missin' you.

To everyone out there that's experienced love.

Tonight is a night I'm longing for the one I'll love someday to come. I know I'm trying not to share my heart so much, but tonight I need to let something out there into this crazy world. I need to share my feelings, since I feel like you all are the only one's listening.

I miss him. I miss the man that will someday win my heart. The man that I'll look into his eyes and see love, and happiness, and babies, and romance.

Are there ever nights you just need to write out your thoughts? Where you feel better afterwords? I'm feeling that right about now. I don't know if anyone is reading this, but I'm writing, and I believe I'll always be writing.

I write because it's the best way I can express my feelings. I don't always say the right thing, or do the right thing, but it seems like every time I start writing I say the right thing. I express myself in these words. I become myself in these words.

God's been working like crazy in my life, He's been taking things out, and bringing things in. He's been working His butt off. The thing is, I haven't been the child I should be for Him. I haven't been listening like I should be. I haven't been following like I should be. I'm trying to though. I'm trying to simply follow for once, but if anyone knows me, it's not easy for me to just "follow" I want to fix the problem. I guess I've heard the saying one too many times in my life, "Don't let the sun go down on your anger." Well I took that to heart, so I try not to go to bed knowing things aren't right with someone, but God doesn't always give you your answers right away. You have to wait for them often.

I'm having to wait for a bunch of stuff right now. Waiting isn't all that much fun, especially when it's a long wait. Anyone out there waiting for something? Then hopefully you know how I feel. God's got it though. That's something I have to keep reminding myself.
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So, wanna hear a story? ...Okay it may not be a "story" but yeah, here it goes. There once was a boy, he became my best friend. He challenged me, he pushed me, and made me come out of my "shell" a. l. o. t. ;) The thing is, I never realized how hard it is to be a guy's "friend." Anyone know what I mean? yeeeeeah. It's not like you can ask them their "deepest darkest secret" and they'll be happy to share it with you like a girl would be. ha. But I believe God has amazing things in store for this guy. He's gonna change this world. He's gonna experience love first hand someday. He's gonna hike the appalachian trail someday, and he's gonna explore the beauty of this world.

-To this guy, I'm kinda sorry I just wrote about you in my blog. But I write about people that change my world when they come into it. And well, you've changed my world. Thank you for that.

Onto another note...
I got pink roses the other day!! =)

---From my sister, but that still counts riiiiiight? ha.
They're beautiful, and I just remembered that if I don't water them tonight they might just die. Can't have that happening.

Well, I do believe I'm signing out for the night. I've missed writing. Truly I have. Glad to be back. I think I'll write again tomorrow night, so be expecting it.
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Loves to all.

.Princess in Waiting.