Hello world.

I'm a girl that at the moment doesn't know what to do.
(this is not normal for me.)

I don't know how much I'm going to be sharing about my heart tonight, because at the moment, I don't know what all I can say. I'm confused, I'm hurt, and I'm trying to find comfort in my Daddy (God) when I feel like this is a time there isn't anything I can do. I don't know how to voice my feelings anymore.

-I'm an open book.

You know when you feel like everything is going great, and then a couple days later everything changes? Yeah that's where I'm at, at the moment. I was looking up at the sky the other night and it was FILLED with stars...and I mean FILLED. I guess that's when I feel most at home. That's when I feel God is closest. When I'm seeing His beauty all around me.

I've had a fear of trusting people for many years now, because I've been hurt by many people in my life, and when I put myself out there, and I trust them, it all seems to fail. I'm telling myself this time that there's a good reason I trusted. There's a good outcome out of this, but it may not be seen for a long time. I may tumble and fall, and "scrap my knees up" before I see this so called "amazing" outcome, but I guess I'm willing to wait. I don't know, there are days I feel like giving up. There are days I feel like fighting even if I'm the only one giving anything in the so called "two way street."

--If you all are confused, I'm sorry. I'm just writing my thoughts at the moment, and if you're reading them, than great. This is nothing serious, but it's hard. It's challenging, and most likely will be for awhile, but I know God has an amazing outcome out of all of this. At least I think He does.

God is my Hero. He's my strength when I'm weak. He's my healer of broken hearts, and He's my Heavenly Daddy.

;)

I feel like I'm rambling and not making any sense. So, I guess that's my cue to say Good night then.

So...G'night world. Sweet Dreams.

.Princess in Waiting.