promise rings&wedding bands.

Tonight, I watched you walk away once again.
The first time I saw you was December 18th, 2013. It was just a glimpse, but that's all it took for me to remember you. That face. The way you stood above all the rest with your tall demeanor. Tonight I had my chance, even my sister told me to go for it, but I sat back & watched you walk away once again... This was fully my choice & as my parents sat across from me, I explained to them as to why I wasn't going to approach you.

You see, I've carried with me everyday since I turned 15 years old, this beautifully cut diamond ring on my left hand. It's more than a ring to me, it a promise. A promise to me, a promise to my Daddy God, & a promise to my parents, to stay pure. Most importantly though, it's a promise to my {future} husband. As I was facing my parents tonight, a smile started enchanting my world, a smile I honestly haven't seen in a couple years. & as I began to tell my parents why I won't take this ring of my left hand & re-position it to my right hand, I told them that the right man will still approach me. This ring won't scare him off, it'll only capture his gaze even more. I walked away tonight feeling a bit defeated & let down, only because I saw you fade into the dusk once again. I had my chance, but it wasn't my chance to take. When it comes to moments like these, I stand firm on being the girl & allowing you to be the man. Allowing you to be the one to approach me & lead from the start of 'us.'

Tonight wasn't that moment & that's okay.

You see, I haven't been happier than I am right now, in years. I am content in the person I am & who I'm becoming. Any time I think about the future & the husband that will one day capture my world, I am content in knowing that it's all in God's timing. There is no need in rushing God, because in the end, He's always going to go at His own pace. He knows when we are suppose to meet. He knows why 'this boy' didn't approach me tonight. Believe it or not, God is everywhere & know everything.

Tonight & for the rest of my 'single' days, I shall wear this Promise Ring on my left hand & wear it proudly. Someday, somewhere, the right man will approach me & then I will exchange this ring with a wedding band.