Mistakes.

"Trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after every mistake."

{Nameless.}

Quote found today by a friend. It spoke a lot to me & really opened my eyes. Trust is so very important & I hope there isn't anyone out there in this world that will take someone's trust for granted. It's given easily the first time, but once it's broken, it's hard to gain back.

Grace.

November, November.

 Lovely people of the blogger world,

My goodness! This month is flying by. The leaves are falling & the trees are becoming bare. It's time to rake all the falling leaves & get ready for the beautiful Christmas season! --My most favorite time of the year....by far. 

I love giving to other people & seeing their faces light up when I give them the gift I've been working on for months. 

November is a joyful time of the year--Thanksgiving & spending time with the people closest to you. The times where you just surround yourself with family or the people you've come to call your family. It's a time to be thankful & not take this exquisite life of yours for granted. 

 

  "Another Fall passes with the colors changing and families returning home for the holidays while another cold Winter returns but it’s all the great wonders of Fall!"

I found this beautiful writing a while back & this is part of it--It's lovely in my opinion & it pretty much sums up the feeling I have inside of me right now. Fall is passing & it seems to be passing quicker this year than last year & the cold mornings are coming upon us. This morning was one of those morning.

What does November mean to me? What does it remind me of? Well, it reminds me of happiness & family. This year is going to be a bit different though, two of my sisters won't be joining us & it just simply won't be the same without them. My family is my world. --Some people may think that it's sad when all I have is family, but to be honest...It's happiness to me.  

November is eating Turkey til you're too full to eat anymore & then going shopping. It's lighting up the Christmas Tree & playing Christmas music--up until December 26th & then I'm done with it, until next year. November means being grateful & thinking of family & others before yourself.

--Around this time of every year, I start to get really inspired & really motivated to accomplish a lot of things. I want to accomplish so much in the next month & a half. 

Make a list. Write everything down that you want to accomplish before 2011 is over. Write it down & hold to it. You won't regret it, promise. 

Enjoy the rest of this year & make it worth your time. 

Loves.

.Grace

soaking.

Tonight I laid there.

I simply laid on the ground in God's presence. If you asked me when the last time that was that I did that, I wouldn't have an answer for you.
{It's hurts to admit it, but I don't want any of you to think I'm anywhere close to perfect.}

Tonight was the night that in the moment that I laid there with God, I put all worries aside & I talked to Him. I talked to Him as if He was literally sitting right beside me & to be honest, I think He was. He was laying right beside me, wiping the tears that were falling & comforting me...when all else was failing.

I soaked in my Daddy God tonight. It was magnificent. Something I've missed deeply & something that is just needed on nights like these.

This may not be a long writing for tonight, but I wanted to share this because maybe it'll spark something in one of you that are reading tonight--soak. Just lay there in His presence. Some days words aren't even needed, you just need to be in the same room & place as Him.

To fully be committed to Him & to let Him know that you aren't too busy for Him & Him alone.

My Daddy God, He never leaves. He never leaves us nor forsakes us--But, that doesn't mean I need to take advantage of that like I have been. I need to be grateful for it & give Him what He deserves.

My time. My willingness.

-Now, it's time for me to get a good night's sleep.
I have Cap & Gown pictures tomorrow...oh the joys of being a Senior in high school.

Goodnight beauties.

.Princess in Waiting.

Forever young.

  I did not write what you're about to read--but I came across it, while looking through old writings & found this that I had copied, some time ago. It really opened my eyes to what I seem to be realizing lately. Growing up & life is changing. No, it's not easy but, it's necessary for what is to come in our lives. Okay, I won't write a 'novel' this time, so enjoy & hopefully this'll hit you in the same way it did me. Or maybe in a different way.
Grace.


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As children we are told "forever" over & over again in fairy tales & other such stories that are bigger than our youthful minds. In those stories rainbows & love & happiness live on forever, hardly ever changing or growing or disappearing after the words "Happily ever after" are muttered & the story book is closed.

But as we grow up we learn the truth of forever. It is a reality, just one not as easily reached as we once thought. Rainbows fade, even with the sun & not solely darkness, love often lies to us & flees with time & even happiness cannot spread itself evenly over the span of anyone's life. The truth of forever is that it is never going to lighten up or bend itself for something that wasn't meant to last its length.

So then how do you know when you have something in your life that has the strength to last forever? How do you measure that bond? How do you believe in forever kind of things as you grow up & the world shows you how foolish your childhood stories really were?

For me, it's all become about feeling I suppose.

It's a very youthful thing, giving over to your feelings. A part of you has to stay young in order to surrender to them.

& it's all about passion. Passion is one of the strongest feelings we have.

"May you grow up to be righteous, may you grow up to be true. May you always know the truth & see the lights surrounding you. May you always be courageous, stand upright & be strong. May you stay forever young."

-Bob Dylan

Just one more day.

There are so many of us that wish we had 'just one more day.'
Or, one more minute or second. We all wish for that extra moment in time where we wish we had said the 'right thing' or done the right thing. We all wish for the moments that are forever gone, that have now passed.

Take in the time you have now. The moments you have now & the people you have in your life NOW. You are not promised to have them in your life tomorrow--they could decide that they need to move on or that there is something or someone better out there. Take this moment in your hands, right now & make it for ALL it's worth. Don't wait til tomorrow to say something you really want to say now. -What if you never get the chance? What if that moment never comes back around?

Take this moment in time in your hands & enjoy it. Love it. Live it.
Believe in it & let the people in your life know just how special they are to you.
Don't wait for tomorrow to come to change what you want to change NOW.

Soak in the love of Our Father in Heaven & thank Him for the lovely people He has put in your life. He put them there for a purpose...you do realize that, right? Everyone that walks in & out of your life is put here for a reason. They are here to either hurt you, to build you, to love you, to miss you, to encourage you, to support you, to believe in you, or to be here for a really long time. -they all hold a place in your life, a meaning, a reason.

Don't take them for granted, don't take this moment for granted.
There's a reason behind every point, obstacle, road block, adventure, challenge...they all hold a lovely meaning. Something worth enjoying & realizing that they are all only here for a short period of time. Your life is ever changing & there are seasons in your life, times for things to be good & times for things to be super hard. -No, it's not fun to face the super hard season of your life, but you have to go through that to get to the better season.

If everything in life was always easy, why would be ever need God?
We wouldn't. That's the true answer. We wouldn't desire Him like we do, we wouldn't want Him like we do. It just wouldn't be the same, because it's through the tough roads when we find peace in Him & happiness. With Him we can make it through the obstacles & really muddy paths of life, because it says in His word...

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. & God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
-1st Corinthians 10:13 

God will NOT give us more than we can handle & if we truly think we can't handle something in our life, we need to take it to God. We need to bow at His feet & ask for His help. He never leaves us, know this. He's not running away, like some people may do to you in this life. He doesn't run, at least not away from you. He may run towards you.


This moment in time, don't take it for granted. be thankful for the people you have in your life & the people that God either brought back in or even took out. It's not a bad thing to be grateful for that because they were taken out for a reason. -God has a plan for everything in this beautiful life of yours.

I guess tonight this just really hit home with me, being grateful for the people that are in my life & even the people God felt necessary to take out, even if it was for a short while. He knows the reason, I may not but, that's why I continue to seek God, because through Him...I'll find the answers I need.

For everyone out there tonight in this lovely world that is reading about my life, if you get anything out of this I would want it to be this--
Cherish every moment you have with someone, as if it were your last. {Because it may be your last.}
& Be grateful for this life God has given to you, because not everyone can have a life as great as yours.
"If we all threw our problems in a pile & saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back."
{nameless.}
It's true, we would. In a heartbeat.
In this season of your life, be thankful, be loving, be kind. -You never know who you may run into & what kind of battle they may be fighting inside of them.

Goodnight lovelies.

.Grace.

letting go.

"Sometimes you tell yourself you have to let go, because the other person already has."

-Nameless.

It may be hard, but it can also be the best decision you make in your life. Letting go, being free. -Waiting for God to intercede instead of your own wants & desires to make it last, just one more day.

God works everything out in His timing & if it's not His timing, it simply won't work. It will fail. Sometimes the truth hurts, but I read this quote once, I think I've posted it on here before but I'm going to write it again...

"The worst thing about being lied to, is knowing you weren't worth the truth."

Isn't that the truth? It may hurt to hear the truth in the beginning, but wouldn't it hurt worse to find out in the end that you've been lied to for awhile now? & in the time they lied to you, you could have been moving on. Building yourself back up instead of holding on to something that had been dead for awhile now?

The truth hurts, but speak it if necessary. Be honest. Be truthful. Be kind.

We may not all have it together & we all may be fighting our own battles inside of us & holding things in, but God knows who we need in our life. The people we need to come in, to leave & to stay for a lifetime.

I'm not saying it's fun to see people leave. To have to say 'goodbye' but, sometimes it's just time. Sometimes it's only for a short while & sometimes it's for the rest of your life.

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I'm a girl that gives her heart away often, maybe not 'romantically' but, I give it away by trusting people & investing in their lives. I believe in people & always give them the chances they deserve. -I'm not saying I regret that, ever. Because I don't. It's my own choice to stay in a friendship as long as I do, because I believe in that person & I believe in their dreams & the accomplishments they want to make in their life & I want to be the ONE person in their life that is their 'constant.' The person that is there at the beginning of the race & is there through all the curves & bumps & pot holes--& is still there when they reach the finish line. I want to be there for them.

To cheer them on, to cry with them. To make them smile & to be the one they can always count on. I know what it feels like to not have someone you feel like you can 'count on.'

It's a tough world, I know this. There are a lot of people tearing you down & there are few that are actually cheering you on.

--Be that one person.
Be that constant.
Be the person that cheers them on, on the really bad days.
& be the one that is there through thick & thin.

I wasn't planning on sharing this much tonight, but the past couple days I've been reminded of a lot. & I've been trying to remind myself of what's truly important in my life. & WHO is truly important.

I hope this finds you today & encourages YOU.

.Grace.

Brown eyed girl.

-I'm a sucker for boys with dimples.

-I enjoy this season. a lot.

-I just made a Christmas music album yesterday. Pure bliss.

-My life is always changing. There is never a dull moment in the life of me, Hannah Grace.

-The only thing I hate about this season is when my hands get all dried out...yuck.

-Thanksgiving is coming up & I have something huge to be thankful for this year, the fact that's I'm about to be an Aunt!!

-I want to hold a boy's hand.

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I'm a brown eyed girl. A girl that is longing for the 'better tomorrow.'
I'm hard to get along with & sometimes stubborn.
I have a hard time with lazy people & I'm striving in my Senior Year of high school.
I have a tendency to procrastinate until the very last second, but it always turns out okay. I have my best inspirations late at night.
I enjoy Daddy/Daughter date nights.
& I miss the days of being little.
I miss being called 'Grace.'
I feel like my heart & mind are stuck in a beautifully written book, that I long to be in. For the rest of time.

I'm not perfect. No where near it to be honest. But, who is?! We're all trying to find our spot in this world. Our perfect place, where we're accepted & loved. Some people have already found that spot & some of us are still searching.

I'm a girl that messes up at times. I get myself into little stopping points in my life where I have to face God & say, "I'm sorry." -I enjoy the little things in life, as in watching the Moon grow with every night that passes & then just gazing at it when it's FINALLY that lovely full Moon.

Or the moments that have me stop in my tracks because I notice how God is molding me, right at that moment in time. Where He is changing me & building me.

I find happiness in the smallest parts of my heart. I love the cool mornings when I have coffee in hand & I see that first leaf poking out that is a beautiful orange color & it shows me that Fall is on it's way. I find happiness in that.

I over-think too much, because I worry about what people think of me. I try to please everyone. Not the best thing to take on in life. -I've learned that you can't please everyone, but I still try. everyday.

I'm in a season of changing- a season of molding. This season God is testing me I believe. Seeing what path I'll choose, on my own. Without my parents giving their input. I have to make this choice. I have to decide on my own what I want. They've chosen this for me for years & now it's my turn to pick the road I want to take.

I'm fickle. I'm crazy. & I have a heart that is exploding. -exploding with love & care & happiness & joy & sympathy. A heart that is ready to give. Give everything I have. Everything I am for the people that truly need it. I'm ready to build myself up & the people around me in this new season.

I'm ready to say 'hello' again.
I'm ready to become someone I've longed to know. Someone I've searched for, for years. She wasn't ready...until now.

{I'm just a brown eyed girl.}

.Grace.

That boy.

--Find that 'gentleman' & hold tight.
Don't let go.
Don't give up when you have your first fight.
Don't walk away mad.
believe in each others dreams.
encourage.
love.
& most importantly don't settle for just anyone. Stand firm in your desires, God knows them & He has your love story in His hands. Trust Him.