God is in Control.

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. One is the fact that I haven't written a blog in a while so here it goes! :)

Something else I've been thinking about is the fact that my love is not coming into my life for awhile. And I'll be honest, that's hard to think about because everyone of my siblings has someone right now...and I'm just waiting--I seem to be waiting a lot lately. ;)

I'm sure there are people out there wishing they had someone to call up right now, and just simply talk to, or someone they could hold hands with. Is there anyone out there that is feeling the same way as me? I'm sure there is. I've been missing my love a lot lately. The last couple nights there has been a full moon, and I'm not talking just a simple full moon, I'm talking about the kind of moon you could look at for hours on end, because it lights up everything! It's been so beautiful, and I wish I could share it with someone.

I've been missing someone who is really special in my life for a while now. But it's a different kind of missing, it's the kind where you wish life would just work out the way you wanted it to, but it doesn't because God has different plans for you. That's where the waiting comes in, and where you give it all to God, and see what He does with it.

Okay so I know I'm probably all over the place in this blog, but I have a lot on my mind, but I'll try to sum it all up. -God knows my future. He knows the desires of my heart. He's knows everything! Yes I'm missing the one I've yet to meet, but I know that it's not God's time right now, and whenever I'm sad because I'm the only one without someone special, I just think about what my life will be like when I do have someone and I try to live in the here and now, and try not to dwell on it too much. God knows when I'm sad, but He also knows what my life is going to be like in a couple years time :) I have to be willing to give EVERYTHING to God, and just lean on Him, and let Him be my Prince for right now!

Now, about the person who is special to me, that I'm missing...I won't go too much into detail, but it's just the whole waiting journey. I wish at times I could plan my future, but I know that if I did, I would end up in a huge mess, and I would be crying out to the Lord, to come fix my problem. So I'm just going to give this part of my life to God, and see where He takes me! If He wants this for me, He will make it work, but it's all in His hands now. He knows what's best for me, and honestly I can't do it on my own...believe me, I've tried to go alone in the part of my life, but I just can't. I'm not strong enough, and I need my Jesus' help REALLY bad.

I remember the other night, I was worry about a challenge God has put in front of me about 2 1/2 months ago...I've had problems with my jaw, and I've been in a lot of pain, well I got an MRI last Wednesday, and I get the results tomorrow, well I'm scared about what the results will be. Anyways, the other night, I was looking at one of God's beauties...the full moon, and I was crying and I told God..."God I just can't do this, what if this is something really bad? What if I can't handle what the results will be?" Well that is when God took me in His arms and held me while I just cried out to Him...I'll be honest there is someone I wanted to call, and have THEM comfort me, but I knew I needed time with my Jesus! That is the night He let me know that everything lays in His hands, and if He gives me a challenge He KNOWS I will be able to make it through :) I just have to trust Him. And believe me...I'm TRUSTING in HIM! :)

-In everything I've written, my main thing to all this is God is in control! He knows the end result, so please, please just give it all to Him, and let Him write your ending :)

.Princess in Waiting.