Hello,
It's been awhile since I've shared anything...I know. I fail to give you all my attention often. Sorry for that.
Well, I've been working a lot. I need a car, and so I'm saving every penny I find.
The main thing that's been on my mind lately is....Can anyone guess?!
COLLEGE.
I'm scared. College is coming so quickly. I graduate soon. Yes, I know I still have over a year, but I feel like I'm behind the normal people that are my age, and they already know where they are going and what they want to do with their life, and I'm sitting here not knowing what I'm even going to do tomorrow. It's hard. But I know one thing....God doesn't plan everyone's life the same. He has a different plan for my life than He does for my Best Friend.
I believe I know what He wants me to do, but I'm still not sure.
God is in control though, and He is always faithful. (I have to keep telling myself that.)
Well, so you all don't think I'm just completely bummed about growing up...there are exciting parts to it also! I'm starting to drive more, so before you know it I will have more freedom. I'll be getting a real job here soon, and this coming summer, well I'm venturing out on my own, without any siblings and only 1 person I know...and going to be a Counselor in Training at a Camp not far from here. Yeah, for the people that know me pretty well this is BIG news for me. I fear being alone, and I hate being pushed out of my "shell....Bubble" I've been so fond of for years.
Well, it seems I'm finally growing up. I've wanted this for years...but now, well now, I don't want to grow up. I want to stay my Momma and Daddy's baby forever.
Have to do it sometime though I guess.
Life for me has been a tough road since about last November. I've been hit with some obstacles, and I've had to get through most of them with only my Heavenly Daddy's help. Which don't get me wrong...It's great to have Him there by my side, but you know when there are times you just feel you need someone there to hold you and give you a hug, and tell you everything is going to be alright? To tell you that this is only temporary?
Yeah. It's hard, but I know God's got my back. He knows the ending of all these obstacles I've faced and I'm going to face in the future.
I'm still a kid at heart. A kid that needs lovin'. A kid that sometimes just wants to cry it out and feel in her heart that everything's going to be okay.
This journey I call life is not easy...But where would the adventure be if it were easy? It wouldn't be called a journey.
College.
Obstacles.
Tears.
Laughter.
Smiles.
Growing Up.
Leaving Home.
Saying Goodbye To Old Friends.
Trusting God.
Praying.
Experiencing New Things.
Believing In Miracles.
Believing In Change.
Holding Onto Friendships.
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Well, I believe this is all I'm going to share for tonight. Just remember, I always share my heart, but inside it's not broken, because this time My Heavenly Daddy is healing it. I just share my thoughts with you all. And if you ever have advice, or anything you'd like to share with me...Please don't be scared. I'm open to anything :) I love you all, you all are like...I guess you'd say my fans. My loves.
You read about my life, that I personally feel is boring, but you do it anyway.
You rock for that, by the way.
=)
.Princess in Waiting.
I know how you feel, Roomie. I felt the same way about college too. I was so stinking scared about leaving home and my friends. I knew what I wanted to do, but I didn't know where God wanted me to go. But I can tell you that God is a God who will lead you in the direction He wants you to go, if you just hold onto his hand and follow Him. He led me to Bryan, and it's been an amazing ride. Yes, it's had its ups and downs, but believe me when I say that college will definitely be some of the best years of my life, and I think it will be that way for you too. :) And God helped me overcome my fears by bringing me such great friends, and He will provide you with loving and caring friends as well. Keep leaning on our Heavenly Daddy, and He will lead you in the right path. If you ever need to talk, you know my number. ^_^ Love ya, Hannah!
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