five families. Christmas. my next journey.

-->I'm beginning to realize that many people will tear you down in life, & not believe in you, even the people closest to you, but YOU are the one with the dreams. YOU are the one with the future you are desiring. YOU have the ability to never give up til you get to where you want to be.
That, that is what I'm striving for. Very few people are believing in where I see my future leading, but I'm having to remind myself that God put these desires in me for a reason. He wants to see me accomplish them & I will.
Missions-->in my hometown first though. There is so much poverty in this town. So many people not knowing where their next meal will come from or if they will ever be able to give their child a birthday present. I want to take their worry away. Their sadness & pain. I want to be a follower for Christ.

This Christmas I shall begin my journey.

{I had been debating for a long time now if I should share this journey with you all, but then I realized that each & every one of you has been with me from the start. So, here it goes.}

A couple weeks ago as I was cleaning toilets, God revealed something to me--families in need. It's Christmas time, right?! Well that's where He has lead me. I am working with an organization that has supplied me with 5 families (because when I prayed about this & asked God how many families I should take on, He flat out told me 5.) & I will be supplying Christmas for them...along with a Christmas dinner. Yes, I know what you're thinking, expensive.
Money is not what is going to hold me back, because from the start God promised me & assured me that HE IS GOING TO PROVIDE. & anytime, (because there are plenty of times) that I get nervous about seeing my bank account drop, He reminds me of what he promised me from the 1st day...He will provide everything I need. No, it may not come right now or even in the next year. But, God is going to provide in the end.

I want to assure you this, I am NOT doing this so I can get a reward in the end though. Because, if I never get a reward, I'll be perfectly fine, because to see the smiles on the families faces when I show up at their doorstep, will be a reward enough. This is my chance to do what I believe I'm destined for. reaching out to the needy & less fortunate & letting them know who Our God is & what He has done.

Every time I think about what God is doing in my life & how He is preparing me for the future, I get butterflies in my stomach. I get giddy & excited. I am more excited about doing this for these families for Christmas than I am for Christmas with my family. This is my time to give back.

When my family & I first moved to this small town, we had nothing. There was a month that we couldn't pay rent on our house & someone took care of it for us from our church. We had very little & people gave to us. It's my turn to give back & thank God for all that I DO have.

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When I sat down to write tonight I did NOT plan on telling you all about this.
To be completely honest, I wanted to keep it a secret because I didn't want people feeling like they needed to give in anyway. But, tonight, God typed out these words for me. There is a reason I am telling you all this tonight. I, honestly, don't know the answer to why I am, but God does.
All I ask of you all is, PRAYER. & compassion for the less fortunate & needy.

I will be blessing five families this Holiday season, if only I could do more...But, there is always next year!!

God will provide.