August.

I can still feel you creeping into my every day life. The places I see, the moments that were cherished there, it all comes back to me in that little space in time. How can it not? You were my world for 3 & 1/2 years. My comfort zone. My meadow that I could always run away to. You knew me deeper than anyone ever has, even my family. You knew my inner most self & in return you trusted me with the deepest parts of you. 

Days pass & I sometimes question what went wrong. Why did you have to do what you did? Was I not good enough? Was I too much to handle? I begin to blame myself for the reason of your departure. Should I? No. You left for reasons unknown to many, but it was clear to me the moment i met her. She fit your mold of a girl. She gave you some of the qualities i never would be able to, even if I went to the ends of the earth for it. Even when you weren't aware of it, she started filling the void of me. She walked into your life right as you were on the edge of a new journey, she came in as the 'new girl' & gave you something you knew you couldn't have, but wanted so badly. You wanted a new adventure, a new girl to capture. 

The moment you walked into those doors on August 25th, you had moved on. You knew from the start I wasn't suppose to be a part of this new journey. I just wish you had told me sooner. 

I believed in us. Every moment, every date--I believed in the long run.

I fell in-love with you in the summer of 2012. If only I knew what it felt like to be loved back.