Monday, May 31, 2010

The crash of the Ocean.

The place I feel the most at home would have to be walking on the Clearwater Beach, or any beach for that matter, but Clearwater would have to be my hometown beach. I get inspired by God's creation, and beauty of this world. I see wonder, and grace, and just by seeing a beach Sunrise, I see all of God's works at hand in that one Sunrise. I know God loves to make people happy, and give them the desires of their hearts, so by giving a Sunrise it starts off everyone's morning in an awesome way. Filled with God is the best way!

I feel God's beauty with looking at the Moon, and seeing a Sunset, or Sunrise. Which with Sunrise's I've seen VERY few of those :) I simply see God is the midst of the woods, or in the middle of a pond. I love to grab my journal and a pen, and sit outside and just write to My God.

Okay so I'm going to try to explain what I'm feeling right now, but I have all these thoughts in my head, but I don't know how I can form them into words, but I'll try.

I feel at home by the Ocean, I'm not really sure why, but I do. I feel God's presence there with me, with taking a walk with Him. I need to find that "home" place again, it's been awhile since I've been to a beach...almost a year, and I need to find Him in the deep part of my heart, and feel Him guiding me beside still waters. I want to talk with My God, I want to experience the view of the beautiful Sunrise again.

I guess because I don't live by an Ocean anymore, I find God in the midst of the woods while hiking. Which don't get me wrong, is an awesome place to find God. He's shown me a lot while hiking. I see His beauty, and He's also taught me many things. I've learned to love all the beauty around me instead of just longing for what I use to have, because yeah I might have grown up for 4 and 1/2 years by the beach but that doesn't mean that I can't see God's beauty somewhere else. He has it everywhere for me, just waiting for me to realize it, and capture it in my own eyes.

I need to find my spot in this world. I need to find my home and build from there. I need to find me. Until I find this place, I'll be searching, but with God by my side. If God takes me to Ireland or Tampa Florida, I'll go. I'll follow God with everything in me. I'm ready to follow His calling for my life. I'll simply follow.

-I believe I just got everything that was in my head to a writing...success!

..Goodnight, it's late and I'm tired. To all you dreamers, lovers, singers, Mothers, Fathers, and people that don't know what your calling is in life...Never give up! You'll find your place in this world someday. Just simply wait.

.Princess in Waiting.

Letters to Juliet.

These are my thoughts of the night....hope you'll enjoy them.

First off, I went to see the movie "Letters to Juliet" tonight with my Sister and Momma, and wow, that was a great movie! :) It showed me true love, and lasting love. I know it's just a movie, but it had us all believe in the power of love, and to show us that it's never too late to fall in-love. There is 1 person out there for everyone, and I know that no matter how long you wait, or how long you are single, God is bringing that person into your life, and they will come. You just have to be patient.

This movie gave me the courage to wait a little longer, and to have God as my Prince. I know I'm still pretty young but it's never too early to say, "I'm waiting for you love."

I guess my thoughts on tonight are to tell everyone out there that's reading this, is to say, hold onto your dreams, and believe in that love you'll find someday. No matter where you are in the world right now, believe in someday capturing that love God is holding onto for you right now.

If you're in Rome or if you're in Africa, or if you're miles and miles away from the one you love but you can't let them know that, just believe that someday it'll be the right timing. They'll come, and you'll have them.

This is going to be a sappy kind of blog tonight, but I know God has someone amazing out there for me. Someone that will give me the world, and someone I can look at everyday and think to myself, "how did I get so lucky with him?" I'm excited about that love. The day I'll be able to give all my love to one man, oh how I long for that day. Sweetheart, if you're reading this, wherever you are in the world tonight, please wait.

I'm holding onto my dreams tonight, and my love. I'm simply waiting.

.Princess in Waiting.

Friday, May 28, 2010

A dream that will last forever.

To most people my dreams are a mystery, but to very few they are well known.

I dream with a kind of dreaming where nothing else matters in the world except for how crazy my mind can dream.

I as a child use to dream of giant vegetables, and being just like my Mom once I had children of my own to love, I would imagine my children climbing up in my bed for a bed time song. I longed for that dream to become reality someday. But as the dreams of giant vegetables passed, and slowly faded into nothing, the dream of becoming a Mommy was still very important in my life. I wanted that life, I wanted children of my own that would say to me as their last words of the night.."I love you Mommy."

I believe that the reason this dream is so important to me is because I saw my Mom raise 5 children, and home school us all. She made it happen with such ease, and she loved her life, she still does. I saw her work a crazy day of home schooling us all, and then she would by the end of the day have Dinner made, and then she would make time for our "special song" every night. It's a dream that she longed for as a little child, and she made it become reality for her, yeah she had to wait for it, but she got the amazing Husband, and then she got her children.

If my dreams are shattered, and my love story isn't perfect, I do know one thing, I will love my own children someday.

.Princess in Waiting.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

I want to make a difference in this world.

Well I've been laying on the couch all day because my Jaw has been hurting pretty bad, and I have a sore throat...I know, bummer right?

Last night God called on me while in worship time with Him at church, but He called on me for a different reason this time. -I'll start from the beginning, during the message, they asked us all the question.."If you could do anything in the world RIGHT now, what would you do?" Well I asked myself that and also included God, and I came up with the answer, "Go on a Missions Trip, somewhere in the world, and travel for a living, giving back to the people that need clothes, bedding, food, Etc."

I'll be honest, this was totally God speaking to me because I didn't see this one coming, I figured it would be a simple answer like..."go to Rome with my friends, or meet the man I'm going to marry right now." ha! Have I ever told you that God has a mind of His own? Because He does :)

Don't get me wrong though, since I was about 12 years old I always wanted to go on a Missions Trip with my brother, but I thought it would be a 1 time thing, not something I did as a life choice. But hey I'm still young, and I don't know what my future holds, but God does!

I wanted to share this because I don't know how many of you are scared of what your future will hold, but I want to tell you to not be scared, because God holds your future. He knows your ending, and He will give you the desires of your heart if you lean on Him fully.

This look into the future last night for me when God was telling me about traveling the world and becoming a Missionary, was scary honestly, because I always said I would live in the same town as my parents so we would always be close, and so my children could know their grandparents really well, so yeah this scared me. Also though, I was over-joyed because the thought of giving back to the people that don't even know where their next meal will come from, is an amazing thought. I want that, I want to experience that. I want to see the love and excitement on the children's faces when I give them a stuffed animal to cuddle with at night. I want to make a difference in this world.

I don't know what my future will hold, because I thought I was going to go to College to become a Writer, but if I have Missions work in my future, well then I'll be pretty happy. I'll go anywhere God calls me to go, I won't just go, I'll go running to His calling for my life. :)

-Think about this...you NEVER know when God will be calling out to you, and you never know where you'll be when He calls out to you. You could be in the Supermarket, or you could be at the Gas Station, or you could be sitting in your room giving time to Our God, when He speaks to you. You never know where you'll be, but in my opinion it's always awesome when God speaks to me. :)

.Princess in Waiting.