I'm only a Senior once.

{I'm a Senior. In high school. 

I have been for a couple months now but,

it's officially hitting me, right now, at this moment.}

I'm having to venture out on my own & make my own choices.
I know at least one thing in my life that I'm about to be able to choose on my own.
It's hard to realize that ALL these years, leading up to this moment have passed.
I've made the choices I've made up until now.
I've met the people I was going to meet.
& I've lost the friends I was meant to for me to become who I am.
I know that when I say that people probably think, "Why do you think God would mean for you to be hurt in life & take people out of your life that you thought would be there for the day you had your first date & when you walked down the aisle to the boy you loved & when you welcomed your first child into the world?"....or as I'm thinking of right now, the day you GRADUATED from high school.
God's plan for our lives is NOT to hurt us, it's to show us just how much He loves us & to show us that no matter how many people we let walk all over us & tear us down, in the end, He is there. To catch us when we fall & to love us through it ALL.
We forget that a lot. 

As I'm sitting here tonight, looking back on the past 4 years of my high school chapter of my life, I'm reminded of all the laughter & happiness I've experienced. All the friends that stood by my side in that time & loved me through the tough days. It's meant a lot.

The sisters that have become my BEST friends.
Some people I've met are shocked that my sisters, the people I live with daily could become the people that I LOVE to spend my time with & tell everything. The friends that I tell my quirky little dreams to & believe in them with me. The friends that stick it out through thick & thin & don't just get tired & walk off. They listen. They give you their time, even if they only have very little. & they love with the best kind of love.

I feel a little bit like I'm saying 'goodbye', but in a way, I am. I'm saying 'goodbye' to a chapter in my life that has been a huge part in my book. I've grown so much in this chapter {height wise also} ;)
& I've become this girl that is still very much searching. Searching for love, kindness, happiness, randomness, quirkiness, the moments that take your breath away, instantly. & just acceptance.

{I have no idea what this next chapter will hold for me, college. Where God will lead me, who He will bring into my life, if it'll be a lovely boy or just beautiful new friends. It's magical though, to not know. To wonder what all God has written & laid out for me in this next new adventure He has for me.}

I know this has been a very long 'blog' for tonight, but I haven't written out my heart in awhile & I've honestly missed it. To be honest, my life is in these writings & in my journals.

--Well, just because I'm a Senior in high school doesn't mean I don't have to be up early like everyone else, so I'm going to say 'goodnight.'

Sleep well lovelies.
.Princess in Waiting.