To most people my dreams are a mystery, but to very few they are well known.
I dream with a kind of dreaming where nothing else matters in the world except for how crazy my mind can dream.
I as a child use to dream of giant vegetables, and being just like my Mom once I had children of my own to love, I would imagine my children climbing up in my bed for a bed time song. I longed for that dream to become reality someday. But as the dreams of giant vegetables passed, and slowly faded into nothing, the dream of becoming a Mommy was still very important in my life. I wanted that life, I wanted children of my own that would say to me as their last words of the night.."I love you Mommy."
I believe that the reason this dream is so important to me is because I saw my Mom raise 5 children, and home school us all. She made it happen with such ease, and she loved her life, she still does. I saw her work a crazy day of home schooling us all, and then she would by the end of the day have Dinner made, and then she would make time for our "special song" every night. It's a dream that she longed for as a little child, and she made it become reality for her, yeah she had to wait for it, but she got the amazing Husband, and then she got her children.
If my dreams are shattered, and my love story isn't perfect, I do know one thing, I will love my own children someday.
.Princess in Waiting.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I want to make a difference in this world.
Well I've been laying on the couch all day because my Jaw has been hurting pretty bad, and I have a sore throat...I know, bummer right?
Last night God called on me while in worship time with Him at church, but He called on me for a different reason this time. -I'll start from the beginning, during the message, they asked us all the question.."If you could do anything in the world RIGHT now, what would you do?" Well I asked myself that and also included God, and I came up with the answer, "Go on a Missions Trip, somewhere in the world, and travel for a living, giving back to the people that need clothes, bedding, food, Etc."
I'll be honest, this was totally God speaking to me because I didn't see this one coming, I figured it would be a simple answer like..."go to Rome with my friends, or meet the man I'm going to marry right now." ha! Have I ever told you that God has a mind of His own? Because He does :)
Don't get me wrong though, since I was about 12 years old I always wanted to go on a Missions Trip with my brother, but I thought it would be a 1 time thing, not something I did as a life choice. But hey I'm still young, and I don't know what my future holds, but God does!
I wanted to share this because I don't know how many of you are scared of what your future will hold, but I want to tell you to not be scared, because God holds your future. He knows your ending, and He will give you the desires of your heart if you lean on Him fully.
This look into the future last night for me when God was telling me about traveling the world and becoming a Missionary, was scary honestly, because I always said I would live in the same town as my parents so we would always be close, and so my children could know their grandparents really well, so yeah this scared me. Also though, I was over-joyed because the thought of giving back to the people that don't even know where their next meal will come from, is an amazing thought. I want that, I want to experience that. I want to see the love and excitement on the children's faces when I give them a stuffed animal to cuddle with at night. I want to make a difference in this world.
I don't know what my future will hold, because I thought I was going to go to College to become a Writer, but if I have Missions work in my future, well then I'll be pretty happy. I'll go anywhere God calls me to go, I won't just go, I'll go running to His calling for my life. :)
-Think about this...you NEVER know when God will be calling out to you, and you never know where you'll be when He calls out to you. You could be in the Supermarket, or you could be at the Gas Station, or you could be sitting in your room giving time to Our God, when He speaks to you. You never know where you'll be, but in my opinion it's always awesome when God speaks to me. :)
.Princess in Waiting.
Last night God called on me while in worship time with Him at church, but He called on me for a different reason this time. -I'll start from the beginning, during the message, they asked us all the question.."If you could do anything in the world RIGHT now, what would you do?" Well I asked myself that and also included God, and I came up with the answer, "Go on a Missions Trip, somewhere in the world, and travel for a living, giving back to the people that need clothes, bedding, food, Etc."
I'll be honest, this was totally God speaking to me because I didn't see this one coming, I figured it would be a simple answer like..."go to Rome with my friends, or meet the man I'm going to marry right now." ha! Have I ever told you that God has a mind of His own? Because He does :)
Don't get me wrong though, since I was about 12 years old I always wanted to go on a Missions Trip with my brother, but I thought it would be a 1 time thing, not something I did as a life choice. But hey I'm still young, and I don't know what my future holds, but God does!
I wanted to share this because I don't know how many of you are scared of what your future will hold, but I want to tell you to not be scared, because God holds your future. He knows your ending, and He will give you the desires of your heart if you lean on Him fully.
This look into the future last night for me when God was telling me about traveling the world and becoming a Missionary, was scary honestly, because I always said I would live in the same town as my parents so we would always be close, and so my children could know their grandparents really well, so yeah this scared me. Also though, I was over-joyed because the thought of giving back to the people that don't even know where their next meal will come from, is an amazing thought. I want that, I want to experience that. I want to see the love and excitement on the children's faces when I give them a stuffed animal to cuddle with at night. I want to make a difference in this world.
I don't know what my future will hold, because I thought I was going to go to College to become a Writer, but if I have Missions work in my future, well then I'll be pretty happy. I'll go anywhere God calls me to go, I won't just go, I'll go running to His calling for my life. :)
-Think about this...you NEVER know when God will be calling out to you, and you never know where you'll be when He calls out to you. You could be in the Supermarket, or you could be at the Gas Station, or you could be sitting in your room giving time to Our God, when He speaks to you. You never know where you'll be, but in my opinion it's always awesome when God speaks to me. :)
.Princess in Waiting.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
God knows my ending.
Blog writer here,
It's a beautiful night here in my small town, and I'm seeing God's beauty everywhere tonight. I saw the Sun set, and man it was like there was a rainbow throughout the entire Sky. :) Isn't it amazing how God gets to choose what He wants the sky to look like every night and what the Moon will look like? He is one amazing God!
My reasoning for this blog is to say, I know God holds my future in His hands. He knows my ending, and He knows everything about my future. He knows everyone's future. I'm having a huge struggle with giving this department of my life over to God...the "relationship" department. It's harder than you all may think it is! I didn't think it would be all that hard, but it is.
Are there ever nights that are harder for you all in the "waiting" area of your life? Because I've had those days a lot lately. I've been having a hard time with seeing God through and knowing that He will give me the desires of my heart. He will follow through on His promises.
Proverbs 16:3
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans."
I was shown this verse the other night by a friend, and what they told me was when I commit EVERYTHING to the Lord, He WILL come through for you. He WILL give you the desires of your heart.
I'm always reminded of the one I'll someday love when I look at God's beauty of this world, like the other day when I was walking on the Hike, or tonight when I was seeing the Sun set. I thought about him, and I don't think that's wrong, I just get reminded that I'll someday be loved by one man for the rest of my life. That's a good feeling to know.
I may feel a little empty right now, but all I have to do is cling to God. He'll come through for me, and He'll comfort me, and give me the love I'm longing for right now. Whatever I ask of Him, He'll come through for me, if I commit EVERYTHING to Him! :)
...Just always remember that His love is everlasting, and never ending!
.Princess in Waiting.
It's a beautiful night here in my small town, and I'm seeing God's beauty everywhere tonight. I saw the Sun set, and man it was like there was a rainbow throughout the entire Sky. :) Isn't it amazing how God gets to choose what He wants the sky to look like every night and what the Moon will look like? He is one amazing God!
My reasoning for this blog is to say, I know God holds my future in His hands. He knows my ending, and He knows everything about my future. He knows everyone's future. I'm having a huge struggle with giving this department of my life over to God...the "relationship" department. It's harder than you all may think it is! I didn't think it would be all that hard, but it is.
Are there ever nights that are harder for you all in the "waiting" area of your life? Because I've had those days a lot lately. I've been having a hard time with seeing God through and knowing that He will give me the desires of my heart. He will follow through on His promises.
Proverbs 16:3
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans."
I was shown this verse the other night by a friend, and what they told me was when I commit EVERYTHING to the Lord, He WILL come through for you. He WILL give you the desires of your heart.
I'm always reminded of the one I'll someday love when I look at God's beauty of this world, like the other day when I was walking on the Hike, or tonight when I was seeing the Sun set. I thought about him, and I don't think that's wrong, I just get reminded that I'll someday be loved by one man for the rest of my life. That's a good feeling to know.
I may feel a little empty right now, but all I have to do is cling to God. He'll come through for me, and He'll comfort me, and give me the love I'm longing for right now. Whatever I ask of Him, He'll come through for me, if I commit EVERYTHING to Him! :)
...Just always remember that His love is everlasting, and never ending!
.Princess in Waiting.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
God Makes Everything Beautiful.
My thoughts on this hailing, and rainy day in my small town.
The other day I went to the park with some friends, and we went on one of the hikes they have there, and at one point we all just took a break and most of my group was talking to each other, but for me, I went and sat down on a tree that had fallen on the ground, and I just took in God's beauty. Everything around was so peaceful, and lovely. I could have sat there for hours, just not even saying a word, just looking around at God's creation. It was beautiful! I don't know what it is with me, but it's the simple things that matter in my world.
This park I was at wasn't the prettiest thing in my town, but then again my town is small, but the point is, is I saw beauty in the muddy nasty lake that was there on the hike. I saw God's creation through it all. The reason I saw God's beauty is because He makes everything beautiful.
There are so many times I don't just stop and take in God's beauty, but the other day, that's just what I did! I saw it all, well all that I could have gotten out of this walk. I didn't want to leave, I wanted to be captured in God's beauty for just a little bit longer. I've always said, "I want to see all God's beauty of this world." and I guess I thought I had to go someone other than my small beautiful town, but I don't. I can see a lot of God's creation here in my town, I just have to be willing to see it when God puts it right in front of me. Like He did the other day during my walk with Him.
God is the maker of everything, that's why when you see His beauty of this world through Him, it can't get any prettier.
.Princess in Waiting.
The other day I went to the park with some friends, and we went on one of the hikes they have there, and at one point we all just took a break and most of my group was talking to each other, but for me, I went and sat down on a tree that had fallen on the ground, and I just took in God's beauty. Everything around was so peaceful, and lovely. I could have sat there for hours, just not even saying a word, just looking around at God's creation. It was beautiful! I don't know what it is with me, but it's the simple things that matter in my world.
This park I was at wasn't the prettiest thing in my town, but then again my town is small, but the point is, is I saw beauty in the muddy nasty lake that was there on the hike. I saw God's creation through it all. The reason I saw God's beauty is because He makes everything beautiful.
There are so many times I don't just stop and take in God's beauty, but the other day, that's just what I did! I saw it all, well all that I could have gotten out of this walk. I didn't want to leave, I wanted to be captured in God's beauty for just a little bit longer. I've always said, "I want to see all God's beauty of this world." and I guess I thought I had to go someone other than my small beautiful town, but I don't. I can see a lot of God's creation here in my town, I just have to be willing to see it when God puts it right in front of me. Like He did the other day during my walk with Him.
God is the maker of everything, that's why when you see His beauty of this world through Him, it can't get any prettier.
.Princess in Waiting.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Being Captivated by God.
"What is it that God wants from you?
He wants the same thing that you want. He wants to be loved. He wants to be known as only lovers can know each other. He wants intimacy with you. Yes, yes, He wants your obedience, but only when it flows out of a heart filled with love for Him. "whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me." (John 14:21). Following hard after Jesus is the heart's natural response with it has been captured and has fallen deeply in love with him.
Reading George MacDonald several years ago, I came across an astounding thought. You've probably heard that there is in every human heart a place that God alone can fill. (Lord knows we've tried to fill it with everything else, to our utter dismay.) But what the old poet was saying was that there is also in God's heart a place that you alone can fill. "it follows that there is also a chamber in God himself, into which none can enter but the one, the individual." You! You are meant to fill a place in the heart of God no one and nothing else can fill. Whoa. He longs for YOU!
You are the one that overwhelms his heart with just "one glance of your eyes" (Song 4:9). You are the one he sings over with delight and longs to dance with across mountiantops and ballroom floors (Zeph. 3:17). You are the one who takes his breath away by your beautiful heart that, against all odds, hopes in him. Let that be true for a moment. Let it be true of YOU.
God wants to live this life together with you, to share in your days and decisions, your desires and disappointments. He wants intimacy with you in the midst of the madness and mundane, the meetings and memos, the laundry and lists, the carpools and conversations and projects and pain. He wants to pour his love into your heart and he longs to have you pour yours into his. He wants your deep heart, that center place within that is the truest YOU. He is not interested in the intimacy with the woman you think you are suppose to be. He wants intimacy with the real you."
-As you're probably figuring out, this is not something that was written by me, this was written in the book "Captivating." By John and Stasi Eldredge, and I'm completely in-love with this book!
I was having my God time today, and I picked up this book, and I just started reading and when I came to about the 3rd page into the chapter this is what I read..(what I just shared with you.) and I just started crying, and crying, but you know those happy cries? Yeah don't worry, they were all happy! I was amazed by God that He can keep giving to me, and showing me His love in all different kind of ways. I had an amazing God time today, and if any of you are looking for a good book to read, get "Captivating." You WON'T regret it :)
God's love is extravagant, and so overwhelming. I LOVE it! :)
.Princess in Waiting.
He wants the same thing that you want. He wants to be loved. He wants to be known as only lovers can know each other. He wants intimacy with you. Yes, yes, He wants your obedience, but only when it flows out of a heart filled with love for Him. "whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me." (John 14:21). Following hard after Jesus is the heart's natural response with it has been captured and has fallen deeply in love with him.
Reading George MacDonald several years ago, I came across an astounding thought. You've probably heard that there is in every human heart a place that God alone can fill. (Lord knows we've tried to fill it with everything else, to our utter dismay.) But what the old poet was saying was that there is also in God's heart a place that you alone can fill. "it follows that there is also a chamber in God himself, into which none can enter but the one, the individual." You! You are meant to fill a place in the heart of God no one and nothing else can fill. Whoa. He longs for YOU!
You are the one that overwhelms his heart with just "one glance of your eyes" (Song 4:9). You are the one he sings over with delight and longs to dance with across mountiantops and ballroom floors (Zeph. 3:17). You are the one who takes his breath away by your beautiful heart that, against all odds, hopes in him. Let that be true for a moment. Let it be true of YOU.
God wants to live this life together with you, to share in your days and decisions, your desires and disappointments. He wants intimacy with you in the midst of the madness and mundane, the meetings and memos, the laundry and lists, the carpools and conversations and projects and pain. He wants to pour his love into your heart and he longs to have you pour yours into his. He wants your deep heart, that center place within that is the truest YOU. He is not interested in the intimacy with the woman you think you are suppose to be. He wants intimacy with the real you."
-As you're probably figuring out, this is not something that was written by me, this was written in the book "Captivating." By John and Stasi Eldredge, and I'm completely in-love with this book!
I was having my God time today, and I picked up this book, and I just started reading and when I came to about the 3rd page into the chapter this is what I read..(what I just shared with you.) and I just started crying, and crying, but you know those happy cries? Yeah don't worry, they were all happy! I was amazed by God that He can keep giving to me, and showing me His love in all different kind of ways. I had an amazing God time today, and if any of you are looking for a good book to read, get "Captivating." You WON'T regret it :)
God's love is extravagant, and so overwhelming. I LOVE it! :)
.Princess in Waiting.
You Are God Alone.
-You Are God Alone. -Phillips Craig & Dean
"You are not a god
Created by human hands
You are not a god
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a god
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, that’s just the way it is
Chorus:
You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone
You’re the only God
Whose power none can contend
You’re the only God
Whose name and praise will never end
You’re the only God
Who’s worthy of everything we can give
You are God
And that’s just the way it is
Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
That’s what You are"
-This song was shown to me during my time with God this morning. I realized while listening to this song about 5 times, that God is EVERYTHING, He doesn't need anyone to make Him something because Him ALONE is EVERYTHING! He is our Savior, our Lover, our Protector, our Comforter....He is everything! He loves us just the way we are, and He always takes us back into His arms even when we've done something wrong.
He NEVER holds anything against us, and He forever loves us. I'm amazed by the love God has for me, because I don't deserve it, but He gives it so freely, and He is ALL forgiving. This song speaks volumes to me, it's not really the lyrics that mean so much, it's the truth behind the lyrics.
Our God is Unchangeable.
Our God is Unshakable.
Our God is Unstoppable.
-He is EVERYTHING, just remember that when you're not having the best day of your life, and when something isn't going the way you want it to go, God is everything!
God knows the desires of your heart, and He will follow through on His promises if you allow Him to enter into your heart, and let Him take control.
Do you ever have those times where you believe your life would be easier if you planned it out on your own? Because I'll be honest, I do! But it's funny because right when I take my life in my hands, I realize that's it's not easy, and it's a lot harder than God makes it seem. And God juggles more than ONE life in His hands, and He has more on His plate then we would ever have, but does He complain? No! He forgives, He loves, He provides, and He protects. Again...He is EVERYTHING!
...and with God you HAVE everything! :)
These are my thought on this rainy Saturday morning!
.Princess in Waiting.
"You are not a god
Created by human hands
You are not a god
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a god
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, that’s just the way it is
Chorus:
You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone
You’re the only God
Whose power none can contend
You’re the only God
Whose name and praise will never end
You’re the only God
Who’s worthy of everything we can give
You are God
And that’s just the way it is
Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
That’s what You are"
-This song was shown to me during my time with God this morning. I realized while listening to this song about 5 times, that God is EVERYTHING, He doesn't need anyone to make Him something because Him ALONE is EVERYTHING! He is our Savior, our Lover, our Protector, our Comforter....He is everything! He loves us just the way we are, and He always takes us back into His arms even when we've done something wrong.
He NEVER holds anything against us, and He forever loves us. I'm amazed by the love God has for me, because I don't deserve it, but He gives it so freely, and He is ALL forgiving. This song speaks volumes to me, it's not really the lyrics that mean so much, it's the truth behind the lyrics.
Our God is Unchangeable.
Our God is Unshakable.
Our God is Unstoppable.
-He is EVERYTHING, just remember that when you're not having the best day of your life, and when something isn't going the way you want it to go, God is everything!
God knows the desires of your heart, and He will follow through on His promises if you allow Him to enter into your heart, and let Him take control.
Do you ever have those times where you believe your life would be easier if you planned it out on your own? Because I'll be honest, I do! But it's funny because right when I take my life in my hands, I realize that's it's not easy, and it's a lot harder than God makes it seem. And God juggles more than ONE life in His hands, and He has more on His plate then we would ever have, but does He complain? No! He forgives, He loves, He provides, and He protects. Again...He is EVERYTHING!
...and with God you HAVE everything! :)
These are my thought on this rainy Saturday morning!
.Princess in Waiting.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
The Moon.
Blog Writer here,
I just wanted to fill you in on one of my nights at home. While sitting here with my "niece" (she's actually my sister's dog, but I don't have any real niece's yet, so yeah she is my niece.) By the way her name is Finley... :)
Anyways, I'm thinking about My Love tonight. I was looking at the Moon tonight, and if you all have read my past blogs, you know that I have this crazy love for the Moon, and any of my friends know this also! But while looking at the Moon tonight I was reminded of the love I'm carrying around for my husband right now, tonight I was holding onto that love, wishing I could give it to him tonight, but then I'm reminded when I look at the Moon, that it's not time for us to meet yet.
Has anyone looked at the Moon tonight? or am I just a weird one?! I had my sister look at the Moon tonight also, and I don't think she sees the same thing as I do, but she tries to understand. I just see something magical in it. There's some kind of beauty that God shows to me every night, while looking at the Moon. :)
Back to the main reason for this blog...I hope everyone is having a good night, and to everyone that is waiting, guy or girl. Wait a little longer, dream a little longer, and love a little longer. They'll come, trust me. I know someday I'll have love from a man that adores me, but I just have to wait for that love. I can't have it right now, and I'm not going to go looking for that love in someone else, because I want to wait for the right man to give me all the love in the world, I don't want to just find cheep love right now, because if I wait it will be even better in the end.
Right now, I'm finding love and comfort in My Jesus! :) He's my forever love!
After all, I once heard that the hardest things are the best things! -I believe it.
.Princess in Waiting.
I just wanted to fill you in on one of my nights at home. While sitting here with my "niece" (she's actually my sister's dog, but I don't have any real niece's yet, so yeah she is my niece.) By the way her name is Finley... :)
Anyways, I'm thinking about My Love tonight. I was looking at the Moon tonight, and if you all have read my past blogs, you know that I have this crazy love for the Moon, and any of my friends know this also! But while looking at the Moon tonight I was reminded of the love I'm carrying around for my husband right now, tonight I was holding onto that love, wishing I could give it to him tonight, but then I'm reminded when I look at the Moon, that it's not time for us to meet yet.
Has anyone looked at the Moon tonight? or am I just a weird one?! I had my sister look at the Moon tonight also, and I don't think she sees the same thing as I do, but she tries to understand. I just see something magical in it. There's some kind of beauty that God shows to me every night, while looking at the Moon. :)
Back to the main reason for this blog...I hope everyone is having a good night, and to everyone that is waiting, guy or girl. Wait a little longer, dream a little longer, and love a little longer. They'll come, trust me. I know someday I'll have love from a man that adores me, but I just have to wait for that love. I can't have it right now, and I'm not going to go looking for that love in someone else, because I want to wait for the right man to give me all the love in the world, I don't want to just find cheep love right now, because if I wait it will be even better in the end.
Right now, I'm finding love and comfort in My Jesus! :) He's my forever love!
After all, I once heard that the hardest things are the best things! -I believe it.
.Princess in Waiting.
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