Ready for the flowers to bloom.

Busy Saturday.

Time is flying by it seems, but the nasty snowy weather doesn't seem to want to leave. Ugh. I'm ready for the flowers to start blooming, and the lawn mowers to start coming out, because that means I get to smell my most favorite smell....Freshly cut grass.

...It seriously is my favorite smell.

Anyways, I'm ready for Spring because I'm not too fond of this snow. As you all can see I've now changed my background. I'm tired of having to look at snow every where I go it seems. So it's gone. It'll come back...Next Winter.

I'm sitting here on a Saturday night thinking of what I'm going to do, and I do believe I'm going to clean my room. Oddly, I love to clean my room. I don't know anyone but me that likes to clean there room as much as I do. It makes me happy though. So that is what my Saturday night is going to consist of.
=)

So, I've been thinking lately that I want to have a trademark. Something that when someone sees something they think immediately of me. I'm going to try to find out what my trademark is. I'll keep you updated!

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Spring, oh I do so love you. I believe you and Fall are my favorite times of the year. Beautiful weather...not too hot, not too cold. Perfect for an "always changing how I feel kind of girl" like me.

Well, here is a quote I came across today, and this will be me signing out for the evening.

"I love you much most beautiful darling, more than anyone on the earth, and I like you better than everything in the sky."
-E.E. Cummings.

Have a lovely Saturday night.

.Princess in Waiting.

The Blueberry on the Apple tree.

...I'm staring at a blank page, so then, what do I write?

I have no clue. For once I don't know how to form my thoughts into words. I don't know how to write what I'm thinking. That's a first for me. Normally I'm so good at getting my thoughts to paper...Not this time. This time I'm lost for words. I'm desperately yearning for God's help.

Well, I'm going to try to form it into words. I'm going to try to write.

As you've all most likely read, if you've been following me from the first writing. Than you all know that I'm a small town girl, I love to write. I'm very quiet. I don't like to be center of attention. I'm very excited about the day I fall in-love. I'm a bit scared of that day also, but I'm trying to wait patiently for that day.

I adore my family, and I try to make as many friends as I can in this crazy life of mine. I want to make a difference, and the only way I feel I can make a difference is to reach out to people. I want to travel this world, and explore God's beauty. I want to go on a Missions Trip once I graduate....

Okay, so now that you all know all that...The thing you most likely don't know is.... There are times I feel like the "Blueberry on the Apple tree." Meaning you ask? The one that doesn't seem to fit in. The one that doesn't seem to just mix well with the crowd. The thing is though, this is a struggle I have, and I'm finding comfort in my Heavenly Daddy. I may not feel I fit in, but the person with the quietest voice can sing the loudest song.

That's what I believe. Someday you'll be known. And I believe that someday I'll be known for having my name on a book. I will accomplish this dream...Someday =)

This season of my life is taking some turns. But in all of this, I'm clinging to Him. He's the one that can mend a broken heart, or wipe a tear away from a cheek. And He's also the one that can put a miracle right in front of your eyes. He can also dance with you in your happiest hour...He's a man of many talents, because He's the Creator of us ALL. How amazing is that? That's my Daddy!

A quote my sister said to me the other day...
"don't make someone or something your priority, when you are just their option."

<-----this is a quote I've been telling myself lately. Think about it, and what it means will click at some point.
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I tend to give everything I have into something that's really important to me. I don't think that's a bad thing because in the end, even if it's something that didn't last all that long...I'm proud of it! I'm proud I gave it my all, and fought for what I believed in. Giving up is not something I do very easily or all that often.

Hope you all enjoyed my writing tonight....And honestly, I don't mind being the Blueberry. I'm unique in my own skin. That's how I look at it =)

Goodnight lovelies.
.Princess in Waiting.

The many questions...

"What if?"

"When will it be my turn?"

"What can I do?"

"I feel helpless...What can my part be?"

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All the many questions people have...Well at least I have these questions.
I wonder how I can help someone who's struggling, and when they don't want to change...Do I give up? Do I just keep praying? What do I do to do my part?

"What if?" Ah, the question that haunts us all. What if I make the wrong decision? What if I'll regret this later on?
Don't get me wrong, it's good to have these questions going on inside your head...but I say, don't live in fear. Don't live in the fear of that "what if." I want to explore this world, I want to cherish every moment I have. I want to live in adventure. I want my mind and heart to run FREE.

"When will it be my turn?" Only God knows that one. You can ask other people, but they're only guessing. They're only saying what you want to hear....But, asking God will be the eternal reward! He knows your ending. He knows the outcome of it all. He is the MAKER of love stories. How amazing is that?!

Don't get me wrong...I ask that question all the time. I wonder when it'll be my turn to live out my ending. I wonder all the time.

"What can I do?" The question that I ask all the time. To many people. I want to do my part, I want to feel like I'm making a difference in someone's life. And I feel the only way I can do that is by doing something for them. Either in prayer, or simply giving them a hug when I feel they need one.

The littlest things make the biggest impressions. I want to do my part. I want to make a difference in someone's life. I want to feel like they are changed because they met me. I want to be spreading God's light.

Well, this is what I'm feeling tonight as I'm heading to Emanate! I'm going to praise My Jesus =)

I've missed writing. Maybe I will write more. We'll see.

Loves to all.

.Princess in Waiting.

How hard?

Life is changing like Fall is changing to Winter.

Life never stays the same. You're faced with challenges, and heartbreaks. You're faced with the un-known.

But, what do you do when someone you love is making a choice you feel in your heart is wrong? Do you stand back, and love them anyways? Do you remember the good times, and keep every memory safe inside your heart?

Being challenged I believe is something God does every once in awhile. He sees if you're truly listening, or willing to listen. What if you're ready to give up though? What if you feel you can't go anymore, and it would just be easier to give up?

Life never goes the way you think it will. It never goes like a perfect fairytale, that you thought about when you were younger. Things change. People change.

You can't live in fear of the un-known though. You can't be scared to live your life, because you're scared of what the outcome will be of that choice. My advice, and what I try to live by, is, what if you never get the chance? Will you regret it? If so, don't. I want to tell the people I love what I truly think. I don't want to live in the fear that I'll never get the chance. I'll live my whole life and never get the chance to voice everything I wanted to say.

Anyways, back to what I was saying. What do you do? For the person you care about, and love. Do you sit back, and watch them learn from their mistakes? What do you do?

I can pray. I know I can do that. And believe me, me and my Heavenly Daddy have many prayer times.

I can hope they'll come around. But I know one thing, you can't make someone change. They have to WANT it on their own. If they don't want it, nothing will happen. So the day they come around and say, "I want a change. I want a change in my heart." That's the day you'll SEE change. And real CHANGE.

But this person, is not someone I believe in giving up on. I believe in the power of PRAYER. And I'll always hold to that.

I don't believe in EVER giving up on someone in my life. I've seen it happen a couple times in my life, and I've made myself a promise, that I won't give up on someone. I won't back down, or tell them they are too much to handle. I don't feel like giving up on someone does anything for anyone. I want to be here for you. I want to challenge you, and see you build in Christ. I want to pray for you. I want to see you walk in TRUTH. I want to see the amazing outcome of it all. I want to see you push through the trials, and conquer the hard obstacles that you face.

I believe in you. I believe in my Heavenly Daddy, and I believe that God can make ALL things new!
=)

How hard would it be to just say to them that you're praying for them? Not hard. It'll be harder to see them fail, and not have any support in this hard time. Tell them you'll be there. Tell them you'll walk with them, and see them on the other side of this obstacle. Tell them you care.
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My dreams I feel are sometimes so off pace, but if I never get the chance to accomplish my dreams...I'll just have to make new ones.
(A quote I found the other day.)

.Princess in Waiting.

Love.

Love is--

1. Waiting instead of hurrying.

2. Showing up when there is no time.

3. Listening rather than talking.

4. forgiving instead of holding a grudge.

5. Assuming the best.

6. Choosing kindness rather than anger.

7. Celebrating instead of envying.

8. Anticipating needs.

9. Choosing to be humble.

10. Never giving up -continuing to the end.

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I saw this quote today, and thought it was great. Sadly I didn't write this myself, but I thought I'd share it. =) Love is many different things.

.Princess in Waiting.

James.

"Be patient, then, brothers and sisters, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield it's valuable crop, patiently waiting for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near. Don't grumble against one another, brothers and sisters, or you will be judged. The judge is standing at the door!
Brothers and sisters, as an example of the patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.
Above all, my brothers and sisters, do not swear--not by heaven or by earth or by anything else. All you need to say is a simple "Yes" or "No." Otherwise you will be condemned."

James 5:7-12

These are the verses God brought to my heart tonight, and I wanted to share it because you never know how they can speak to you also. These verses are helping in the season I'm in at the moment. But I know that God is with my forever. Whom shall I fear when He is beside me? No one.

Enjoy, and have a lovely night.

.Princess in Waiting.

p.s. Go read these verses in your Bible because it may be worded differently, and God may speak to you that way. Take the time to spend it with God.

1st of December.

Never posted this for some reason I'm not sure about....but here you are =)

Hello December!

Well, today was a first in many ways. It was the first snow fall I saw this year (2nd for my town.) Also, it didn't stay very long. Sun came out, and it all melted, but it was a wonderful way to wake up this morning.

I've told myself (and the month of December) that this month is going to be a great month for me. It'll hold a lot of happiness, and things are gonna change for me. Things are gonna start looking up for me. I'm going to become myself again. This is the last month to 2010, and then we'll be venturing out on 2011. Wow, what all will 2011 hold for me? Crazy to think about. Maybe I'll even learn how to FINALLY drive in 2011. I said maybe.

I'm going to fill my room with things that make me dream, and look for the better in everything. My room is my safe haven. It's my hiding place. And this will be the place where I find myself again.

December for me is going to be a good month, because no matter what happens I'm going to make it a good month. When I think of December, I honestly think of sadness. Ask me why, and...I won't tell you. ;) ha. But anyways, it's sadness to me, so I'm going to change that. Myself with God on my side. Because honestly not everything is going to go good for me, not everything is going to go the way I want it to go. although with no matter what obstacles I face, I can make it a good month..and with that I can make this next year a good year! I just have to find the good in everything.

December 1st 2010, wasn't that amazing of a day, but let's see the good in it. I got to spend time with my Heavenly Daddy tonight at church. I got to be with friends. I got to spend time with my Momma earlier today. All good things :) I'm trying to see the brighter side to my life lately. I'm tired of seeing the cup half empty instead of full.

I've realized that at different times I will get on little hypes of wanting to write, and getting inspired, and then I'll have a long time of having nothing to write. Right now I want to write all the time, even if it doesn't make sense. =) So, expect me to take a break here soon because I've lost my inspiration.

This is my month to shine. My month to accomplish the rest of the stuff I wanted to do in 2010. Like get my ears pierced. Or learn how to drive. This is my month. I will conquer the challenges, and obstacles. I will face my fears, and I will live this life with a smile on my face.

I'm a big girl, I can handle it.

.Princess in Waiting.

P.S. December was a good month for me. I didn't learn how to drive but I did get my ears pierced!!!!!!!! =)