Sunday, January 30, 2011

Take me away Belly, Conrad, and Jeremiah.

Hello everyone that loves to see what I'm doing on my evenings at home.

Well tonight I'm going to get lost in a world I've been missing for a long time. A world where I feel I'm meant to be in. A world where there is happiness and romance.

A book.

I guess this is where I get most of my inspiration from...reading books are my happiness. They are my way of escaping from this world for a bit, and just exploring the wonders that are soon to be revealed to me. I put myself as the girl that's heart is trying to be won, and fought for.

...Sadly, the last time I got lost in a book that I never wanted to leave from, was...Twilight. I know, sad stuff. But it's true. It was my happiness. I'm ready to get inspired again, and let my heart be free in a book, and not be scared of the ending.

The book that is going to let me hide away in a different world for awhile will be..

"The Summer I Turned Pretty."

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I believe that someday I'll be made for something incredible. Something that only I will be able to accomplish. Someday.

Sadly though, I've been telling myself the word "Someday" for awhile now.
"Someday it'll be my turn."
"Someday I'll go off to college."
"Someday...you'll find love."

If I always wait for that "Someday" where's my life going to take me? I want to live in the "Now." I want to believe in healing. I want to see miracles happen. I want to drive my own car. I want to see my life take some really beautiful turns. I want to stop and just look at God's creation of this entire world.

I'm a dreamer. I'm a girl that's very stubborn. I have a hard time saying the word "no" to people, but all of this makes up for who I am. I'm not going to change for anyone, and I'm going to make my Heavenly Daddy proud.

I live for the moments that literally take my breath away. The moments where you feel your heart is just going to come right out of your chest, and you're going to burst with excitement. I live for those moments. I cherish those moments.

I believe someday (there I go again with that word.) I'm going to find a best friend. Someone that just gets me, and I can be weird with. Someone I can sing at the top of my lungs with, and not be ashamed that I have the worst voice. Someone that believes in my dreams, and is there through thick and thin. Friendships are meant to last. I believe that. They are meant to be fought for, and built through out the years. If they aren't worth your tears and constant memory of times spent together then, was it ever really worth it?

I believe I'm rambling...
Just the crazy mind and thoughts I love to write. I'm not scared to open myself up anymore. The only real thing I'm scared of is, the fear that they won't be there to listen.

Well, the beautiful love story of who's going to win the heart of "Belly..." Conrad or Jeremiah? Is calling my name.

Goodnight beautiful world.
Dream wonderful dreams....every dream has a meaning.

.Princess in Waiting.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Ready for the flowers to bloom.

Busy Saturday.

Time is flying by it seems, but the nasty snowy weather doesn't seem to want to leave. Ugh. I'm ready for the flowers to start blooming, and the lawn mowers to start coming out, because that means I get to smell my most favorite smell....Freshly cut grass.

...It seriously is my favorite smell.

Anyways, I'm ready for Spring because I'm not too fond of this snow. As you all can see I've now changed my background. I'm tired of having to look at snow every where I go it seems. So it's gone. It'll come back...Next Winter.

I'm sitting here on a Saturday night thinking of what I'm going to do, and I do believe I'm going to clean my room. Oddly, I love to clean my room. I don't know anyone but me that likes to clean there room as much as I do. It makes me happy though. So that is what my Saturday night is going to consist of.
=)

So, I've been thinking lately that I want to have a trademark. Something that when someone sees something they think immediately of me. I'm going to try to find out what my trademark is. I'll keep you updated!

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Spring, oh I do so love you. I believe you and Fall are my favorite times of the year. Beautiful weather...not too hot, not too cold. Perfect for an "always changing how I feel kind of girl" like me.

Well, here is a quote I came across today, and this will be me signing out for the evening.

"I love you much most beautiful darling, more than anyone on the earth, and I like you better than everything in the sky."
-E.E. Cummings.

Have a lovely Saturday night.

.Princess in Waiting.

Friday, January 21, 2011

The Blueberry on the Apple tree.

...I'm staring at a blank page, so then, what do I write?

I have no clue. For once I don't know how to form my thoughts into words. I don't know how to write what I'm thinking. That's a first for me. Normally I'm so good at getting my thoughts to paper...Not this time. This time I'm lost for words. I'm desperately yearning for God's help.

Well, I'm going to try to form it into words. I'm going to try to write.

As you've all most likely read, if you've been following me from the first writing. Than you all know that I'm a small town girl, I love to write. I'm very quiet. I don't like to be center of attention. I'm very excited about the day I fall in-love. I'm a bit scared of that day also, but I'm trying to wait patiently for that day.

I adore my family, and I try to make as many friends as I can in this crazy life of mine. I want to make a difference, and the only way I feel I can make a difference is to reach out to people. I want to travel this world, and explore God's beauty. I want to go on a Missions Trip once I graduate....

Okay, so now that you all know all that...The thing you most likely don't know is.... There are times I feel like the "Blueberry on the Apple tree." Meaning you ask? The one that doesn't seem to fit in. The one that doesn't seem to just mix well with the crowd. The thing is though, this is a struggle I have, and I'm finding comfort in my Heavenly Daddy. I may not feel I fit in, but the person with the quietest voice can sing the loudest song.

That's what I believe. Someday you'll be known. And I believe that someday I'll be known for having my name on a book. I will accomplish this dream...Someday =)

This season of my life is taking some turns. But in all of this, I'm clinging to Him. He's the one that can mend a broken heart, or wipe a tear away from a cheek. And He's also the one that can put a miracle right in front of your eyes. He can also dance with you in your happiest hour...He's a man of many talents, because He's the Creator of us ALL. How amazing is that? That's my Daddy!

A quote my sister said to me the other day...
"don't make someone or something your priority, when you are just their option."

<-----this is a quote I've been telling myself lately. Think about it, and what it means will click at some point.
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I tend to give everything I have into something that's really important to me. I don't think that's a bad thing because in the end, even if it's something that didn't last all that long...I'm proud of it! I'm proud I gave it my all, and fought for what I believed in. Giving up is not something I do very easily or all that often.

Hope you all enjoyed my writing tonight....And honestly, I don't mind being the Blueberry. I'm unique in my own skin. That's how I look at it =)

Goodnight lovelies.
.Princess in Waiting.

Monday, January 17, 2011

The many questions...

"What if?"

"When will it be my turn?"

"What can I do?"

"I feel helpless...What can my part be?"

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All the many questions people have...Well at least I have these questions.
I wonder how I can help someone who's struggling, and when they don't want to change...Do I give up? Do I just keep praying? What do I do to do my part?

"What if?" Ah, the question that haunts us all. What if I make the wrong decision? What if I'll regret this later on?
Don't get me wrong, it's good to have these questions going on inside your head...but I say, don't live in fear. Don't live in the fear of that "what if." I want to explore this world, I want to cherish every moment I have. I want to live in adventure. I want my mind and heart to run FREE.

"When will it be my turn?" Only God knows that one. You can ask other people, but they're only guessing. They're only saying what you want to hear....But, asking God will be the eternal reward! He knows your ending. He knows the outcome of it all. He is the MAKER of love stories. How amazing is that?!

Don't get me wrong...I ask that question all the time. I wonder when it'll be my turn to live out my ending. I wonder all the time.

"What can I do?" The question that I ask all the time. To many people. I want to do my part, I want to feel like I'm making a difference in someone's life. And I feel the only way I can do that is by doing something for them. Either in prayer, or simply giving them a hug when I feel they need one.

The littlest things make the biggest impressions. I want to do my part. I want to make a difference in someone's life. I want to feel like they are changed because they met me. I want to be spreading God's light.

Well, this is what I'm feeling tonight as I'm heading to Emanate! I'm going to praise My Jesus =)

I've missed writing. Maybe I will write more. We'll see.

Loves to all.

.Princess in Waiting.