Oh wow, it's been a longgg time since I've written out a list of my favorite things, (or really anything that comes to my mind in the time of me writing this, so be warned.) I bet a lot of things have changed since last year at this time. But, that's okay, because if nothing had changed, I'd be a little worried. I want to change & become more of me & who I'm suppose to be.
So! He goes nothing. Enjoy, my dearest.
1. I officially don't like the name of my blog anymore, so expect a name change here soon. I apologize to anyone that liked it.
2. the Fall & winter seasons always get me in the mood to write. It seems that all the juices start flowing. I personally love it.
3. In the past year I have fallen in love with thrift store shopping. I love to hunt out other peoples crap & make it something unique & that costs very little to make new.
4. The half smile between kisses, will always be a favorite of mine.
5. I've been feeling stuck a lot lately. Hating my job & desiring to get out of this town I live in & venture out on my own. Wanting to pack up a suitcase & get in a car & drive....until I find a quaint little town that is calling my name. Where no one knows my name & they ride old vintage bikes all through their town.
6. That reminds me--I have been looking for months for a bike for myself. One that looks like it was made ages ago & has a cute little basket on the front. Preferably in the color turquoise, or a oldish yellow color.
7. currently I clean houses everyday of my life. cleaning pee off other peoples toilets isn't really where I imagined myself to be once I graduated high school. But, surprisingly people pay a lot of money to have pee cleaned off toilets, who knew?
8. I just recently fell on a wet floor & busted my iPhone...it was a very tragic day.
9. I've recently realized that you can go all day & not think of someone but when it becomes night & the moon & stars come out & it's time to bundle up in your coat & scarf with some hot chocolate you begin missing them.
10. I just bought Lady Antebellum's new Christmas cd--needless to say, I'm in-love with it.
11. I've never went ice skating.
12. I am addicted to Instagram & snapping photos everywhere I go.
13. I have an addiction to shoes. This is a habit I should, but probably won't break.
14. Coffee shops in quaint downtowns have always made me feel at home.
15. I'm literally at a loss for what my next step in life will be. Where I will go & what I will be doing. I'm realizing that I need to let God hold the pen to my life, instead of me constantly wanting to take it.
16. I have the cutest little nephew, ever. 6 months old, 6 teeth & he's on the verge of walking. he stole my heart the day he was born.
17. Taylor Swift is really good at writing songs that relate directly to my life. It's a sad fact.
18. This year I finally learned what slow dancing was like.
19. I love driving through the mountains, but get me on the interstate & I freak out. --There's just something peaceful about the mountains.
20. Fried Pickles are my biggest addiction. the chips, not the spears though.
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Goodnight my dearests. For whoever is out there reading tonight--thank you.
Grace.
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Friday, November 9, 2012
Turquoise.
be adventurous.
You'll never know until you try.
seek out to find yourself.
dye your hair purple if that's what makes you feel the most you.
don't worry about what other people think, it's your life. Your choices.
do it.
believe in yourself & don't give up til you get to where you want to be.
don't look back on your life with regret. everything happened for a reason.
(we happened for a reason.)
Chop off your hair.
write out your heart on paper & then tear it up.
take a late night ride to the coffee shop & read a good book.
get mad.
let the tears flow for once.
fight for something you truly want in your life.
listen to your heart for once.
&&, most importantly, don't let someone else define who you are.}
wedding dress.
I was browsing through photos today on Pinterest & came across wedding dresses, & immediately my mind flashed to a million different things. I want that someday, I want to walk towards a man that loves my flaws & see a future with me & promises to never let go, no matter what obstacles we face.
I want to seek adventure with him.
I want to travel this exquisite world with him by my side.
I want us to throw all our stuff in a old vintage suitcase & jump in the car & drive. Not knowing where we may end up, just driving & being content because we have everything we need sitting right in that car & we know we have a future together, that will not end until we are old & grey.
Whenever people asked me what I dreamt my wedding would be like or the house I would someday live in, I never had an answer for them, because it wasn't the material things that mattered in my book. It was the man that was standing at the end of the isle waiting for me to become his bride, & the man that would someday carry me into our first home. It's still that way. He's all that matters to me, of course I'm a girl & i hope for that beautiful big wedding dress & a full decked out day, but if the man I love can't give me that, then I will be content. Because once that day is over, he's the one I get to keep, forever.
My day will come, & so will my boy. He'll remind me everyday of his love for me & remind me how lucky I am to have that love. He'll believe in my dreams, even if they're a bit crazy & he'll stand by me while he's sees my dreams become reality.
He'll make other women jealous of me, but he won't make me jealous of other women.
I'm only 18 years old, I have time to wait for the right guy to come along. No matter if I've already crossed paths with him, or if he's waiting to captivate me someday. Either way, I shall wait for you.
Grace.
I want to seek adventure with him.
I want to travel this exquisite world with him by my side.
I want us to throw all our stuff in a old vintage suitcase & jump in the car & drive. Not knowing where we may end up, just driving & being content because we have everything we need sitting right in that car & we know we have a future together, that will not end until we are old & grey.
Whenever people asked me what I dreamt my wedding would be like or the house I would someday live in, I never had an answer for them, because it wasn't the material things that mattered in my book. It was the man that was standing at the end of the isle waiting for me to become his bride, & the man that would someday carry me into our first home. It's still that way. He's all that matters to me, of course I'm a girl & i hope for that beautiful big wedding dress & a full decked out day, but if the man I love can't give me that, then I will be content. Because once that day is over, he's the one I get to keep, forever.
My day will come, & so will my boy. He'll remind me everyday of his love for me & remind me how lucky I am to have that love. He'll believe in my dreams, even if they're a bit crazy & he'll stand by me while he's sees my dreams become reality.
He'll make other women jealous of me, but he won't make me jealous of other women.
I'm only 18 years old, I have time to wait for the right guy to come along. No matter if I've already crossed paths with him, or if he's waiting to captivate me someday. Either way, I shall wait for you.
Grace.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Hello lovelies.
I'm back!
Sorry for the months I've taken away from the keyboard...my life has been a little crazy & i've been hit with obstacles, but I'm reminded of something---God never gives us more than He KNOWS we can handle.
As I'm riding home tonight from being at a church event to see my nephew dress up for his first Halloween, I'm admiring God's beauty.
The Moon. -->it's full & has a beautiful tint to it. Harder for me to describe it, but just take my word for it or go look at it yourself. Anytime I've needed to feel God close I would always just look around at His beauty. He's everywhere. In the midst of pain & sorrow, He's there. In the midst of happiness & love, He's there. Always.
....I've drifted so far from Him. But, I'm opening a new chapter of my book & with that comes a lot of new adventures. For me to take alone...at least for awhile. Finding my ground & realizing who I am, on my own. I first need to become confident in myself & believe in myself. For so many years I've made an effort to let everyone around me know just how much I believe in them & am proud of them & in that time I've lost my own self confidence. A lot of it.
I will be writing more & hopefully posting photos of where this journey is going to take me, so...will you join me on this adventure?
I love you all. Deeply.
Prayers would be greatly appreciated!
Grace.
Sorry for the months I've taken away from the keyboard...my life has been a little crazy & i've been hit with obstacles, but I'm reminded of something---God never gives us more than He KNOWS we can handle.
As I'm riding home tonight from being at a church event to see my nephew dress up for his first Halloween, I'm admiring God's beauty.
The Moon. -->it's full & has a beautiful tint to it. Harder for me to describe it, but just take my word for it or go look at it yourself. Anytime I've needed to feel God close I would always just look around at His beauty. He's everywhere. In the midst of pain & sorrow, He's there. In the midst of happiness & love, He's there. Always.
....I've drifted so far from Him. But, I'm opening a new chapter of my book & with that comes a lot of new adventures. For me to take alone...at least for awhile. Finding my ground & realizing who I am, on my own. I first need to become confident in myself & believe in myself. For so many years I've made an effort to let everyone around me know just how much I believe in them & am proud of them & in that time I've lost my own self confidence. A lot of it.
I will be writing more & hopefully posting photos of where this journey is going to take me, so...will you join me on this adventure?
I love you all. Deeply.
Prayers would be greatly appreciated!
Grace.
Friday, June 15, 2012
The moonless sky.
Tonight I'm sitting in the window of my house where you'd go down to the basement & I'm admiring the sky. Normally I hate nights like these, because the night seems so dark, like it's missing something. But, tonight it's beautiful. Like it's okay with being without the moon for a little while.
For years I've had a crazy love for the moon, I could sit & stare at it for hours & I would simply be content. As well as a sunset or sunrise. The sky inspires me, I guess. It's like God's little reminder to us all, telling us that He makes all things new. Because even though every morning the sun rises & every night the sun sets, it's still different. It's still unique. He adds color all the time to the sunset & makes it His own masterpiece.
He doesn't have to do this for us, but He wants to. He makes it indescribably beautiful for us, for a reason. It doesn't matter where you are in the world, we're looking at the same sky & admiring the same God as everyone else. There is only one person we have to thank for this. One person that gives us this beauty.
I guess that tonight I've taken a different appreciation for just how great & powerful my God truly is. & that even in a moonless night, beauty is found in the most unexpected places. There are giant bugs buzzing around outside the window & there is a momma bird laying in her nest right outside our front door. There is so much beauty unseen daily by the eyes of us humans.
Stop! Just slow your life down for a moment & capture this moment. I don't care if it's 3am when you're reading this or 3 in the afternoon. Capture this moment & remember it. What is out in this world that you drive by or walk by daily, but never truly take the time to capture it?
Well, it's late. & I think my thoughts have been well written for the night.
Goodnight my lovelies.
Grace.
For years I've had a crazy love for the moon, I could sit & stare at it for hours & I would simply be content. As well as a sunset or sunrise. The sky inspires me, I guess. It's like God's little reminder to us all, telling us that He makes all things new. Because even though every morning the sun rises & every night the sun sets, it's still different. It's still unique. He adds color all the time to the sunset & makes it His own masterpiece.
He doesn't have to do this for us, but He wants to. He makes it indescribably beautiful for us, for a reason. It doesn't matter where you are in the world, we're looking at the same sky & admiring the same God as everyone else. There is only one person we have to thank for this. One person that gives us this beauty.
I guess that tonight I've taken a different appreciation for just how great & powerful my God truly is. & that even in a moonless night, beauty is found in the most unexpected places. There are giant bugs buzzing around outside the window & there is a momma bird laying in her nest right outside our front door. There is so much beauty unseen daily by the eyes of us humans.
Stop! Just slow your life down for a moment & capture this moment. I don't care if it's 3am when you're reading this or 3 in the afternoon. Capture this moment & remember it. What is out in this world that you drive by or walk by daily, but never truly take the time to capture it?
Well, it's late. & I think my thoughts have been well written for the night.
Goodnight my lovelies.
Grace.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Friday, June 1, 2012
black&white.
Tonight I learned something new.
Tonight someone very dear to me didn't accept something I love & adore.
There was a conversation flowing throughout my house tonight about adopting adorable black babies, & there was a person that entered our house that turned their back on the idea of someday having our house over-flowing with black babies or even a handsome black husband, if he were to enter mine or one of my sisters lives. They were not accepting.
I don't understand that. God loves us ALL the same, why can't this person? They are in no place to judge, but for some reason they had such a strong opinion on this.
One day, I will adopt a beautiful dark skinned baby & cover that child in love.
So will the rest of my family.
My sister was saying tonight how she wants to adopt at least two black babies. I adore that.
But, why is it so looked down on by certain people? Why? It's just a skin color, that's it.
You are in no place to judge, because if you were black, you'd hope that people would take the time to love you, right? I would love you just the same. I will love my someday babies just the same as I will my adopted children. There will be NO picking favorites. If you don't accept my 'views' on this, & won't love ALL of my family, well tough, you can leave.
I was raised up to love one another, just as Jesus does. <--why can't we remember that?
Black people are exquisite, in my opinion. Just stunning. & there are so many black children just waiting to have arms to love them & hold them. Wondering where their next meal will come from, or wondering if there will ever be someone that will love them. They want to be rocked to sleep & held when they're crying. Those beautiful black children desire all the same things we do, but so many of them lack ever being given the chance to be loved or accomplish their dreams. Why? Because there are too many people in this world looking down on them as if they are dirt. As if they are the scum of the earth & don't even deserve a second glance.
Who are we to think we're better then them?
This person that entered our home tonight told us that they would disown us if we ever had a black child or husband enter our home. They weren't kidding either. I don't agree with that, at all. Your views, are very low.
Why is it that blacks are so frowned upon, but when someone has a baby out of wedlock, it's fine by the majority of the world today? Or when someone is sleeping around or in a homosexual relationship?
We're ALL the same. Every single one of us is beautiful & loved by the one that created us & formed us. By the one that decided what color our skin would be, & who our parents would be. If we'd have two black parents or one black & one white, or two whites. God decided that & this is our chance to love everyone we come in contact with. Don't frown upon them just because they have a different skin color then you, that's not your place. Just love them the same & one day you will be rewarded, greatly.
I guess this just hit a soft spot in me tonight & I needed to write. I wanted the world to know just how I felt on this subject.
Many people most likely don't agree with me & that's fine. You don't have to, I'm not asking for acceptance, I'm just giving you a chance to hear my side.
Someday my house will be filled with beautiful black & white feet running across my floors. Of children that know what it feels like to be loved & adored & accepted. Who knows, maybe a handsome black boy will enter my life & we'll make our own exquisite dark skinned children. Only God knows, but I do know that I will love you just the same. No matter what you look like.
grace.
Tonight someone very dear to me didn't accept something I love & adore.
There was a conversation flowing throughout my house tonight about adopting adorable black babies, & there was a person that entered our house that turned their back on the idea of someday having our house over-flowing with black babies or even a handsome black husband, if he were to enter mine or one of my sisters lives. They were not accepting.
I don't understand that. God loves us ALL the same, why can't this person? They are in no place to judge, but for some reason they had such a strong opinion on this.
One day, I will adopt a beautiful dark skinned baby & cover that child in love.
So will the rest of my family.
My sister was saying tonight how she wants to adopt at least two black babies. I adore that.
But, why is it so looked down on by certain people? Why? It's just a skin color, that's it.
You are in no place to judge, because if you were black, you'd hope that people would take the time to love you, right? I would love you just the same. I will love my someday babies just the same as I will my adopted children. There will be NO picking favorites. If you don't accept my 'views' on this, & won't love ALL of my family, well tough, you can leave.
I was raised up to love one another, just as Jesus does. <--why can't we remember that?
Black people are exquisite, in my opinion. Just stunning. & there are so many black children just waiting to have arms to love them & hold them. Wondering where their next meal will come from, or wondering if there will ever be someone that will love them. They want to be rocked to sleep & held when they're crying. Those beautiful black children desire all the same things we do, but so many of them lack ever being given the chance to be loved or accomplish their dreams. Why? Because there are too many people in this world looking down on them as if they are dirt. As if they are the scum of the earth & don't even deserve a second glance.
Who are we to think we're better then them?
This person that entered our home tonight told us that they would disown us if we ever had a black child or husband enter our home. They weren't kidding either. I don't agree with that, at all. Your views, are very low.
Why is it that blacks are so frowned upon, but when someone has a baby out of wedlock, it's fine by the majority of the world today? Or when someone is sleeping around or in a homosexual relationship?
We're ALL the same. Every single one of us is beautiful & loved by the one that created us & formed us. By the one that decided what color our skin would be, & who our parents would be. If we'd have two black parents or one black & one white, or two whites. God decided that & this is our chance to love everyone we come in contact with. Don't frown upon them just because they have a different skin color then you, that's not your place. Just love them the same & one day you will be rewarded, greatly.
I guess this just hit a soft spot in me tonight & I needed to write. I wanted the world to know just how I felt on this subject.
Many people most likely don't agree with me & that's fine. You don't have to, I'm not asking for acceptance, I'm just giving you a chance to hear my side.
Someday my house will be filled with beautiful black & white feet running across my floors. Of children that know what it feels like to be loved & adored & accepted. Who knows, maybe a handsome black boy will enter my life & we'll make our own exquisite dark skinned children. Only God knows, but I do know that I will love you just the same. No matter what you look like.
grace.
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