Monday, November 14, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
November, November.
Lovely people of the blogger world,
My goodness! This month is flying by. The leaves are falling & the trees are becoming bare. It's time to rake all the falling leaves & get ready for the beautiful Christmas season! --My most favorite time of the year....by far.
I love giving to other people & seeing their faces light up when I give them the gift I've been working on for months.
November is a joyful time of the year--Thanksgiving & spending time with the people closest to you. The times where you just surround yourself with family or the people you've come to call your family. It's a time to be thankful & not take this exquisite life of yours for granted.
"Another Fall passes with the colors
changing and families returning home for the holidays while another cold Winter
returns but it’s all the great wonders of Fall!"
I found this beautiful writing a while back & this is part of it--It's lovely in my opinion & it pretty much sums up the feeling I have inside of me right now. Fall is passing & it seems to be passing quicker this year than last year & the cold mornings are coming upon us. This morning was one of those morning.
What does November mean to me? What does it remind me of? Well, it reminds me of happiness & family. This year is going to be a bit different though, two of my sisters won't be joining us & it just simply won't be the same without them. My family is my world. --Some people may think that it's sad when all I have is family, but to be honest...It's happiness to me.
November is eating Turkey til you're too full to eat anymore & then going shopping. It's lighting up the Christmas Tree & playing Christmas music--up until December 26th & then I'm done with it, until next year. November means being grateful & thinking of family & others before yourself.
--Around this time of every year, I start to get really inspired & really motivated to accomplish a lot of things. I want to accomplish so much in the next month & a half.
Make a list. Write everything down that you want to accomplish before 2011 is over. Write it down & hold to it. You won't regret it, promise.
Enjoy the rest of this year & make it worth your time.
Loves.
.Grace
Thursday, November 10, 2011
soaking.
Tonight I laid there.
I simply laid on the ground in God's presence. If you asked me when the last time that was that I did that, I wouldn't have an answer for you.
{It's hurts to admit it, but I don't want any of you to think I'm anywhere close to perfect.}
Tonight was the night that in the moment that I laid there with God, I put all worries aside & I talked to Him. I talked to Him as if He was literally sitting right beside me & to be honest, I think He was. He was laying right beside me, wiping the tears that were falling & comforting me...when all else was failing.
I soaked in my Daddy God tonight. It was magnificent. Something I've missed deeply & something that is just needed on nights like these.
This may not be a long writing for tonight, but I wanted to share this because maybe it'll spark something in one of you that are reading tonight--soak. Just lay there in His presence. Some days words aren't even needed, you just need to be in the same room & place as Him.
To fully be committed to Him & to let Him know that you aren't too busy for Him & Him alone.
My Daddy God, He never leaves. He never leaves us nor forsakes us--But, that doesn't mean I need to take advantage of that like I have been. I need to be grateful for it & give Him what He deserves.
My time. My willingness.
-Now, it's time for me to get a good night's sleep.
I have Cap & Gown pictures tomorrow...oh the joys of being a Senior in high school.
Goodnight beauties.
.Princess in Waiting.
I simply laid on the ground in God's presence. If you asked me when the last time that was that I did that, I wouldn't have an answer for you.
{It's hurts to admit it, but I don't want any of you to think I'm anywhere close to perfect.}
Tonight was the night that in the moment that I laid there with God, I put all worries aside & I talked to Him. I talked to Him as if He was literally sitting right beside me & to be honest, I think He was. He was laying right beside me, wiping the tears that were falling & comforting me...when all else was failing.
I soaked in my Daddy God tonight. It was magnificent. Something I've missed deeply & something that is just needed on nights like these.
This may not be a long writing for tonight, but I wanted to share this because maybe it'll spark something in one of you that are reading tonight--soak. Just lay there in His presence. Some days words aren't even needed, you just need to be in the same room & place as Him.
To fully be committed to Him & to let Him know that you aren't too busy for Him & Him alone.
My Daddy God, He never leaves. He never leaves us nor forsakes us--But, that doesn't mean I need to take advantage of that like I have been. I need to be grateful for it & give Him what He deserves.
My time. My willingness.
-Now, it's time for me to get a good night's sleep.
I have Cap & Gown pictures tomorrow...oh the joys of being a Senior in high school.
Goodnight beauties.
.Princess in Waiting.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Forever young.
I did not write what you're about to read--but I came across it, while looking through old writings & found this that I had copied, some time ago. It really opened my eyes to what I seem to be realizing lately. Growing up & life is changing. No, it's not easy but, it's necessary for what is to come in our lives. Okay, I won't write a 'novel' this time, so enjoy & hopefully this'll hit you in the same way it did me. Or maybe in a different way.
Grace.
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Grace.
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As children we
are told "forever" over & over again in fairy tales & other
such stories that are bigger than our youthful minds. In those stories rainbows
& love & happiness live on forever, hardly ever changing or growing or
disappearing after the words "Happily ever after" are muttered &
the story book is closed.
But as we grow up
we learn the truth of forever. It is a reality, just one not as easily reached
as we once thought. Rainbows fade, even with the sun & not solely darkness,
love often lies to us & flees with time & even happiness cannot spread
itself evenly over the span of anyone's life. The truth of forever is that it
is never going to lighten up or bend itself for something that wasn't meant to
last its length.
So then how do
you know when you have something in your life that has the strength to last
forever? How do you measure that bond? How do you believe in forever kind of
things as you grow up & the world shows you how foolish your childhood stories
really were?
For me, it's all
become about feeling I suppose.
It's a very
youthful thing, giving over to your feelings. A part of you has to stay young
in order to surrender to them.
& it's all
about passion. Passion is one of the strongest feelings we have.
"May you
grow up to be righteous, may you grow up to be true. May you always know the
truth & see the lights surrounding you. May you always be courageous, stand
upright & be strong. May you stay forever young."
-Bob Dylan
Monday, November 7, 2011
Just one more day.
There are so many of us that wish we had 'just one more day.'
Or, one more minute or second. We all wish for that extra moment in time where we wish we had said the 'right thing' or done the right thing. We all wish for the moments that are forever gone, that have now passed.
Take in the time you have now. The moments you have now & the people you have in your life NOW. You are not promised to have them in your life tomorrow--they could decide that they need to move on or that there is something or someone better out there. Take this moment in your hands, right now & make it for ALL it's worth. Don't wait til tomorrow to say something you really want to say now. -What if you never get the chance? What if that moment never comes back around?
Take this moment in time in your hands & enjoy it. Love it. Live it.
Believe in it & let the people in your life know just how special they are to you.
Don't wait for tomorrow to come to change what you want to change NOW.
Soak in the love of Our Father in Heaven & thank Him for the lovely people He has put in your life. He put them there for a purpose...you do realize that, right? Everyone that walks in & out of your life is put here for a reason. They are here to either hurt you, to build you, to love you, to miss you, to encourage you, to support you, to believe in you, or to be here for a really long time. -they all hold a place in your life, a meaning, a reason.
Don't take them for granted, don't take this moment for granted.
There's a reason behind every point, obstacle, road block, adventure, challenge...they all hold a lovely meaning. Something worth enjoying & realizing that they are all only here for a short period of time. Your life is ever changing & there are seasons in your life, times for things to be good & times for things to be super hard. -No, it's not fun to face the super hard season of your life, but you have to go through that to get to the better season.
If everything in life was always easy, why would be ever need God?
We wouldn't. That's the true answer. We wouldn't desire Him like we do, we wouldn't want Him like we do. It just wouldn't be the same, because it's through the tough roads when we find peace in Him & happiness. With Him we can make it through the obstacles & really muddy paths of life, because it says in His word...
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. & God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
-1st Corinthians 10:13
God will NOT give us more than we can handle & if we truly think we can't handle something in our life, we need to take it to God. We need to bow at His feet & ask for His help. He never leaves us, know this. He's not running away, like some people may do to you in this life. He doesn't run, at least not away from you. He may run towards you.
This moment in time, don't take it for granted. be thankful for the people you have in your life & the people that God either brought back in or even took out. It's not a bad thing to be grateful for that because they were taken out for a reason. -God has a plan for everything in this beautiful life of yours.
I guess tonight this just really hit home with me, being grateful for the people that are in my life & even the people God felt necessary to take out, even if it was for a short while. He knows the reason, I may not but, that's why I continue to seek God, because through Him...I'll find the answers I need.
For everyone out there tonight in this lovely world that is reading about my life, if you get anything out of this I would want it to be this--
Cherish every moment you have with someone, as if it were your last. {Because it may be your last.}
& Be grateful for this life God has given to you, because not everyone can have a life as great as yours.
"If we all threw our problems in a pile & saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back."
{nameless.}
It's true, we would. In a heartbeat.
In this season of your life, be thankful, be loving, be kind. -You never know who you may run into & what kind of battle they may be fighting inside of them.
Goodnight lovelies.
.Grace.
Or, one more minute or second. We all wish for that extra moment in time where we wish we had said the 'right thing' or done the right thing. We all wish for the moments that are forever gone, that have now passed.
Take in the time you have now. The moments you have now & the people you have in your life NOW. You are not promised to have them in your life tomorrow--they could decide that they need to move on or that there is something or someone better out there. Take this moment in your hands, right now & make it for ALL it's worth. Don't wait til tomorrow to say something you really want to say now. -What if you never get the chance? What if that moment never comes back around?
Take this moment in time in your hands & enjoy it. Love it. Live it.
Believe in it & let the people in your life know just how special they are to you.
Don't wait for tomorrow to come to change what you want to change NOW.
Soak in the love of Our Father in Heaven & thank Him for the lovely people He has put in your life. He put them there for a purpose...you do realize that, right? Everyone that walks in & out of your life is put here for a reason. They are here to either hurt you, to build you, to love you, to miss you, to encourage you, to support you, to believe in you, or to be here for a really long time. -they all hold a place in your life, a meaning, a reason.
Don't take them for granted, don't take this moment for granted.
There's a reason behind every point, obstacle, road block, adventure, challenge...they all hold a lovely meaning. Something worth enjoying & realizing that they are all only here for a short period of time. Your life is ever changing & there are seasons in your life, times for things to be good & times for things to be super hard. -No, it's not fun to face the super hard season of your life, but you have to go through that to get to the better season.
If everything in life was always easy, why would be ever need God?
We wouldn't. That's the true answer. We wouldn't desire Him like we do, we wouldn't want Him like we do. It just wouldn't be the same, because it's through the tough roads when we find peace in Him & happiness. With Him we can make it through the obstacles & really muddy paths of life, because it says in His word...
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. & God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
-1st Corinthians 10:13
God will NOT give us more than we can handle & if we truly think we can't handle something in our life, we need to take it to God. We need to bow at His feet & ask for His help. He never leaves us, know this. He's not running away, like some people may do to you in this life. He doesn't run, at least not away from you. He may run towards you.
This moment in time, don't take it for granted. be thankful for the people you have in your life & the people that God either brought back in or even took out. It's not a bad thing to be grateful for that because they were taken out for a reason. -God has a plan for everything in this beautiful life of yours.
I guess tonight this just really hit home with me, being grateful for the people that are in my life & even the people God felt necessary to take out, even if it was for a short while. He knows the reason, I may not but, that's why I continue to seek God, because through Him...I'll find the answers I need.
For everyone out there tonight in this lovely world that is reading about my life, if you get anything out of this I would want it to be this--
Cherish every moment you have with someone, as if it were your last. {Because it may be your last.}
& Be grateful for this life God has given to you, because not everyone can have a life as great as yours.
"If we all threw our problems in a pile & saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back."
{nameless.}
It's true, we would. In a heartbeat.
In this season of your life, be thankful, be loving, be kind. -You never know who you may run into & what kind of battle they may be fighting inside of them.
Goodnight lovelies.
.Grace.
Friday, November 4, 2011
letting go.
"Sometimes you tell yourself you have to let go, because the other person already has."
-Nameless.It may be hard, but it can also be the best decision you make in your life. Letting go, being free. -Waiting for God to intercede instead of your own wants & desires to make it last, just one more day.
God works everything out in His timing & if it's not His timing, it simply won't work. It will fail. Sometimes the truth hurts, but I read this quote once, I think I've posted it on here before but I'm going to write it again...
"The worst thing about being lied to, is knowing you weren't worth the truth."
Isn't that the truth? It may hurt to hear the truth in the beginning, but wouldn't it hurt worse to find out in the end that you've been lied to for awhile now? & in the time they lied to you, you could have been moving on. Building yourself back up instead of holding on to something that had been dead for awhile now?
The truth hurts, but speak it if necessary. Be honest. Be truthful. Be kind.
We may not all have it together & we all may be fighting our own battles inside of us & holding things in, but God knows who we need in our life. The people we need to come in, to leave & to stay for a lifetime.
I'm not saying it's fun to see people leave. To have to say 'goodbye' but, sometimes it's just time. Sometimes it's only for a short while & sometimes it's for the rest of your life.
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I'm a girl that gives her heart away often, maybe not 'romantically' but, I give it away by trusting people & investing in their lives. I believe in people & always give them the chances they deserve. -I'm not saying I regret that, ever. Because I don't. It's my own choice to stay in a friendship as long as I do, because I believe in that person & I believe in their dreams & the accomplishments they want to make in their life & I want to be the ONE person in their life that is their 'constant.' The person that is there at the beginning of the race & is there through all the curves & bumps & pot holes--& is still there when they reach the finish line. I want to be there for them.
To cheer them on, to cry with them. To make them smile & to be the one they can always count on. I know what it feels like to not have someone you feel like you can 'count on.'
It's a tough world, I know this. There are a lot of people tearing you down & there are few that are actually cheering you on.
--Be that one person.
Be that constant.
Be the person that cheers them on, on the really bad days.
& be the one that is there through thick & thin.
I wasn't planning on sharing this much tonight, but the past couple days I've been reminded of a lot. & I've been trying to remind myself of what's truly important in my life. & WHO is truly important.
I hope this finds you today & encourages YOU.
.Grace.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Brown eyed girl.
-I'm a sucker for boys with dimples.
-I enjoy this season. a lot.
-I just made a Christmas music album yesterday. Pure bliss.
-My life is always changing. There is never a dull moment in the life of me, Hannah Grace.
-The only thing I hate about this season is when my hands get all dried out...yuck.
-Thanksgiving is coming up & I have something huge to be thankful for this year, the fact that's I'm about to be an Aunt!!
-I want to hold a boy's hand.
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I'm a brown eyed girl. A girl that is longing for the 'better tomorrow.'
I'm hard to get along with & sometimes stubborn.
I have a hard time with lazy people & I'm striving in my Senior Year of high school.
I have a tendency to procrastinate until the very last second, but it always turns out okay. I have my best inspirations late at night.
I enjoy Daddy/Daughter date nights.
& I miss the days of being little.
I miss being called 'Grace.'
I feel like my heart & mind are stuck in a beautifully written book, that I long to be in. For the rest of time.
I'm not perfect. No where near it to be honest. But, who is?! We're all trying to find our spot in this world. Our perfect place, where we're accepted & loved. Some people have already found that spot & some of us are still searching.
I'm a girl that messes up at times. I get myself into little stopping points in my life where I have to face God & say, "I'm sorry." -I enjoy the little things in life, as in watching the Moon grow with every night that passes & then just gazing at it when it's FINALLY that lovely full Moon.
Or the moments that have me stop in my tracks because I notice how God is molding me, right at that moment in time. Where He is changing me & building me.
I find happiness in the smallest parts of my heart. I love the cool mornings when I have coffee in hand & I see that first leaf poking out that is a beautiful orange color & it shows me that Fall is on it's way. I find happiness in that.
I over-think too much, because I worry about what people think of me. I try to please everyone. Not the best thing to take on in life. -I've learned that you can't please everyone, but I still try. everyday.
I'm in a season of changing- a season of molding. This season God is testing me I believe. Seeing what path I'll choose, on my own. Without my parents giving their input. I have to make this choice. I have to decide on my own what I want. They've chosen this for me for years & now it's my turn to pick the road I want to take.
I'm fickle. I'm crazy. & I have a heart that is exploding. -exploding with love & care & happiness & joy & sympathy. A heart that is ready to give. Give everything I have. Everything I am for the people that truly need it. I'm ready to build myself up & the people around me in this new season.
I'm ready to say 'hello' again.
I'm ready to become someone I've longed to know. Someone I've searched for, for years. She wasn't ready...until now.
{I'm just a brown eyed girl.}
.Grace.
-I enjoy this season. a lot.
-I just made a Christmas music album yesterday. Pure bliss.
-My life is always changing. There is never a dull moment in the life of me, Hannah Grace.
-The only thing I hate about this season is when my hands get all dried out...yuck.
-Thanksgiving is coming up & I have something huge to be thankful for this year, the fact that's I'm about to be an Aunt!!
-I want to hold a boy's hand.
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I'm a brown eyed girl. A girl that is longing for the 'better tomorrow.'
I'm hard to get along with & sometimes stubborn.
I have a hard time with lazy people & I'm striving in my Senior Year of high school.
I have a tendency to procrastinate until the very last second, but it always turns out okay. I have my best inspirations late at night.
I enjoy Daddy/Daughter date nights.
& I miss the days of being little.
I miss being called 'Grace.'
I feel like my heart & mind are stuck in a beautifully written book, that I long to be in. For the rest of time.
I'm not perfect. No where near it to be honest. But, who is?! We're all trying to find our spot in this world. Our perfect place, where we're accepted & loved. Some people have already found that spot & some of us are still searching.
I'm a girl that messes up at times. I get myself into little stopping points in my life where I have to face God & say, "I'm sorry." -I enjoy the little things in life, as in watching the Moon grow with every night that passes & then just gazing at it when it's FINALLY that lovely full Moon.
Or the moments that have me stop in my tracks because I notice how God is molding me, right at that moment in time. Where He is changing me & building me.
I find happiness in the smallest parts of my heart. I love the cool mornings when I have coffee in hand & I see that first leaf poking out that is a beautiful orange color & it shows me that Fall is on it's way. I find happiness in that.
I over-think too much, because I worry about what people think of me. I try to please everyone. Not the best thing to take on in life. -I've learned that you can't please everyone, but I still try. everyday.
I'm in a season of changing- a season of molding. This season God is testing me I believe. Seeing what path I'll choose, on my own. Without my parents giving their input. I have to make this choice. I have to decide on my own what I want. They've chosen this for me for years & now it's my turn to pick the road I want to take.
I'm fickle. I'm crazy. & I have a heart that is exploding. -exploding with love & care & happiness & joy & sympathy. A heart that is ready to give. Give everything I have. Everything I am for the people that truly need it. I'm ready to build myself up & the people around me in this new season.
I'm ready to say 'hello' again.
I'm ready to become someone I've longed to know. Someone I've searched for, for years. She wasn't ready...until now.
{I'm just a brown eyed girl.}
.Grace.
That boy.
Don't let go.
Don't give up when you have your first fight.
Don't walk away mad.
believe in each others dreams.
encourage.
love.
& most importantly don't settle for just anyone. Stand firm in your desires, God knows them & He has your love story in His hands. Trust Him.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Autumn.
"Every leaf speaks bliss to me. Fluttering from the autumn tree."
-Emily Bronte-Fall is this to me. Pure happiness falling from the trees above. It's feel good weather, bundling up by the camp fires & going to the corn maze on a cold Saturday evening.
Enjoy this Fall evening with the people you love.
.Princess in Waiting.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
staring.
enjoy lovelies.
Grace.
Monday, October 24, 2011
I'm only a Senior once.
{I'm a Senior. In high school.
I have been for a couple months now but,
it's officially hitting me, right now, at this moment.}
I'm having to venture out on my own & make my own choices.
I know at least one thing in my life that I'm about to be able to choose on my own.
It's hard to realize that ALL these years, leading up to this moment have passed.
I've made the choices I've made up until now.
I've met the people I was going to meet.
& I've lost the friends I was meant to for me to become who I am.
I know that when I say that people probably think, "Why do you think God would mean for you to be hurt in life & take people out of your life that you thought would be there for the day you had your first date & when you walked down the aisle to the boy you loved & when you welcomed your first child into the world?"....or as I'm thinking of right now, the day you GRADUATED from high school.
God's plan for our lives is NOT to hurt us, it's to show us just how much He loves us & to show us that no matter how many people we let walk all over us & tear us down, in the end, He is there. To catch us when we fall & to love us through it ALL.
We forget that a lot.
As I'm sitting here tonight, looking back on the past 4 years of my high school chapter of my life, I'm reminded of all the laughter & happiness I've experienced. All the friends that stood by my side in that time & loved me through the tough days. It's meant a lot.
The sisters that have become my BEST friends.
Some people I've met are shocked that my sisters, the people I live with daily could become the people that I LOVE to spend my time with & tell everything. The friends that I tell my quirky little dreams to & believe in them with me. The friends that stick it out through thick & thin & don't just get tired & walk off. They listen. They give you their time, even if they only have very little. & they love with the best kind of love.
I feel a little bit like I'm saying 'goodbye', but in a way, I am. I'm saying 'goodbye' to a chapter in my life that has been a huge part in my book. I've grown so much in this chapter {height wise also} ;)
& I've become this girl that is still very much searching. Searching for love, kindness, happiness, randomness, quirkiness, the moments that take your breath away, instantly. & just acceptance.
{I have no idea what this next chapter will hold for me, college. Where God will lead me, who He will bring into my life, if it'll be a lovely boy or just beautiful new friends. It's magical though, to not know. To wonder what all God has written & laid out for me in this next new adventure He has for me.}
I know this has been a very long 'blog' for tonight, but I haven't written out my heart in awhile & I've honestly missed it. To be honest, my life is in these writings & in my journals.
--Well, just because I'm a Senior in high school doesn't mean I don't have to be up early like everyone else, so I'm going to say 'goodnight.'
Sleep well lovelies.
.Princess in Waiting.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Believing in God, even when you're weak.
"courage is choosing conviction over compromise"
-nameless.My sister sent me this quote from something she heard a couple weeks back in a lesson that was given at her Missions Training Program, & it really hit home with me. It showed me that sometimes you may not always have the strength to do the 'right' thing, but it's better than just 'giving in' because that's what the rest of the world is doing. Compromise normally only ever makes the other person happy, not yourself, or MOST importantly God.
Following God is NEVER going to be easy. I'm just going to break that to you right now people. He doesn't make our lives easy, because if He did then we'd just sail through life never having obstacles or challenges to slow us down & remind us that we DO need God by our side in this crazy life.
Never give into peer pressure, I'm having to learn that right now, yes I'm a Senior in high school & I should have already learned that by now, but up until this year I've been homeschooled. I'm learning a lot in my Senior Year & to be honest a lot of it is hard, but it's just reminding me home much more I need to rely on God for my strength. I'll be honest though, with how much school I have right now & homework it's hard to make time for God, but I'm trying. I'm trying to give more to Him instead of just asking Him to forgive me at the end of the day.
With God, anything is possible but without God, nothing is possible. It will always in the end, fail.
Well, I believe I'm going to keep this writing short for tonight because well, it's late. I'm tired from a longggg day at school. & I have to be up early tomorrow morning, or should I say 'today.' It's past midnight. This girl is wiped.
dream about lovely things.
Pray. Seek God for help in the midst of sadness or even in happiness.
loves.
.Princess in Waiting.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
College life.
As I'm sitting outside in the hallway at MTSU while my sister is in a class, my heart & mind are trying to process the fact that I'm in my senior year & I will soon be having to experience the college life, just like my sister is right now.
I'll be honest, I'm not ready. Not one bit. I fear that I won't know all that I should know, or I won't go for the right major. & I'll have to change. I have a couple choices right now, & my family is backing me up 100% with whatever I choose, but I'm still wandering & remembering my childhood days where I didn't have to worry about much of anything except the fact of waking up in the morning & remembering to clean my room or make my bed.
This campus is huge & as I'm here for the week with my sister while my school is on Fall break, I'm realizing that I don't believe this is what I want to do once I graduate....But how do I face that? How do I tell my parents that I don't want to go to college? Do I have a back-up plan? not really. I have ideas, but you can't go through life on 'ideas.'
Reality is hitting me & I know God has the best for me in His hands, but I'm fearful. I'm not ready for my Senior Year to be over. To be honest, I'm enjoying it...a lot. All the people I'm meeting & creating bonds with..What do I just leave them behind when I graduate? Do I tell them that it's been a great year, but now I have to face the real world? --I'm still figuring all of that out. I'm still searching.
The college life isn't for everyone. Some people say it's the best 4 years of their lives. & Some are just counting down the days til it's over. They say that you should choose a career path that you'd be happy to work in every day for the rest of your life & I do find that to be true, but I'm still wondering what path that would be for me. --I've always wanted "Journalism" --Up until a few months ago. Now I'm leading more towards cosmetology school. I would enjoy doing hair & nails & everything that comes with that for the rest of my life...at least I think I would. & You are pretty much promised a job once you graduate, depending on how good you are. Journalism on the other hand is not a promised field to go into right out of college. It's a dying field to be honest.
I will always have my time that I hide away & write. There will never come a day that I put my journals away & say goodbye to that part of me. This is who I am, just maybe not for an everyday lifestyle.
{I am not trying to sound like I'm complaining because I'm not.}
I am stoked to see where God takes me in the next chapter of my life that I'm coming upon. God has been taking me on some turns in the past couple months & also opening up old chapters that I thought were closed forever, but that's the beauty of God. He is capable of doing whatever He wants to do. He can bring people back into your life whenever He feels like it, or He can take people out without you even having a say in the matter.
I'm just searching to find myself. To find who I'm meant to be. Who I will travel with on this journey called 'life.' Or if I'll take it alone. Who will enter it while I'm traveling & who will be there from start to finish. Who I can look at everyday & know they are there for the long run & who I need to say the word 'goodbye' to.
God knows what road I'll be taking come August of 2012. He already has it planned out. That's the beauty in our God. --God could have a totally different plan for me, He could be sending me out on the Mission field half way across the world come next August. I don't know. But I do know that whatever He has in store for me, I'll be willing. Because I want to follow Him wherever He places me. I'm tired of running.
.Princess in Waiting.
I'll be honest, I'm not ready. Not one bit. I fear that I won't know all that I should know, or I won't go for the right major. & I'll have to change. I have a couple choices right now, & my family is backing me up 100% with whatever I choose, but I'm still wandering & remembering my childhood days where I didn't have to worry about much of anything except the fact of waking up in the morning & remembering to clean my room or make my bed.
This campus is huge & as I'm here for the week with my sister while my school is on Fall break, I'm realizing that I don't believe this is what I want to do once I graduate....But how do I face that? How do I tell my parents that I don't want to go to college? Do I have a back-up plan? not really. I have ideas, but you can't go through life on 'ideas.'
Reality is hitting me & I know God has the best for me in His hands, but I'm fearful. I'm not ready for my Senior Year to be over. To be honest, I'm enjoying it...a lot. All the people I'm meeting & creating bonds with..What do I just leave them behind when I graduate? Do I tell them that it's been a great year, but now I have to face the real world? --I'm still figuring all of that out. I'm still searching.
The college life isn't for everyone. Some people say it's the best 4 years of their lives. & Some are just counting down the days til it's over. They say that you should choose a career path that you'd be happy to work in every day for the rest of your life & I do find that to be true, but I'm still wondering what path that would be for me. --I've always wanted "Journalism" --Up until a few months ago. Now I'm leading more towards cosmetology school. I would enjoy doing hair & nails & everything that comes with that for the rest of my life...at least I think I would. & You are pretty much promised a job once you graduate, depending on how good you are. Journalism on the other hand is not a promised field to go into right out of college. It's a dying field to be honest.
I will always have my time that I hide away & write. There will never come a day that I put my journals away & say goodbye to that part of me. This is who I am, just maybe not for an everyday lifestyle.
{I am not trying to sound like I'm complaining because I'm not.}
I am stoked to see where God takes me in the next chapter of my life that I'm coming upon. God has been taking me on some turns in the past couple months & also opening up old chapters that I thought were closed forever, but that's the beauty of God. He is capable of doing whatever He wants to do. He can bring people back into your life whenever He feels like it, or He can take people out without you even having a say in the matter.
I'm just searching to find myself. To find who I'm meant to be. Who I will travel with on this journey called 'life.' Or if I'll take it alone. Who will enter it while I'm traveling & who will be there from start to finish. Who I can look at everyday & know they are there for the long run & who I need to say the word 'goodbye' to.
God knows what road I'll be taking come August of 2012. He already has it planned out. That's the beauty in our God. --God could have a totally different plan for me, He could be sending me out on the Mission field half way across the world come next August. I don't know. But I do know that whatever He has in store for me, I'll be willing. Because I want to follow Him wherever He places me. I'm tired of running.
.Princess in Waiting.
Beauty of the truth.
The truth is worth everything.
That's the beauty in it.
Knowing you weren't worth enough of their time to be told the honest & brutal truth..
It hurts, it's painful.
Life doesn't always go according to plan,
but that's why your life isn't written by you.
It's written by someone so much greater.
Someone that is worth everything.
Someone that won't lie.
Someone that won't cheat.
Someone that won't break your promises.
Someone that is there, through thick & thin.
Someone that cares.
Someone that believes in your dreams & won't leave once He's 'bored.'
-Grace.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Monday, October 3, 2011
Piece of Cake.
Our journey is flawed.
Our journey is unforgettable.
Our journey is work.
Our journey is patience.
Our journey is time.
Our
journey is challenging.
Our
journey is special.
Our journey is not perfect.
{I found this today as I was going through all my old writings. Written awhile ago, but I still feel like it can relate.}
Grace.
Auntie Han-Han {has a nice ring to it.}
It's true my peeps,
I'm going to be an AUNT. April 15th 2012 my little Niece or Nephew will be here & I couldn't be happier! I'm ready to shower this baby in love & spoil it to no end.
I've been waiting for this day for a long time & believe me, it was worth the long wait. My brother & sister in-law are so blessed! My sister in-law is in her Senior year of College & yes, it's going to be hard, but we're going to be here for her & I know that God has them in His hands, watching over them.
This baby is going to have more love then they {the baby} knows what to do with.
We've officially named the baby for the time being... {Since we don't know what she is having yet.}
Baby Lima Bean.
Well, this is a short one for today, I just wanted to 'officially' announce that I'm going to be an Aunt....Yes, I may have a odd name for an Aunt, but do you think I care?! No. I finally get to have a little one in our house again. I'm stoked.
To anyone reading this, will you do me a favor though? Be praying for my sister in-law & Lima Bean...They need it.
Loves to all.
.Princess in Waiting.
I'm going to be an AUNT. April 15th 2012 my little Niece or Nephew will be here & I couldn't be happier! I'm ready to shower this baby in love & spoil it to no end.
I've been waiting for this day for a long time & believe me, it was worth the long wait. My brother & sister in-law are so blessed! My sister in-law is in her Senior year of College & yes, it's going to be hard, but we're going to be here for her & I know that God has them in His hands, watching over them.
This baby is going to have more love then they {the baby} knows what to do with.
We've officially named the baby for the time being... {Since we don't know what she is having yet.}
Baby Lima Bean.
Well, this is a short one for today, I just wanted to 'officially' announce that I'm going to be an Aunt....Yes, I may have a odd name for an Aunt, but do you think I care?! No. I finally get to have a little one in our house again. I'm stoked.
To anyone reading this, will you do me a favor though? Be praying for my sister in-law & Lima Bean...They need it.
Loves to all.
.Princess in Waiting.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
he was born a hippie.
Eighteen Years--
Within 18 years you can have a really strong marriage with many children.
Within Eighteen years you can have a college degree & a firm, steady job.
Within 18 years you could have traveled the world, a couple times.
Within Eighteen years you could be falling in-love with your best friend & asking for their hand in marriage.
Within 18 years you could be standing in a hospital room waiting for your first child to be born.
Within Eighteen years you could have fought cancer, twice.
----
Or, within 18 years you could just be starting to live your life.
You could be dreaming of what your life will be like once you finally 'start' living.
Once you make that leap from high school to college.
Eighteen is a big age, it's a life-changing age, at least for most.
It's the age you are when you graduate high school.
It's the age you are when you move out of your parents house & begin life on your own.
It's the age you are when you experience your first kiss.
Or the moment you experience real love.
It's the moment you decide what you're going to do for the rest of your life.
{18 years<--It can be a long time, but to this boy, it's just the beginning. It's his next chapter. It's where his new story begins. It's the pages he's been wanting to turn to for years now, but has always been scared to as well.}
I believe that in a different life, he was born a hippie.
He has a crazy sense of style & he has beautiful hair.
He never fears what people think, he's different because of that.
He's stubborn & silly.
He's crazy & a musician.
This boy, loves the craziest things & sticks to it.
He has blissful dreams & he will someday live them out, for all they are worth.
This boy, today he's Eighteen-->18 years of age.
venturing out, exploring new horizons.
Traveling to new heights.
Finally doing what he's said he'd do for years.
making those 'final' decisions & going. Running.
Diving into something new. Something radical.
Today--he may not even know it, but there's a girl out there that is missing something in her life & one day she'll realize it was him. All along, it was that boy. No matter how many years it takes, for those two worlds to collide into one. --It'll happen.
Eighteen years-->in that time frame. He's become a friend, a brother, a son & most likely someone that most boys look up to.
He's left footprints on lives he's come into contact with & he's shown Christ through his actions.
Today Eighteen years ago, this boy was born. God wrote out his life book & sent him on his way to two lovely parents. Today--we celebrate him.
Grace.
Within 18 years you can have a really strong marriage with many children.
Within Eighteen years you can have a college degree & a firm, steady job.
Within 18 years you could have traveled the world, a couple times.
Within Eighteen years you could be falling in-love with your best friend & asking for their hand in marriage.
Within 18 years you could be standing in a hospital room waiting for your first child to be born.
Within Eighteen years you could have fought cancer, twice.
----
Or, within 18 years you could just be starting to live your life.
You could be dreaming of what your life will be like once you finally 'start' living.
Once you make that leap from high school to college.
Eighteen is a big age, it's a life-changing age, at least for most.
It's the age you are when you graduate high school.
It's the age you are when you move out of your parents house & begin life on your own.
It's the age you are when you experience your first kiss.
Or the moment you experience real love.
It's the moment you decide what you're going to do for the rest of your life.
{18 years<--It can be a long time, but to this boy, it's just the beginning. It's his next chapter. It's where his new story begins. It's the pages he's been wanting to turn to for years now, but has always been scared to as well.}
I believe that in a different life, he was born a hippie.
He has a crazy sense of style & he has beautiful hair.
He never fears what people think, he's different because of that.
He's stubborn & silly.
He's crazy & a musician.
This boy, loves the craziest things & sticks to it.
He has blissful dreams & he will someday live them out, for all they are worth.
This boy, today he's Eighteen-->18 years of age.
venturing out, exploring new horizons.
Traveling to new heights.
Finally doing what he's said he'd do for years.
making those 'final' decisions & going. Running.
Diving into something new. Something radical.
Today--he may not even know it, but there's a girl out there that is missing something in her life & one day she'll realize it was him. All along, it was that boy. No matter how many years it takes, for those two worlds to collide into one. --It'll happen.
Eighteen years-->in that time frame. He's become a friend, a brother, a son & most likely someone that most boys look up to.
He's left footprints on lives he's come into contact with & he's shown Christ through his actions.
Today Eighteen years ago, this boy was born. God wrote out his life book & sent him on his way to two lovely parents. Today--we celebrate him.
Grace.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
The leaves falling.
It's been awhile since I've written out a list & whenever I'm out in town or even sitting in my room & I get an idea for something I want to accomplish in my life I write it down in a note in my phone--So, I think it's time for another one.
by the way, hello lovelies. I've missed you.
---
do pottery.
Have a mud fight. {because water or whipped cream isn't good enough.}
travel the world on the back of a Motorcycle. {not me as the driver though.}
be fought for.
be a boy's girlfriend.
succeed in college.
Be Valedictorian in my graduating class.
sing out loud in the car.
inspire someone.
have the courage to love.
not fear of letting someone else in.
Be the listener every person wants to be.
Go to Africa.
Spending a summer walking the streets of Rome.
Share my testimony with a large group of people without passing out.
Always have the courage to stand up for myself.
speak my mind at the right moment. {say what I'm really thinking.}
give more, receive less.
learn how to save money.
Be asked for my hand in marriage.
Go camping.
Go up in a Hot Air Balloon.
Own a little fluffy chick. {& name it twinkles.}
Find a true lasting best friend.
Go to every fast food place in town within 1 night & just get 1 item from each place & then...enjoy!
Learn how to tie a tie.
I have an addiction with buying Hallmark cards.
Learn how to paint.
Dance during a sun shower.
I'm already thinking about Christmas gifts.
Christmas music in August is normal for me.
I love going on trips with my family.
{I read quotes on websites & I'm instantly inspired to write.}
www.pinterest.com <---has become my new favorite website.
If I could go back to any era I would go back to the time where all the ladies would wear big ballroom dresses-->medieval times.
I've come to realize that having a planner is a very wise thing to have in life. With that you don't forget to do anything.
In life, everyone needs compassion. --no matter who they are, or where they are in life. They are all struggling in one way or another. Don't walk away. Stay. Listen. Pray.
I'm a Senior in Highschool--I'm lovin' my Senior year so far. God has blessed me.
I've had a goal of going to bed at 9pm every night {never happens}
I have a theory that I'm not like most people--I dream of things a lot. You'll catch me starring off into space because I'm dreaming of something beautiful. & I hold on to things. I give everything I have & I don't believe in saying 'goodbye' to people, unless you have a really good reason. I also have a problem with saying the word 'no' to people. It's just not possible.
Today, on August 30th 2011---> I just signed up to be on the girls Volleyball team at my school. I'm scared. Why did I agree? peer pressure.
My bedroom has been invaded by fleas {needless to say, I've moved out for the time being.}
I found a little ugly thing that tried to invade my room a couple weeks back--needless to say, I ran away. It was a snake.
"Mighty To Save" By- Laura Story {new favorite song}
The leaves are beginning to fall, the cold mornings are arriving, the Coffee is being needed to stay warm & the fires are being lit, guess that only means one thing--Fall is near.
I fall in-love with song lyrics.
Being 15 was a good age. There are times I wish I could go back to those days.
I love Pickles {only a certain kind though}
Fall & Spring are my favorite times of the year.
Christmas is my favorite Holiday though.
Making gifts for people is a joy of mine.
I may have said this before, but I enjoy homemade gifts more than store bought. They hold more meaning behind them.
I love the days that I leave school with no homework.
In a few short months I will be taking my Senior pictures. I'm ready!
Be an Aunt.
being able to someday share in the excitement of Christmas with my Nieces & Nephews.
----
It seems I'm now on a roll with writing my 'list' buuuuuuut, I'll save some for next time, because there WILL be a next time :) This is my favorite thing to do. Make lists!
When I write lists, it isn't for you all, all that much. It's for me. It brings me a splash of happiness & I just get the honor of sharing it all with you. I hope it inspires you in return though. --this has been a couple weeks in progress. Everything takes time!
{Grace}
by the way, hello lovelies. I've missed you.
---
do pottery.
Have a mud fight. {because water or whipped cream isn't good enough.}
travel the world on the back of a Motorcycle. {not me as the driver though.}
be fought for.
be a boy's girlfriend.
succeed in college.
Be Valedictorian in my graduating class.
sing out loud in the car.
inspire someone.
have the courage to love.
not fear of letting someone else in.
Be the listener every person wants to be.
Go to Africa.
Spending a summer walking the streets of Rome.
Share my testimony with a large group of people without passing out.
Always have the courage to stand up for myself.
speak my mind at the right moment. {say what I'm really thinking.}
give more, receive less.
learn how to save money.
Be asked for my hand in marriage.
Go camping.
Go up in a Hot Air Balloon.
Own a little fluffy chick. {& name it twinkles.}
Find a true lasting best friend.
Go to every fast food place in town within 1 night & just get 1 item from each place & then...enjoy!
Learn how to tie a tie.
I have an addiction with buying Hallmark cards.
Learn how to paint.
Dance during a sun shower.
I'm already thinking about Christmas gifts.
Christmas music in August is normal for me.
I love going on trips with my family.
{I read quotes on websites & I'm instantly inspired to write.}
www.pinterest.com <---has become my new favorite website.
If I could go back to any era I would go back to the time where all the ladies would wear big ballroom dresses-->medieval times.
I've come to realize that having a planner is a very wise thing to have in life. With that you don't forget to do anything.
In life, everyone needs compassion. --no matter who they are, or where they are in life. They are all struggling in one way or another. Don't walk away. Stay. Listen. Pray.
I'm a Senior in Highschool--I'm lovin' my Senior year so far. God has blessed me.
I've had a goal of going to bed at 9pm every night {never happens}
I have a theory that I'm not like most people--I dream of things a lot. You'll catch me starring off into space because I'm dreaming of something beautiful. & I hold on to things. I give everything I have & I don't believe in saying 'goodbye' to people, unless you have a really good reason. I also have a problem with saying the word 'no' to people. It's just not possible.
Today, on August 30th 2011---> I just signed up to be on the girls Volleyball team at my school. I'm scared. Why did I agree? peer pressure.
My bedroom has been invaded by fleas {needless to say, I've moved out for the time being.}
I found a little ugly thing that tried to invade my room a couple weeks back--needless to say, I ran away. It was a snake.
"Mighty To Save" By- Laura Story {new favorite song}
The leaves are beginning to fall, the cold mornings are arriving, the Coffee is being needed to stay warm & the fires are being lit, guess that only means one thing--Fall is near.
I fall in-love with song lyrics.
Being 15 was a good age. There are times I wish I could go back to those days.
I love Pickles {only a certain kind though}
Fall & Spring are my favorite times of the year.
Christmas is my favorite Holiday though.
Making gifts for people is a joy of mine.
I may have said this before, but I enjoy homemade gifts more than store bought. They hold more meaning behind them.
I love the days that I leave school with no homework.
In a few short months I will be taking my Senior pictures. I'm ready!
Be an Aunt.
being able to someday share in the excitement of Christmas with my Nieces & Nephews.
----
It seems I'm now on a roll with writing my 'list' buuuuuuut, I'll save some for next time, because there WILL be a next time :) This is my favorite thing to do. Make lists!
When I write lists, it isn't for you all, all that much. It's for me. It brings me a splash of happiness & I just get the honor of sharing it all with you. I hope it inspires you in return though. --this has been a couple weeks in progress. Everything takes time!
{Grace}
Sunday, August 28, 2011
longing for the 'better tomorrow'
As I'm sitting here on this beautiful Sunday night, I'm reminded of the places God takes you in life. The people He takes out & the people He puts in.
I was just looking at a book {journal} that I made a couple months back & I'm reminded of just how much has changed. This journal inspired me tonight. It inspired me to be open to the idea of letting God write this next chapter of my life for me. To not be afraid of letting people in. To not be scared of letting my heart go again. {because if anyone knows me, I have a hard time not forgiving people & truly blocking them out for the rest of time.}
I'm a forgiving person, but if you're wise, you won't take advantage of that. You'll try, you'll give all you have. You'll fight.
Some people have told me I'm wrong on this, but I think that every friendship is worth fighting for. There is something in it, that you have to always give 100%. I'm not talking romantically. I'm talking about someone that when you're with just makes you light up inside. They make you joyful. --not just happy, but Joyful! There is a difference in joy & happiness.
People can come into your life & leave a mark that will forever be there & there are also people that can come in & leave without you even knowing it. I try to be the person that leaves the footprints behind. I try to make a difference & hopefully a good one at that.
I've come to realize that I believe I expect too much out of people. & for that, I've possibly lost some people in my life, but if they realized it, everyone messes up. That doesn't mean you should just give up. No, keep going, keep longing for the 'better tomorrow.' It'll be worth in the end.
Everyone needs compassion. There isn't one person in this whole world that is 'perfect.' We are all fighting our own battles. No matter if it's small or big. We're still fighting something. Every single one of us needs a love that's never failing. Compassion for others & kind words. --I was reading a quote on a website today & it said, "kind words go a long way"
I understand that things don't always stay the same, but that doesn't mean everything needs to fail. I don't believe that's the way God designed things.
----
My writing 'inspiration' is slowly dying for the night, this means it's time to sign out for the night. At least in this writing!
Goodnight lovelies. You all are the ones that keep me writing on here. Thanks for reading about my life.
{Grace}
I was just looking at a book {journal} that I made a couple months back & I'm reminded of just how much has changed. This journal inspired me tonight. It inspired me to be open to the idea of letting God write this next chapter of my life for me. To not be afraid of letting people in. To not be scared of letting my heart go again. {because if anyone knows me, I have a hard time not forgiving people & truly blocking them out for the rest of time.}
I'm a forgiving person, but if you're wise, you won't take advantage of that. You'll try, you'll give all you have. You'll fight.
Some people have told me I'm wrong on this, but I think that every friendship is worth fighting for. There is something in it, that you have to always give 100%. I'm not talking romantically. I'm talking about someone that when you're with just makes you light up inside. They make you joyful. --not just happy, but Joyful! There is a difference in joy & happiness.
People can come into your life & leave a mark that will forever be there & there are also people that can come in & leave without you even knowing it. I try to be the person that leaves the footprints behind. I try to make a difference & hopefully a good one at that.
I've come to realize that I believe I expect too much out of people. & for that, I've possibly lost some people in my life, but if they realized it, everyone messes up. That doesn't mean you should just give up. No, keep going, keep longing for the 'better tomorrow.' It'll be worth in the end.
Everyone needs compassion. There isn't one person in this whole world that is 'perfect.' We are all fighting our own battles. No matter if it's small or big. We're still fighting something. Every single one of us needs a love that's never failing. Compassion for others & kind words. --I was reading a quote on a website today & it said, "kind words go a long way"
I understand that things don't always stay the same, but that doesn't mean everything needs to fail. I don't believe that's the way God designed things.
----
My writing 'inspiration' is slowly dying for the night, this means it's time to sign out for the night. At least in this writing!
Goodnight lovelies. You all are the ones that keep me writing on here. Thanks for reading about my life.
{Grace}
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Turquoise.
--I know I haven't blogged in awhile, but there's so many reasons for that. Main thing, I haven't been inspired in awhile. I haven't felt that 'spark' in me to write out my heart into these letters.
Guess what though? That phase is over for the time being. I'm back. Livin' it up in my Senior Year of High School & preparing myself for the wonderful world I'll be entering in just 1 short year--college. Journalism. Writing for a living. Sharing my heart with the world. Having people get inspired by me. Publishing my first of many books. --All the joyful things I will soon be living out.
---
Life is ever-changing. Some people hope & pray for thing to stay the same. Some things have to fail so they can become better. Some things were never meant to be.
God is powerful. He knows the reasons. He knows the dreams living inside people. He knows it all.
--I'm sure I'm not making any sense. I'm just writing everything that is coming to my mind right now. & yes, sometimes it doesn't even make sense. But, I've come to realize that if you never write it, then you'll never remember it. Someday it'll all make sense. Years down the road, when you see that person again, or you see something that reminds you of a certain point in time, you'll be reminded of this moment, right here, right now. & you'll have proof that it happened because you have the beautiful writings of it.
Do yourself a favor & write everything down so that someday while your walking down the road & you see a beautiful picture or piece of art, or a girl sitting on the park bench writing her heart into her journal, you'll be reminded of the time that you wrote out your feelings & your thoughts. Put it into a song, or just keep it safe locked away in a notebook.
Whatever you do. Remember it for all it's worth because there's a reasoning for this.
--love,
me.
Guess what though? That phase is over for the time being. I'm back. Livin' it up in my Senior Year of High School & preparing myself for the wonderful world I'll be entering in just 1 short year--college. Journalism. Writing for a living. Sharing my heart with the world. Having people get inspired by me. Publishing my first of many books. --All the joyful things I will soon be living out.
---
Life is ever-changing. Some people hope & pray for thing to stay the same. Some things have to fail so they can become better. Some things were never meant to be.
God is powerful. He knows the reasons. He knows the dreams living inside people. He knows it all.
--I'm sure I'm not making any sense. I'm just writing everything that is coming to my mind right now. & yes, sometimes it doesn't even make sense. But, I've come to realize that if you never write it, then you'll never remember it. Someday it'll all make sense. Years down the road, when you see that person again, or you see something that reminds you of a certain point in time, you'll be reminded of this moment, right here, right now. & you'll have proof that it happened because you have the beautiful writings of it.
Do yourself a favor & write everything down so that someday while your walking down the road & you see a beautiful picture or piece of art, or a girl sitting on the park bench writing her heart into her journal, you'll be reminded of the time that you wrote out your feelings & your thoughts. Put it into a song, or just keep it safe locked away in a notebook.
Whatever you do. Remember it for all it's worth because there's a reasoning for this.
--love,
me.
Promises.
--Live your life by this.
Don't change for people.
The ones that truly love you will be there in the end.
Be joyful.
Be silly.
Sing outloud.
Say, 'i love you' at the wrong moment.
Make mistakes.
Ask for another chance.
Admit your wrong.
believe in change.
be yourself.
cry your eyes out.
Let your feelings show.
stop hiding.
be free.
tell the truth.
Say, 'i miss you' when you really do.
give everything you have & more.
Never give up.
--love.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
New Summer, new challenges.
The lovely people of my life,
Well it's officially! Tomorrow I leave for camp for 3 weeks....I should be home on weekends but it's going to be new ground for me. I only know 2 people going to this camp & everyone else is well...new.
It'll be an amazing experience for me & I know God wants me here. I've prayed about it, & listened for God's official "yes" & He came through & is sending me here. I'm praying that I'm a light to the children & adults I come in contact with & that my example shines through to everyone surrounding me.
I can honestly say that I didn't expect that this is where my Summer would take me...about 2 or 3 months ago my friend said I should look into going to this camp & I said, "oh yeah, sure. But I doubt I'll go." But since then I haven't been able to get this camp off my mind...I believe God is sending me here for a reason & if it's only for me to grow & become more comfortable with people I don't know, well then that's enough in itself.
But I believe this is the first step God is sending me on for what He has in store for my future...Missions. Working with children & ministering to people.
I know that God calls people to all different things...He uses us all in different ways & with whatever God is going to use me for & call me to, I'm going to listen. I'm going to follow His voice. Yes, it'll be hard at times & tiring, but I know that if God wants me in that area, He is going to make the transition as easy as possible. He is going to make it fun & exciting.
These 3 weeks are in many ways going to be life changing for me alone. I'm not very good at meeting new people, I'm more of the quiet one that stands off to the side & listens more than giving my input. I'm timid & shy.
But, that's me & I'm not ashamed of it. God made me this way & yes it may be harder for me to make friends & join in on a conversation but with time I become more comfortable....God has a plan for everyone & with time God will help me come out of my comfort zone.
I'm super excited for these next 3 weeks! God is going to teach me a lot, & hopefully work through me to the children. I pray I'm an example & the girls that are in my cabin adore me. I just have to trust God in this area of my life....
So, as you all have probably figured out, I'll be signing off my blog for 3 weeks...not that I've been writing a lot lately anyways. A lot has been going on in my life & it's just personal. But, I'll write more when I return home & let you all know how God moved at this camp & all He did =)
Be praying for me...in many areas.
=)
.Princess in Waiting.
Well it's officially! Tomorrow I leave for camp for 3 weeks....I should be home on weekends but it's going to be new ground for me. I only know 2 people going to this camp & everyone else is well...new.
It'll be an amazing experience for me & I know God wants me here. I've prayed about it, & listened for God's official "yes" & He came through & is sending me here. I'm praying that I'm a light to the children & adults I come in contact with & that my example shines through to everyone surrounding me.
I can honestly say that I didn't expect that this is where my Summer would take me...about 2 or 3 months ago my friend said I should look into going to this camp & I said, "oh yeah, sure. But I doubt I'll go." But since then I haven't been able to get this camp off my mind...I believe God is sending me here for a reason & if it's only for me to grow & become more comfortable with people I don't know, well then that's enough in itself.
But I believe this is the first step God is sending me on for what He has in store for my future...Missions. Working with children & ministering to people.
I know that God calls people to all different things...He uses us all in different ways & with whatever God is going to use me for & call me to, I'm going to listen. I'm going to follow His voice. Yes, it'll be hard at times & tiring, but I know that if God wants me in that area, He is going to make the transition as easy as possible. He is going to make it fun & exciting.
These 3 weeks are in many ways going to be life changing for me alone. I'm not very good at meeting new people, I'm more of the quiet one that stands off to the side & listens more than giving my input. I'm timid & shy.
But, that's me & I'm not ashamed of it. God made me this way & yes it may be harder for me to make friends & join in on a conversation but with time I become more comfortable....God has a plan for everyone & with time God will help me come out of my comfort zone.
I'm super excited for these next 3 weeks! God is going to teach me a lot, & hopefully work through me to the children. I pray I'm an example & the girls that are in my cabin adore me. I just have to trust God in this area of my life....
So, as you all have probably figured out, I'll be signing off my blog for 3 weeks...not that I've been writing a lot lately anyways. A lot has been going on in my life & it's just personal. But, I'll write more when I return home & let you all know how God moved at this camp & all He did =)
Be praying for me...in many areas.
=)
.Princess in Waiting.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Letters.
Hello blogger world,
I know it's been a long time since I've written here, but I've been sick for over a week now & I just had my incredible 17th birthday. & now, I'm getting prepared for June to come & head off to camp for the whole month, but I know God has a lot in store for me so, I'm getting ready!
I read something today that a friend had said, & she said that the postal services are thinking about not running mail on Saturdays...what's that about?? Is everything going to be internet related before we know it? Are my children even going to know what letters by mail is? Or is that going to be really old history?
It's crazy. Letters by mail need to be written more these days..! I enjoy actually sending a card to someone & knowing it might take a couple days to get there but they'll see that I invested time into those words I wrote them.
These days there is internet, Facebook, e-mail, Twitter, texting, It's crazy. You no longer need to see much less hear that persons voice to speak to them or tell them something important. Just text it, no big deal.
WRONG. There is something so beautiful about letters, & seeing someone pour their heart into those words they have just shared with you, & you alone. It's exquisite. It's lovely.
Boy, it must sound like I'm mad...I'm not. I promise. I just want letters to become something again. Something you write to someone & place it in the mailbox & 2 or 3 days later they call you & thank you for it.
I have a box filled with letters from a friend...or should I say 'friends.' & they are beautiful. They mean more to me then a 'text' will ever mean. The words you write show your beautiful heart written through out the card. In my writings I let my heart be free to be me. I run free through out my writings & letters.
I've come to find out that something you'll begin to know about me if we're really close. I write letters...like crazy. I enjoy encouraging people & letting them know that they are loved in this world that is crazy a lot of the time. But, the people you truly love & care for, you'll make time for them. You make time to sit down & write out your thoughts into a card. You just will.
I'm a writer. I guess that's why this subject is so important to me. Never let the written word die. Don't let this world get too 'high tech' for us. Something's just shouldn't change.
--I know it's been awhile since I've written on here, & I'm sorry for that. But, I hope to write more here soon. When I start to feel better I'll write. I'm feeling it's time for another one of my 'lists.' :)
Goodnight beautiful world.
--here's a quote for you--
"If you miss me … you can't text, you can't e-mail, you can't post it on my [Facebook] wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me."
-Ashton Kutcher
.Princess in Waiting.
I know it's been a long time since I've written here, but I've been sick for over a week now & I just had my incredible 17th birthday. & now, I'm getting prepared for June to come & head off to camp for the whole month, but I know God has a lot in store for me so, I'm getting ready!
I read something today that a friend had said, & she said that the postal services are thinking about not running mail on Saturdays...what's that about?? Is everything going to be internet related before we know it? Are my children even going to know what letters by mail is? Or is that going to be really old history?
It's crazy. Letters by mail need to be written more these days..! I enjoy actually sending a card to someone & knowing it might take a couple days to get there but they'll see that I invested time into those words I wrote them.
These days there is internet, Facebook, e-mail, Twitter, texting, It's crazy. You no longer need to see much less hear that persons voice to speak to them or tell them something important. Just text it, no big deal.
WRONG. There is something so beautiful about letters, & seeing someone pour their heart into those words they have just shared with you, & you alone. It's exquisite. It's lovely.
Boy, it must sound like I'm mad...I'm not. I promise. I just want letters to become something again. Something you write to someone & place it in the mailbox & 2 or 3 days later they call you & thank you for it.
I have a box filled with letters from a friend...or should I say 'friends.' & they are beautiful. They mean more to me then a 'text' will ever mean. The words you write show your beautiful heart written through out the card. In my writings I let my heart be free to be me. I run free through out my writings & letters.
I've come to find out that something you'll begin to know about me if we're really close. I write letters...like crazy. I enjoy encouraging people & letting them know that they are loved in this world that is crazy a lot of the time. But, the people you truly love & care for, you'll make time for them. You make time to sit down & write out your thoughts into a card. You just will.
I'm a writer. I guess that's why this subject is so important to me. Never let the written word die. Don't let this world get too 'high tech' for us. Something's just shouldn't change.
--I know it's been awhile since I've written on here, & I'm sorry for that. But, I hope to write more here soon. When I start to feel better I'll write. I'm feeling it's time for another one of my 'lists.' :)
Goodnight beautiful world.
--here's a quote for you--
"If you miss me … you can't text, you can't e-mail, you can't post it on my [Facebook] wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me."
-Ashton Kutcher
.Princess in Waiting.
Has texting killed Romance?
Saw this article by Ashton Kutcher---I'd have to agree. You say so much more through texts then you would actually say to someones face. Romantically or non romantically.
---->ASHTON KUTCHER asks, in an Internet era, are we losing our ability to really Communicate?
I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman, "If you miss me … you can't text, you can't e-mail, you can't post it on my [Facebook] wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me." I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, e-mailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?
It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. "Hello?" Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.
Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. "It was NICE meeting u." Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: "He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?" Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.
Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what's it really good for?
There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it's safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that's not male behavior, I don't know what is. It's also great for passing notes. There is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. Think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover's ear.
Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it's no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn't like to be publicly adored? Just remember that what you post is out there and there's some stuff you can't unsee.
But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There's no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.
We haven't lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a handwritten letter is greater than ever. It's personal and deliberate and means more than an e-mail or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it's flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It's the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say, "This is me, and I'm interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more important, all that I am not."
---->ASHTON KUTCHER asks, in an Internet era, are we losing our ability to really Communicate?
I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman, "If you miss me … you can't text, you can't e-mail, you can't post it on my [Facebook] wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me." I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, e-mailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?
It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. "Hello?" Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.
Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. "It was NICE meeting u." Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: "He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?" Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.
Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what's it really good for?
There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it's safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that's not male behavior, I don't know what is. It's also great for passing notes. There is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. Think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover's ear.
Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it's no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn't like to be publicly adored? Just remember that what you post is out there and there's some stuff you can't unsee.
But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There's no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.
We haven't lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a handwritten letter is greater than ever. It's personal and deliberate and means more than an e-mail or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it's flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It's the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say, "This is me, and I'm interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more important, all that I am not."
Thursday, April 28, 2011
little breaking heart.
Hello,
Tonight I sit here, getting to the point of tears because of the obstacles I've had to face in the past couple months...Remembering it all, but at the same time not wanting to. The thing is though, I can't get myself to think of something else, something happier. I'm just sitting here dwelling on it all. There are days I let myself do that. I let myself dwell in my sadness.
I feel nothing can make me happy right now. Nothing can bring me 'joy.' So, I'm sitting here pushing the people I love aside, because I don't want them to see the tears. I don't want them to comfort me, I don't want to be 'cheered up' tonight. I just want to sit & feel my Father God close by.
I want to remember every memory. Every tear. Every challenge that has led up to this day. Everything is running through my mind tonight.
Fear.
I live in that daily. It's not something I like to admit but I do.
----
For the past two days I've been going through all my old CD's & I've found all the Christian music I use to play in my room daily...So, I've downloaded it all to my itunes now & I've been rocking out to (as I would call it) old school music. The music that I use to listen to & right away I'd feel God right by my side. I'm trying deeply to find that place again. That comforting place where it's just me & Him.
I've longed for friendships for the longest time but just recently I've realized that my best friend is found in my Heavenly Daddy. He never leaves me nor forsakes me. He believes in my crazy dreams & is running this race with me. There is never a time that He's had enough of me messing up that He's given up on me. We never get in fights & stop talking for days at a time. No, He's always with me. Walking hand & hand. There are MANY days I just needed to be reminded of this love. Of HIS love.
Yes, tonight my heart is breaking. I'm not going to hide it. But, I'm not going into detail because well, that's between me & God.
You never need to know the prayer to pray for someone.
Because God knows the prayer. God knows the reason for every tear that falls from your eyes & if you'll let Him, He wants to be the one to wipe them away. He knows every obstacles you've faced & are going to face in the future. He knows it all. He knows every hair on your beautiful head. EVERYTHING.
I'm looking ahead to what the next couple months will hold for me & I'm freaking out a bit but I know God holds the best for me in His hands. I have to put my trust in Him. To be honest though, there are days that are hard to just simply put all my trust in Him & move on with my day. I'm a girl that likes to take matters into her own hands. I'm learning though....slowly.
Well, this is all I've got to say for tonight. God holds my breaking heart tonight.
.Princess in Waiting.
Tonight I sit here, getting to the point of tears because of the obstacles I've had to face in the past couple months...Remembering it all, but at the same time not wanting to. The thing is though, I can't get myself to think of something else, something happier. I'm just sitting here dwelling on it all. There are days I let myself do that. I let myself dwell in my sadness.
I feel nothing can make me happy right now. Nothing can bring me 'joy.' So, I'm sitting here pushing the people I love aside, because I don't want them to see the tears. I don't want them to comfort me, I don't want to be 'cheered up' tonight. I just want to sit & feel my Father God close by.
I want to remember every memory. Every tear. Every challenge that has led up to this day. Everything is running through my mind tonight.
Fear.
I live in that daily. It's not something I like to admit but I do.
----
For the past two days I've been going through all my old CD's & I've found all the Christian music I use to play in my room daily...So, I've downloaded it all to my itunes now & I've been rocking out to (as I would call it) old school music. The music that I use to listen to & right away I'd feel God right by my side. I'm trying deeply to find that place again. That comforting place where it's just me & Him.
I've longed for friendships for the longest time but just recently I've realized that my best friend is found in my Heavenly Daddy. He never leaves me nor forsakes me. He believes in my crazy dreams & is running this race with me. There is never a time that He's had enough of me messing up that He's given up on me. We never get in fights & stop talking for days at a time. No, He's always with me. Walking hand & hand. There are MANY days I just needed to be reminded of this love. Of HIS love.
Yes, tonight my heart is breaking. I'm not going to hide it. But, I'm not going into detail because well, that's between me & God.
You never need to know the prayer to pray for someone.
Because God knows the prayer. God knows the reason for every tear that falls from your eyes & if you'll let Him, He wants to be the one to wipe them away. He knows every obstacles you've faced & are going to face in the future. He knows it all. He knows every hair on your beautiful head. EVERYTHING.
I'm looking ahead to what the next couple months will hold for me & I'm freaking out a bit but I know God holds the best for me in His hands. I have to put my trust in Him. To be honest though, there are days that are hard to just simply put all my trust in Him & move on with my day. I'm a girl that likes to take matters into her own hands. I'm learning though....slowly.
Well, this is all I've got to say for tonight. God holds my breaking heart tonight.
.Princess in Waiting.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Happy Easter.....from the couch.
Hello all you beautiful people out there,
Well this week has been an....eventful week I guess you'd say.
Tuesday I went in for x-rays for my wisdom teeth--
Thursday I went in for the oral exam & to talk to the doctor that would be doing the surgery...expecting that within a month I would go back in for my surgery. Well come to find out they had an opening on Friday (the next day) so....I took that day.
So, here I sit...blogging because a friend of mine told me I should tell you all just how PAINFUL it is to have teeth yanked out of your mouth. It's Sunday night & I'm still in a lot of pain.
At least they put you to sleep while doing the surgery. Afterwords though I was in a lot of pain & still am.
....Not really sure what to write. Make sure you have LOTS of movies & loving friends that will come visit you. Along with a dry erase board. Although having people cater to you is the perk of it all. :) I've enjoyed that part.
Don't listen to your friends when they say it won't hurt. I believe it's different for every person, my sister looked like a chipmunk I didn't swell barely at all. I am in a lot of pain though...still.
Yes, this is boring I know.....Just some advice from me, Grace on when you have to have your Wisdom Teeth taken out. Oh! Enjoy eating Pizza & all that yummy stuff before having to jump to just soup for days... :)
I'm glad it's over though. It's been a fun couple days on the couch I guess you'd say.
=)
Goodbye for now my peeps.
OH! Happy Easter:)
.Princess in Waiting.
Well this week has been an....eventful week I guess you'd say.
Tuesday I went in for x-rays for my wisdom teeth--
Thursday I went in for the oral exam & to talk to the doctor that would be doing the surgery...expecting that within a month I would go back in for my surgery. Well come to find out they had an opening on Friday (the next day) so....I took that day.
So, here I sit...blogging because a friend of mine told me I should tell you all just how PAINFUL it is to have teeth yanked out of your mouth. It's Sunday night & I'm still in a lot of pain.
At least they put you to sleep while doing the surgery. Afterwords though I was in a lot of pain & still am.
....Not really sure what to write. Make sure you have LOTS of movies & loving friends that will come visit you. Along with a dry erase board. Although having people cater to you is the perk of it all. :) I've enjoyed that part.
Don't listen to your friends when they say it won't hurt. I believe it's different for every person, my sister looked like a chipmunk I didn't swell barely at all. I am in a lot of pain though...still.
Yes, this is boring I know.....Just some advice from me, Grace on when you have to have your Wisdom Teeth taken out. Oh! Enjoy eating Pizza & all that yummy stuff before having to jump to just soup for days... :)
I'm glad it's over though. It's been a fun couple days on the couch I guess you'd say.
=)
Goodbye for now my peeps.
OH! Happy Easter:)
.Princess in Waiting.
Free.
I try to live my life with no regrets. I want to be free to love & be loved. To run free through out the streets with the boy I love. To explore every piece of this beautiful world God has created for us to see. I want to not be scared of what will come next because I have the knowledge that my God is greater & stronger than anyone or anything.
He is all knowing.
I want to be free. I want to spend a Summer journaling, & drinking coffee & walking the streets of my little small exquisite town.
I want to be free to be exactly who I was created to be.
.Princess in Waiting.
Friday, April 1, 2011
masterpiece.
This is not fake. This is true beauty shown through the eyes of God.
I stood right there and took this picture.
I captured God's exquisite beauty....I at least tried.
Standing there seemed like the world was at peace for that short moment.
I'm amazed at the masterpieces God creates.
He's wonder.
He's lovely.
He's my incredible Daddy God.
=)
.Princess in Waiting.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Loved.
"I hope that someday you let your heart be free, to love and be loved, to hurt and to heal, to dream and to remember, to believe and forgive, to make promises and to keep them."
-Grace.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Matthew.
"Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother or sister has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to that person, then come and offer your gift."
Matthew 5:23-24
---The love of God works through His own written word.
I believe this is one of the most exquisite ways He speaks to us.
.Princess in Waiting.
Matthew 5:23-24
---The love of God works through His own written word.
I believe this is one of the most exquisite ways He speaks to us.
.Princess in Waiting.
Grace.
The first Sunrise I've ever seen, and it was spent alone with my Heavenly Daddy.
This picture doesn't even come close to the beauty of it. It's a moment where you had to be there to capture the true loveliness of it.
It was incredible.
It was beautiful.
It was exquisite.
It was lovely.
The peace and wonder you feel when it's just you and Him on a boat in the middle of the Ocean.
Grace may be my middle name but it's also something my Heavenly Daddy gives to me everyday.
He clothes me in beauty.
He clothes me in forgiveness.
He clothes me in Grace.
.Princess in Waiting.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Wonder.
I may not be a cowgirl, and I may not know how to milk a cow.
I have the knowledge though that I am loved.
I am beautiful, and I live in a small town where pretty much everyone knows everyone.
That's us though. We're different, we're lovely.
We're also not hicks.
This beautiful place is not my home town, but I consider it home because I've grown up here.
I've found happiness lingering deep inside my heart.
I've found brokenness.
I've found love from my Heavenly Daddy. That love is like nothing I've ever felt before.
I've found my dreams, and I'm not going to let anyone stop me from living them.
I've found beauty.
I've found wonder.
I've found someone I hope to be...someday.
I've found me.
.Princess in Waiting.
Eternal Life.
I always try to come up with something "witty" to say right in the beginning of my blog, but all I've got tonight is....Hey.
Tonight I've been thinking a lot on "Eternal Life" and where that'll take us. I know one thing....I WANT more than anything to spend my Eternal Life with my amazing Heavenly Daddy walking in field of Grace.
I want to know that my Eternity is going to be spent dancing and rejoicing with Him....Not everyone can have that amazing knowledge of knowing that they will forever be with the one that created us ALL.
I want to live this life for Him. For Him alone. For the one that has great plans for MY life. The one that knows every hair that is on my head.
--I was asking my sister last night how our finger nails and toe nails constantly grow. Where the nail comes from? And how our hair just knows to grow, and same with eyebrows and eyelashes. You know what? Our God has designed ALL of that. He is the one that makes all those 'crazy' things happen. We may not have the answers but Our God does!
I want to dance with Him. I will someday dance with my Heavenly Daddy in field of Grace! How amazing is that? I know I will. I have that assurance. I don't want to live this life for anyone other than Him.
Yes, I want to fall in-love. Yes, I want to have my own family to love. Yes, I want to publish a book. Of course I want to accomplish all these things in my lifetime, but if God has other plans for me than I am completely okay with it! I don't want to form my own 'fairytale' because that won't be something that is God designed.
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Anyways, I feel like I taking you all on a wild goose chase. Sorry.
I believe in miracles. I believe in God knowing the time and day that our lives are going to change. The second the people I love are going to come to know Our Lord and Savior. All we can do right now is pray, and pray hard. We can comfort them, and guide them. We can pray WITH them, and lead them to the one that I have the honors of calling "Daddy." We do all of this just to please My Jesus. =)
And in return we get the ETERNAL reward......spending eternity with Him!
=) I think that is a pretty great reward!
I may fail, I may mess up, I may lose sight of what is really important in life, and I may stray away from My God at times, but He is always there with loving arms waiting to welcome me right back in.
Never be afraid to call out to Him....There will never come a time that you've messed up too many times for Daddy to not forgive you. He is ALL forgiving. He is ALL loving. He is ALL caring. He is ALL powerful.
Adam and Eve sinned so now we have to live with the consequences of it, but what we do with that is our own choice....God never comes in between us and our choices til we call out to Him. Then He takes it from there...We just have to be willing to call out, and surrender ourselves to Him!
It's hard work, believe me. I'm no where near perfect. I mess up all the time, I get things wrong. I take the wrong road, and I get lost. I'm never scared to ask for My Heavenly Daddy's help though. I know He is forever with me.
=) Never live in fear that you are alone.
This is what is on my mind tonight. I hope it helped someone out in the world tonight, reading my blog. Maybe someone truly needed this tonight, and that's why I just NEEDED to write it before I got a wonderful night's sleep. There's a reason for everything!
Give back love to the one that loved us first.
.Princess in Waiting.
Tonight I've been thinking a lot on "Eternal Life" and where that'll take us. I know one thing....I WANT more than anything to spend my Eternal Life with my amazing Heavenly Daddy walking in field of Grace.
I want to know that my Eternity is going to be spent dancing and rejoicing with Him....Not everyone can have that amazing knowledge of knowing that they will forever be with the one that created us ALL.
I want to live this life for Him. For Him alone. For the one that has great plans for MY life. The one that knows every hair that is on my head.
--I was asking my sister last night how our finger nails and toe nails constantly grow. Where the nail comes from? And how our hair just knows to grow, and same with eyebrows and eyelashes. You know what? Our God has designed ALL of that. He is the one that makes all those 'crazy' things happen. We may not have the answers but Our God does!
I want to dance with Him. I will someday dance with my Heavenly Daddy in field of Grace! How amazing is that? I know I will. I have that assurance. I don't want to live this life for anyone other than Him.
Yes, I want to fall in-love. Yes, I want to have my own family to love. Yes, I want to publish a book. Of course I want to accomplish all these things in my lifetime, but if God has other plans for me than I am completely okay with it! I don't want to form my own 'fairytale' because that won't be something that is God designed.
-----
Anyways, I feel like I taking you all on a wild goose chase. Sorry.
I believe in miracles. I believe in God knowing the time and day that our lives are going to change. The second the people I love are going to come to know Our Lord and Savior. All we can do right now is pray, and pray hard. We can comfort them, and guide them. We can pray WITH them, and lead them to the one that I have the honors of calling "Daddy." We do all of this just to please My Jesus. =)
And in return we get the ETERNAL reward......spending eternity with Him!
=) I think that is a pretty great reward!
I may fail, I may mess up, I may lose sight of what is really important in life, and I may stray away from My God at times, but He is always there with loving arms waiting to welcome me right back in.
Never be afraid to call out to Him....There will never come a time that you've messed up too many times for Daddy to not forgive you. He is ALL forgiving. He is ALL loving. He is ALL caring. He is ALL powerful.
Adam and Eve sinned so now we have to live with the consequences of it, but what we do with that is our own choice....God never comes in between us and our choices til we call out to Him. Then He takes it from there...We just have to be willing to call out, and surrender ourselves to Him!
It's hard work, believe me. I'm no where near perfect. I mess up all the time, I get things wrong. I take the wrong road, and I get lost. I'm never scared to ask for My Heavenly Daddy's help though. I know He is forever with me.
=) Never live in fear that you are alone.
This is what is on my mind tonight. I hope it helped someone out in the world tonight, reading my blog. Maybe someone truly needed this tonight, and that's why I just NEEDED to write it before I got a wonderful night's sleep. There's a reason for everything!
Give back love to the one that loved us first.
.Princess in Waiting.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
beauty.
This is me dancing in a field.
Dancing with my Heavenly Daddy in fields of Grace.
Praising the amazing God I serve.
Knowing that whatever happens in life the God that is living in me is so much bigger than I could ever fathom.
He's incredible.
He's all-knowing.
He's the one who created us all.
He's there in our darkest hour, and He sees our hurting heart...cling to the Lover of your soul.
Let Him in....and captivate your heart.
.Princess in Waiting.
I am...simply me.
I am a girl that's quirky.
I get inspired in the little details of life.
I'm beautifully made by the one who made us all.
I believe in the lost coming to know the wonderful man I have the honor of calling my Heavenly Daddy.
I love the outdoors.
I cherish the time where it's still Spring but almost Summer.
I worry too much, but it's just because I care deeply for those people.
I love surprises but at the same time hate them.
I adore little note given to me for no reason at all, except to be given because that person cares.
I'm unique.
I'm scared.
I'm special.
I like to help people through a problem more than I like to see them suffer and am not able to do anything about it.
I love to try new things.
I will do anything at least once before I say no.
I hate small spaces....claustrophobic<----that's me.
I believe in having one person outside of your family that you can tell everything to. That you can trust, and love.
I'm a fan of writing letters to people.
I want to be someone's everything.
I've come to find out that I don't give up easily..on anything that's deeply important to me. I'm very patient.
I've come to find out that it's okay to be pushed out of your comfort zone...It's how you grow.
I cry a lot.
I laugh a lot.
I miss the easy days.
I believe in that...."Someday."
I try not to regret anything in my life. Everything I've done makes me who I am today.
I use to be scared to trust...I still am.
There are days I wish I could go back to my childhood...Crawling up in Momma and Daddy's bed. Seemed so much easier than life now.
This coming Summer...I'm going to make it a Summer to remember.
I just bought a Lime Green VW bug:)
I don't do hand shakes. I do hugs.
I journal...everything.
I will someday learn to play Guitar.
I will someday ride on the back of a Motorcycle.
I give 2nd chances when asked....I don't give up, I just hope for a change.
I try to see the potential in everyone.
I have way too many shoes in my closet.
I'm learning to drive stick shift...a lot harder than I thought it would be.
I like people that keep promises.
I will not change for a guy. ever. Like me for who I am from the start. No one is perfect, and you learn to love the flaws of someone.
When I write a card to someone...I fill up the whole card. :)
I've had my permit for almost 2 years now...and I still don't know how to drive.
I believe in letting your heart be free to love.
Songs inspire me.
I love planning Birthdays.
I hold onto memories too much it seems.
Someday I want to just drive, with my windows down and no planned destination.
I want to dance in the middle of main street late at night.
I will publish a book someday.
Inner beauty is more important to me than outer beauty.
I don't need to be everything to everyone, but I hope to someday be something to someone.
---
This is who I am.
I'm not perfect.
I'm not someone's everything yet.
I'm not the Cheerleader on the Football team.
I'm not crowned most beautiful of my town.
I don't always get things right, but I'm strong enough to fight and not give up.
I pray for the better in people.
I pray for healing.
I'm not the kind of girl you'd find repelling off a giant cliff.
I'm not the kind of girl that likes playing Video Games all the time.
I'm not the kind of girl that forgets either. I remember everything, I remember dates. I remember the moments that take my breath away, and I remember the days that I stepped out of my comfort zone....and tried new things.
I may not the "typical girl" you see everyday, but I'm simply me. Someone that enjoys life, and doesn't believe in giving up on something that's important to her.
I'm different, and if you don't like me for who I am, well I'm sorry.
I try to make friends not enemies.
I love my tiny town, and maybe someday I'll venture out to something bigger, but for right now this is where I call my home.
.Princess in Waiting.
I get inspired in the little details of life.
I'm beautifully made by the one who made us all.
I believe in the lost coming to know the wonderful man I have the honor of calling my Heavenly Daddy.
I love the outdoors.
I cherish the time where it's still Spring but almost Summer.
I worry too much, but it's just because I care deeply for those people.
I love surprises but at the same time hate them.
I adore little note given to me for no reason at all, except to be given because that person cares.
I'm unique.
I'm scared.
I'm special.
I like to help people through a problem more than I like to see them suffer and am not able to do anything about it.
I love to try new things.
I will do anything at least once before I say no.
I hate small spaces....claustrophobic<----that's me.
I believe in having one person outside of your family that you can tell everything to. That you can trust, and love.
I'm a fan of writing letters to people.
I want to be someone's everything.
I've come to find out that I don't give up easily..on anything that's deeply important to me. I'm very patient.
I've come to find out that it's okay to be pushed out of your comfort zone...It's how you grow.
I cry a lot.
I laugh a lot.
I miss the easy days.
I believe in that...."Someday."
I try not to regret anything in my life. Everything I've done makes me who I am today.
I use to be scared to trust...I still am.
There are days I wish I could go back to my childhood...Crawling up in Momma and Daddy's bed. Seemed so much easier than life now.
This coming Summer...I'm going to make it a Summer to remember.
I just bought a Lime Green VW bug:)
I don't do hand shakes. I do hugs.
I journal...everything.
I will someday learn to play Guitar.
I will someday ride on the back of a Motorcycle.
I give 2nd chances when asked....I don't give up, I just hope for a change.
I try to see the potential in everyone.
I have way too many shoes in my closet.
I'm learning to drive stick shift...a lot harder than I thought it would be.
I like people that keep promises.
I will not change for a guy. ever. Like me for who I am from the start. No one is perfect, and you learn to love the flaws of someone.
When I write a card to someone...I fill up the whole card. :)
I've had my permit for almost 2 years now...and I still don't know how to drive.
I believe in letting your heart be free to love.
Songs inspire me.
I love planning Birthdays.
I hold onto memories too much it seems.
Someday I want to just drive, with my windows down and no planned destination.
I want to dance in the middle of main street late at night.
I will publish a book someday.
Inner beauty is more important to me than outer beauty.
I don't need to be everything to everyone, but I hope to someday be something to someone.
---
This is who I am.
I'm not perfect.
I'm not someone's everything yet.
I'm not the Cheerleader on the Football team.
I'm not crowned most beautiful of my town.
I don't always get things right, but I'm strong enough to fight and not give up.
I pray for the better in people.
I pray for healing.
I'm not the kind of girl you'd find repelling off a giant cliff.
I'm not the kind of girl that likes playing Video Games all the time.
I'm not the kind of girl that forgets either. I remember everything, I remember dates. I remember the moments that take my breath away, and I remember the days that I stepped out of my comfort zone....and tried new things.
I may not the "typical girl" you see everyday, but I'm simply me. Someone that enjoys life, and doesn't believe in giving up on something that's important to her.
I'm different, and if you don't like me for who I am, well I'm sorry.
I try to make friends not enemies.
I love my tiny town, and maybe someday I'll venture out to something bigger, but for right now this is where I call my home.
.Princess in Waiting.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Spring day quote.
I came upon this quote today, and it brought a little happiness to my day.
=)
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
-Unknown.
.Princess in Waiting.
=)
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
-Unknown.
.Princess in Waiting.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
The God that in living in me.
My sister said something the other day that really caught my eye.
"Well men alone is not great, but we serve a great God, and with a great God in us, then we kinda become great." -CK
My God is great. He is powerful, and I believe He is capable of transforming anything into something great.
He is the ruler of us all, weather you want to accept that or not... well that's between you and our Heavenly Daddy.
My life's been taking some turns lately. I'm growing up, my sisters are moving out. I'm entering the real world of beginning to do dual enrollment at college. It's tough.
One thing I know though is, my God knows every road I'm going to venture out on in my lifetime. He went before and paved the road for me. He knows the desires of my heart, and how much I long for a best friend. He longs to fulfill those desires for me.
My God is Faithful til the end. He is incredible. He is all knowing.
In life you have to have patience. You have to be willing to take life at God's pace, and not your own. As much as I long to have a boy rap me in his arms, and tell me that he'll never leave me. Well right now that's just a far off dream.
You know how you feel sometimes that people don't take you seriously because you're "young" to them...Well open your eyes people. You have no clue what us young people go through, daily. We struggle. We experience the nights of feeling that God isn't as close as we may want Him to be. We face bumps in the road and we see our families go through heartache. We see it too. We're hurting also.
And let's face it. We're not young anymore. We're growing up, and having to face reality. It's hard. It's challenging. It's witty, and adventurous. It's exquisite.
It's also very rewarding. I'm still on the journey, but I've met people that have traveled the road alone, and are now with their everlasting love. The one God had designed for them, and them alone.
Well---I believe I'm going to say one last thing, and then I'm signing out for the night.
Believe in the power of our God. Believe in Him, and always run to the one that loved us first.
Also, cherish the people you love right now. Don't take life for granted because in the blink of an eye. They'll be driving towards college and it may never be the same. Remember the here and now. Remember the memories. Remember their smile. Remember the laughter, in the time of tears. Remember them.
Goodnight lovelies.
.Princess in Waiting.
"Well men alone is not great, but we serve a great God, and with a great God in us, then we kinda become great." -CK
My God is great. He is powerful, and I believe He is capable of transforming anything into something great.
He is the ruler of us all, weather you want to accept that or not... well that's between you and our Heavenly Daddy.
My life's been taking some turns lately. I'm growing up, my sisters are moving out. I'm entering the real world of beginning to do dual enrollment at college. It's tough.
One thing I know though is, my God knows every road I'm going to venture out on in my lifetime. He went before and paved the road for me. He knows the desires of my heart, and how much I long for a best friend. He longs to fulfill those desires for me.
My God is Faithful til the end. He is incredible. He is all knowing.
In life you have to have patience. You have to be willing to take life at God's pace, and not your own. As much as I long to have a boy rap me in his arms, and tell me that he'll never leave me. Well right now that's just a far off dream.
You know how you feel sometimes that people don't take you seriously because you're "young" to them...Well open your eyes people. You have no clue what us young people go through, daily. We struggle. We experience the nights of feeling that God isn't as close as we may want Him to be. We face bumps in the road and we see our families go through heartache. We see it too. We're hurting also.
And let's face it. We're not young anymore. We're growing up, and having to face reality. It's hard. It's challenging. It's witty, and adventurous. It's exquisite.
It's also very rewarding. I'm still on the journey, but I've met people that have traveled the road alone, and are now with their everlasting love. The one God had designed for them, and them alone.
Well---I believe I'm going to say one last thing, and then I'm signing out for the night.
Believe in the power of our God. Believe in Him, and always run to the one that loved us first.
Also, cherish the people you love right now. Don't take life for granted because in the blink of an eye. They'll be driving towards college and it may never be the same. Remember the here and now. Remember the memories. Remember their smile. Remember the laughter, in the time of tears. Remember them.
Goodnight lovelies.
.Princess in Waiting.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
I may look old, but I'm still very young.
Hello,
It's been awhile since I've shared anything...I know. I fail to give you all my attention often. Sorry for that.
Well, I've been working a lot. I need a car, and so I'm saving every penny I find.
The main thing that's been on my mind lately is....Can anyone guess?!
COLLEGE.
I'm scared. College is coming so quickly. I graduate soon. Yes, I know I still have over a year, but I feel like I'm behind the normal people that are my age, and they already know where they are going and what they want to do with their life, and I'm sitting here not knowing what I'm even going to do tomorrow. It's hard. But I know one thing....God doesn't plan everyone's life the same. He has a different plan for my life than He does for my Best Friend.
I believe I know what He wants me to do, but I'm still not sure.
God is in control though, and He is always faithful. (I have to keep telling myself that.)
Well, so you all don't think I'm just completely bummed about growing up...there are exciting parts to it also! I'm starting to drive more, so before you know it I will have more freedom. I'll be getting a real job here soon, and this coming summer, well I'm venturing out on my own, without any siblings and only 1 person I know...and going to be a Counselor in Training at a Camp not far from here. Yeah, for the people that know me pretty well this is BIG news for me. I fear being alone, and I hate being pushed out of my "shell....Bubble" I've been so fond of for years.
Well, it seems I'm finally growing up. I've wanted this for years...but now, well now, I don't want to grow up. I want to stay my Momma and Daddy's baby forever.
Have to do it sometime though I guess.
Life for me has been a tough road since about last November. I've been hit with some obstacles, and I've had to get through most of them with only my Heavenly Daddy's help. Which don't get me wrong...It's great to have Him there by my side, but you know when there are times you just feel you need someone there to hold you and give you a hug, and tell you everything is going to be alright? To tell you that this is only temporary?
Yeah. It's hard, but I know God's got my back. He knows the ending of all these obstacles I've faced and I'm going to face in the future.
I'm still a kid at heart. A kid that needs lovin'. A kid that sometimes just wants to cry it out and feel in her heart that everything's going to be okay.
This journey I call life is not easy...But where would the adventure be if it were easy? It wouldn't be called a journey.
College.
Obstacles.
Tears.
Laughter.
Smiles.
Growing Up.
Leaving Home.
Saying Goodbye To Old Friends.
Trusting God.
Praying.
Experiencing New Things.
Believing In Miracles.
Believing In Change.
Holding Onto Friendships.
----
Well, I believe this is all I'm going to share for tonight. Just remember, I always share my heart, but inside it's not broken, because this time My Heavenly Daddy is healing it. I just share my thoughts with you all. And if you ever have advice, or anything you'd like to share with me...Please don't be scared. I'm open to anything :) I love you all, you all are like...I guess you'd say my fans. My loves.
You read about my life, that I personally feel is boring, but you do it anyway.
You rock for that, by the way.
=)
.Princess in Waiting.
It's been awhile since I've shared anything...I know. I fail to give you all my attention often. Sorry for that.
Well, I've been working a lot. I need a car, and so I'm saving every penny I find.
The main thing that's been on my mind lately is....Can anyone guess?!
COLLEGE.
I'm scared. College is coming so quickly. I graduate soon. Yes, I know I still have over a year, but I feel like I'm behind the normal people that are my age, and they already know where they are going and what they want to do with their life, and I'm sitting here not knowing what I'm even going to do tomorrow. It's hard. But I know one thing....God doesn't plan everyone's life the same. He has a different plan for my life than He does for my Best Friend.
I believe I know what He wants me to do, but I'm still not sure.
God is in control though, and He is always faithful. (I have to keep telling myself that.)
Well, so you all don't think I'm just completely bummed about growing up...there are exciting parts to it also! I'm starting to drive more, so before you know it I will have more freedom. I'll be getting a real job here soon, and this coming summer, well I'm venturing out on my own, without any siblings and only 1 person I know...and going to be a Counselor in Training at a Camp not far from here. Yeah, for the people that know me pretty well this is BIG news for me. I fear being alone, and I hate being pushed out of my "shell....Bubble" I've been so fond of for years.
Well, it seems I'm finally growing up. I've wanted this for years...but now, well now, I don't want to grow up. I want to stay my Momma and Daddy's baby forever.
Have to do it sometime though I guess.
Life for me has been a tough road since about last November. I've been hit with some obstacles, and I've had to get through most of them with only my Heavenly Daddy's help. Which don't get me wrong...It's great to have Him there by my side, but you know when there are times you just feel you need someone there to hold you and give you a hug, and tell you everything is going to be alright? To tell you that this is only temporary?
Yeah. It's hard, but I know God's got my back. He knows the ending of all these obstacles I've faced and I'm going to face in the future.
I'm still a kid at heart. A kid that needs lovin'. A kid that sometimes just wants to cry it out and feel in her heart that everything's going to be okay.
This journey I call life is not easy...But where would the adventure be if it were easy? It wouldn't be called a journey.
College.
Obstacles.
Tears.
Laughter.
Smiles.
Growing Up.
Leaving Home.
Saying Goodbye To Old Friends.
Trusting God.
Praying.
Experiencing New Things.
Believing In Miracles.
Believing In Change.
Holding Onto Friendships.
----
Well, I believe this is all I'm going to share for tonight. Just remember, I always share my heart, but inside it's not broken, because this time My Heavenly Daddy is healing it. I just share my thoughts with you all. And if you ever have advice, or anything you'd like to share with me...Please don't be scared. I'm open to anything :) I love you all, you all are like...I guess you'd say my fans. My loves.
You read about my life, that I personally feel is boring, but you do it anyway.
You rock for that, by the way.
=)
.Princess in Waiting.
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