as I've said, but once you have it, you realize that it could never be bought, because no money can fill the void of love. Either from of family member, or from Our Daddy (God) or from the one you truly love as in a boyfriend, or girlfriend, or husband or wife.

Love is irritating. I'll agree to that in many different ways. You have your family that you love with all your heart, and would do anything for, but they get annoying, but then 5 minutes later you love them all the same. It's the great joys of family.

Love is the greatest reward God could ever give us. The time will come for everyone. You have to wait though, because not everyone finds love in the same places or at the same time. It's longed for, and waited for. It's cherished, and held on to once it's found.

Love is believing.

.Princess in Waiting.

Bub's getting married.

Hello all you readers out there.

So I haven't written in awhile, but it's because I've been busy because my brother is getting MARRIED! Woot. Woot. :o) He's my only brother, so it's a big deal. Only 3 weeks away, and he will be a married man...wow, that's pretty crazy!

So, I'm here to say that you should never take a day you have with your siblings for granted, because it could be gone in the blink of an eye. 3 weeks from now my brother will no longer be in the room right next to mine, he'll have a wife of his own, and he'll be in the married world...crazy right?! :)

I want to say that my brother has inspired me, and shown me what a man should be like for a girl. He knows how to treat Becca, and he loves her with this adoring love...He's fallen hard for this girl, and I couldn't be happier for him. He would go to the ends of the earth for her and I know that because I see the love in his eyes. I see happiness, and adoration for her, and nothing in the world could replace that look. He's head over heels for her.

Becca is someone that completes my brother. Together they are like...okay so I'm gonna be cheesy here, but they're like Salt and Pepper, or Peanut Butter and Jelly. They just wouldn't be the same if the other wasn't there, and they fit perfectly together. Ha. So I was just corny, but it's true, you couldn't choose someone better for the both of them.

On their wedding day they would have known each other for 9 months from the day they met, to their wedding day. Since that day though they've encouraged each other. They've made each other happier than ever. They've made each other laugh. They've gotten engaged. And they've encouraged me, in showing me that I will get that kind of love someday also...I just have to wait for it.

They fit together like a piece of Apple Pie.

.Princess in Waiting.

Another day.

I'm here to write.

Today has been another day of letting God work. I've been trying to give God my life lately, and for everyone out there running their own lives..well you may think it's the bomb, but in the end giving God the glory and the chance to write your story for you, is the best thing.

I'm taking on a challenge right now, and I'm excited about this one. I know God works in different ways, and at different times, but I have a good feeling about this. This is my time to cling to my Heavenly Daddy, and rely on Him fully. It's my chance to be my own person, with only God by my side. I have to venture out on my own, and find myself. I have to let go of friendships, and give everything to God, and hope He brings them back to me in the end. I have to rely on Him for everything.

I want to open my heart a bit...
The past few months, I've been wishing God didn't put some obstacles in my life. I've been wishing that life was just plain easy. Guess what I've realized though? NOTHING in life is easy, and why in the world would you want to take that EASY path anyways? Where's the adventure and challenge in taking the easy path? I don't know, but I know that I do not want to take the so called "easy" path. God's put challenge after challenge in front of me lately, but I wouldn't trade one day or one challenge for anything in the world.

I've become someone better, and someone I want to be. I'm no longer timid...okay well I'm a little timid, but I'm coming out of my comfort zone little by little. I caught myself singing "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" on stage the other night in youth with one of my friends...that's not the old me! You would never catch me singing with the worst voice ever on stage, but I did, because I'm trying to make my life fun, and I'm asking God to put adventures in it.

I ask God often to challenge me, and to push me further because I don't want to be this scared girl any longer. I want to be on fire for God, and I want to be a girl that will someday be ready to have a man's heart.

Guess what though? Right now, I am NO WHERE close to being able to have a man's heart. God is still in the process of molding me into the Women He wants me to be, and well that process I have to do alone. I have to spend this time with my Heavenly Daddy, and I have to rely on Him for my everyday challenges. I have to cling to Him.

I know one thing, I'm on a journey I've been wanting to be on for a long time. I believe in my heart this is going to be a good one.

I'm going to be..
Challenged.
Inspired.
Creative.
Loved.
...and at the end of this journey I'm going to be adored by the man God has for me.

--Let this adventure begin! :)

.Princess in Waiting.

I saw it tonight.

Blog writer here,
Hello =) it's been awhile! --My inspiration has all been pushed into writing a book lately, so I haven't really been thinking about much else, but tonight I saw it again...I saw the Moon for the first time in at least 5 days...seriously, I don't know where it's been but the Moon had disappeared until tonight. I've missed it!

I missed looking up at the Moon, and knowing God was standing by my side through it all. That's the way He would comfort me at night, by showing me His beauty first hand. I saw that beauty again tonight, and it may have only been for a couple minutes while walking out of church, but I still saw the beauty and it gave me that reminder I needed from God, to let me know that even in hard times He's here with me.

I think everyone has different ways of knowing God is by their side but this is my way, and if you all think it's weird, then take it up with my body guard...God :)

I hope everyone is having a good night. Wherever you are in the world tonight, I hope you're being inspired, or imaginative, or creative. Whatever you're choosing for yourself, I hope it's a good night...be inspired beyond your dreams, and never let anyone stop you. And when you feel God calling you somewhere, don't let anyone tell you no, or pull you down. They're just a product of Satan.

...Believe in yourself.

.Princess in Waiting.

Her Place in This World.

She’s learned to love again, and trust people again. She had the courage to chase her dreams because she had people believing in her. She never gave up, and she always kept pushing. She fought for what she believed in, and never gave up.

This girl knew she needed to believe in her dreams again, because it had been too long for her, just sitting on the sidelines. She knows she needs to follow her heart, and not let anyone stop her.

She’s on that journey right now, of finding herself. She never realized how much was missing until she tried to find herself, and she was lost. She’s believing in her fairytales again, and she’s following her heart. She’s not going to let anyone stop her from accomplishing her dreams.

She’s also going to hide herself, and not let the world get to her. She is going to be herself, and ride this journey with God on her side. I personally know this girl is ready to take that adventure that’s been calling her name for a long time. She’s ready to jump on that horse, and experience every obstacle, as just a journey to find her real home.

She hasn’t found that spot in a long time. That spot where she just feels at home, and she’s ready to find it again. She’s longing desperately to find her place in this world. That place where she doesn’t have to be anyone but herself, and until then, she’ll be searching.

She’s not scared anymore, because God is on her side on this journey, and last time, well He wasn’t. He’s going to be her comforter, and very strong protector. He’s going to challenge her, and protect her heart, and give her an amazing ending.

Her life is nothing like she pictured it would be, but she wouldn’t trade one day for anything other than what she has right now. She is a firm believer in her dreams, and she knows that someday she’ll get that fairytale, she just has to wait for it. She needs some alone time with her Heavenly Daddy right now.

She is a fighter. She is a giver. She is a lover. She is a Daughter. She is a friend.

.Princess in Waiting.

The crash of the Ocean.

The place I feel the most at home would have to be walking on the Clearwater Beach, or any beach for that matter, but Clearwater would have to be my hometown beach. I get inspired by God's creation, and beauty of this world. I see wonder, and grace, and just by seeing a beach Sunrise, I see all of God's works at hand in that one Sunrise. I know God loves to make people happy, and give them the desires of their hearts, so by giving a Sunrise it starts off everyone's morning in an awesome way. Filled with God is the best way!

I feel God's beauty with looking at the Moon, and seeing a Sunset, or Sunrise. Which with Sunrise's I've seen VERY few of those :) I simply see God is the midst of the woods, or in the middle of a pond. I love to grab my journal and a pen, and sit outside and just write to My God.

Okay so I'm going to try to explain what I'm feeling right now, but I have all these thoughts in my head, but I don't know how I can form them into words, but I'll try.

I feel at home by the Ocean, I'm not really sure why, but I do. I feel God's presence there with me, with taking a walk with Him. I need to find that "home" place again, it's been awhile since I've been to a beach...almost a year, and I need to find Him in the deep part of my heart, and feel Him guiding me beside still waters. I want to talk with My God, I want to experience the view of the beautiful Sunrise again.

I guess because I don't live by an Ocean anymore, I find God in the midst of the woods while hiking. Which don't get me wrong, is an awesome place to find God. He's shown me a lot while hiking. I see His beauty, and He's also taught me many things. I've learned to love all the beauty around me instead of just longing for what I use to have, because yeah I might have grown up for 4 and 1/2 years by the beach but that doesn't mean that I can't see God's beauty somewhere else. He has it everywhere for me, just waiting for me to realize it, and capture it in my own eyes.

I need to find my spot in this world. I need to find my home and build from there. I need to find me. Until I find this place, I'll be searching, but with God by my side. If God takes me to Ireland or Tampa Florida, I'll go. I'll follow God with everything in me. I'm ready to follow His calling for my life. I'll simply follow.

-I believe I just got everything that was in my head to a writing...success!

..Goodnight, it's late and I'm tired. To all you dreamers, lovers, singers, Mothers, Fathers, and people that don't know what your calling is in life...Never give up! You'll find your place in this world someday. Just simply wait.

.Princess in Waiting.

Letters to Juliet.

These are my thoughts of the night....hope you'll enjoy them.

First off, I went to see the movie "Letters to Juliet" tonight with my Sister and Momma, and wow, that was a great movie! :) It showed me true love, and lasting love. I know it's just a movie, but it had us all believe in the power of love, and to show us that it's never too late to fall in-love. There is 1 person out there for everyone, and I know that no matter how long you wait, or how long you are single, God is bringing that person into your life, and they will come. You just have to be patient.

This movie gave me the courage to wait a little longer, and to have God as my Prince. I know I'm still pretty young but it's never too early to say, "I'm waiting for you love."

I guess my thoughts on tonight are to tell everyone out there that's reading this, is to say, hold onto your dreams, and believe in that love you'll find someday. No matter where you are in the world right now, believe in someday capturing that love God is holding onto for you right now.

If you're in Rome or if you're in Africa, or if you're miles and miles away from the one you love but you can't let them know that, just believe that someday it'll be the right timing. They'll come, and you'll have them.

This is going to be a sappy kind of blog tonight, but I know God has someone amazing out there for me. Someone that will give me the world, and someone I can look at everyday and think to myself, "how did I get so lucky with him?" I'm excited about that love. The day I'll be able to give all my love to one man, oh how I long for that day. Sweetheart, if you're reading this, wherever you are in the world tonight, please wait.

I'm holding onto my dreams tonight, and my love. I'm simply waiting.

.Princess in Waiting.