It's written in the sky.

{You thought your words could hurt me once again & I would just stand back & be a sounding board for your emotions, but this time I walked.}

I did the only thing I knew in my power I could do. I'll no longer be your ear to listen when you need a friend, or the person you run to when the rest of the world is failing you. I won't look you in the eyes anymore & see the boy I once knew. --I won't be the encourager you need on the nights when you feel yourself giving up. I can't be anything for you anymore. My time has come & now it's gone.

My willingness & drive to be that constant for you is now a faded memory & desire. I've shed enough tears over you & your wild trail of emotions you've sent me on in the past 3 years, that I don't desire to be in this book anymore. I thought I did, I thought my time wasn't up here, but there are tiny moments in time that show you a glimpse of the future & what is ahead for you & I didn't like what I saw. I saw a future where I always sat on the sidelines waiting for it to be my turn instead of someone waiting for me for once & desiring me. I saw fear.

My mind will always linger on the words never said, but I will no longer let my heart reminisce on the past, because the past will only ever be a vivid memory of who I once was.

I'm not her anymore. She let her heart fall into something that was never there to begin with, she let her mind drift far too far into the future of things promised but never kept, of dates never planned & time never spent.

I don't want your promises or your words anymore, all I want is a goodbye. One last & final goodbye.

{I should have looked deeper within the outer appearance & realized that the answer was written in the sky all along.}

The writer.