Being a mom.

(She wrote directly from my heart tonight.)

She helped me see a future I've been trying to make come alive all too quickly. She let me know that my time will come & one day I will know what it feels like to have my own little one kicking & breathing life inside of me. 

It's all I've ever wanted....to be a mom. To know what it's like to hear your child say "mama" for the first time. To see them take their first steps. That is my dream career. I don't want to be a doctor or business women, I want to be a mom. I want to be exactly what my mom was to her 5 children. I want to see my children grow up before my own eyes & not just hear of stories from my babysitter. I want to capture it on film & make memories with them & my husband.

I believe that this is the life I was created for, the life God wrote out for me the day He formed me in my mother's womb. He spoke words of kindness & compassion into my life. He aches when He hears my cries of desire to have that, to experience that love & know what it's like to be a mom. 

Tonight i let that ache be known, that desire to see my own belly grow & form into my own little blessing, but until that moment is mine to capture, I will wait upon The Lord. 

Tonight you said to me that this life sounded only but a book written fairy tale to you & I responded with...."maybe so, but it's my story that will be told for generations to come." 

&&, someday I will reap the rewards of holding out for the best.

.the writer.